12/26/12 Wed 12:40
cold, no wind
Christmas
word from Jess and Jude's sisters I organized papers and prepared for the review tomorrow. I rested this evening and watched a late movie on dvd
my future, earnings, generous gift to give, honest, freedom from guilt, too many rules and strictures and drama - freedom to do what I want
pressure that I feel is imposed on me by my parents, guilty feelings and shame feelings that their remarks evoke - I anticipate them
sore throat and tiredness, sore and split lip, fragile emotionally, good positive self-image
I don't see the person I am, I see the person I perceive - the distorted view of myself
Susie, time to relax, organizing papers
posted photos on Facebook, letters/notes on Facebook, gifts via Pandora
review and stop pussy-footing sidestepping your duties.
12/27/12 THURS 1:20
snow, freezing rain and sleet
holidays, congress debating social security
jude was working on school, ran to grocery store, stopped in school, dad was on teh road all day, chris worked in his room. I reviewed material and rested
woman, fun, travel, cousin visiting, progress, the future, tamshiyaku
money for tamshiyaku, vacation, to pay way through school
tired, sore throat cracked lip
yin, bowel hyperirregularity
the sore throat and laryngitis keeps recurring
susie, jude's groceries, rest, relaxation
water for susie
complete/review, rough draft of histories and model for your report
12/28/12 FRI 12:55
cold, windy
snowstorm, possibly more snow on the way
Jude and Dad worked on work today Chris worked in his room. I reviewed notes and consulted trail guide to teh body
women, companionship, Susie's growth and development, future practice, money for gifts, unclenched
gillian and david staying together, David's peace of mind, finishing and polishing my report having enough time to review
sore throat, aching muscles, GI issues, stressed, pressured, aggravated, angry resentful, optimistic
I have more days to work on my project that anticipated
Susie laying down with me, MacGruber, resting and studying - researching, heretofore unknown things
chores and shovelled
review draft your project
12/29/12 SAT 1:35
cold, dry, sunny and clear
holiday season
Jude and Dad scheduled a dinner with mert, eric, and pam, with brian's mom and brian. I studied all day btw several naps after being stirred from sleep and continued on and off during meals
being prepared - knowing, or showing evidence of knowing the material, finishing, polishing report
my knowledge of pt. location and function, JAA PPA, making up work in PPA
split lip, sore throat (abetting), dry nose, nervous and occupied mentally
I keep putting off the inevitable
Susie, company, amount of work I finished
n/a
work on report for a while, JAA - finish the history and begin draft of its history - polish draft and work on other histories
12/30/12 SUN 2:30
snow and excessive wind
snow storm second this week
we were snowed in all day Jude did school work dad worked on reported Chris worked in his room and I researched material for my report
finishing and polishing my report - expressing my thoughts and gathering references for future study
timing of finishing my report and reviewing material from other classes - how I will manage a job with this workload
sore throat belly pulse, sore neck, together mentally
I am very focused on this report - I put my sweat and blood into this research today
Susie, what I got accomplished researching my report my stamina
nada
finish researching and start shaping your histories and or reflections consult checklist.
12/31/12 MON 1:20
cold, windy, partly sunny
new year's day celebrations approaching
jude went on shopping errands, dad worked on reports, read and watched football, chris worked in his room, i worked on research, wks cited and intro to report
completing, polishing getting something out of this research project
timing with report pla studying needed to be done
bloated, lackadaisical sluggish avoidant behavior, indulgent, excessive and unattentive
i am inattentive to detail - what I wanted to do - focus on the moment - I did not do at any point today
cowboys/redsskins game, worked finished on report, sleep
forgot to say - acupressure on Jude last night
mail letters, finish intro, two histories and some of the personal treatment detailitis
1/1/13 TUES 2:45
cold, p/c, mostly c
New Year's celebration/remembrances
jude went to movies with friends Dad and I and Chris went to Subway before seeing Django Unchained, came back and opened presents and had dinner
having money - getting a job - providing for myself
my PLA midterm, comp, research project #2, time to study and prepare and somewhere down the line I think I'm going to be found out to a fraud - that I know very little that I'm a phony
fatigued, sluggish, unfocused, procrastinative, distracted, GI health good, worried and lacking confidence
I needed some time off, I'm turning into a Republican
movies and meals and presents and care and support my mom and dad and Chris have given
said thank you
finish a big part of my first draft and get the writing juices flowing - have a plant near you - that's what you're missing
1/2/13 WED 11:00
cold, cloudy
new year's day, sugar bowl, playoff preview
jude and dad worked, chris took in recycling and worked in his room. I worked all day long on my report and editing, rad ran on treadmill, then we had dinner and discussion, Jude and I called it an early night
the rest of my reports reviewing other classes, qigong potential and healing exercises
finishing my report to the polished level I like while fitting in a review of points
tired, overly tired and upset with my sleeping habits and laziness, dazed and confused, disoriented, under the weather
if there is such a thing as S.A.D. I have it - and I am wondering how common is it
Susie, report progress, discussion w/ dad, jokes with jude
offered to help jude, convo w/ dad
finish a fair amount of my report
1/4/13 FRI 1:10
cold, bitter, dry
first bisexual, first Hindu elected to Congress/Senate?
Jude went to work dad and chris worked at home I had two separate appartments for my teeth and spent rest of the day writing
getting these braces off once and for all - just a few months, free time to hunt for a job, see Erin's karate students
fiinding time for next project, clinic scheduling
constipated and full, energetic and enthusiastic
there are things that make me look forward to going back to Montclair
going back to Montclair, nice neighbors, considering Montclair St. won't be back for a few weeks, free time I'll have
nada
don't forget anything, look over your list and finish final TCM and Japanese history, try out video gaming system
1/6/13 SUN 3:15
balmy cold
NFL playoffs began w/ packers and texans advancing
Jude contacted me about the good news of the charity case - I emailed her back. I finished my paper in wee hrs. of the morning
getting back into a routine/knowing the breaks in the routine - confidence in my ability
listening to my mind instead of my heart
lacking confidence but reassurance relaxed and in control, itchy and nose scabs
i really am unrealistic, grandiose, haphazard, if they only know how much - I learned that I've gotta learn a straight laced way of getting a girl
finishing paper - resting
food garbage, catnip, prof. convo
stick to the list - learn how to be straight laced and not so uptight
1/6/12 SUN 10:30
cold, sunny
NFL playoffs cont'd baltimore and seattle moved on
jude received my email and organized the delivery of my labcoat
knowing pts by palpation and palpating some girls soon
relationships I don't have, my progress, what I know
better, almost there
I panic, I worry about what a job entails. I worry about bus routes because I'm afraid of getting dropped off miles from where I want to be like PSU
meeting and respect that comes with it - experience was good
filled in for Alla
haircut, spleen, flash cards - planning what days and how i'll travel to job hunt - 60% door to doo, 40% internet sounds good
1/8/13 TUES 2:15
cold and sunny, chilly
national championship a real dud. Perhaps the worst in history
jude emailed this evening replying to my email and gave me a lecture that I appear dirty with my hair this way, we spoke tonight - w/ exception of w.c. list, I handed in my report
my plants blooming - having some peace and quiet
losing my temper about noises stressing about grades and progress
ok
I am putting off less things and taking the initiative on more things in my life
third wheel, edgemont memorial park, dreaming of claridge view
nada
study spleen again and lookover notes a bit - put Jan 16th @ 11 or 2 figure it out
1/8/13 TUES 10:15
cold and sunny very pleasant springy
Alabama wins first back-to-back NCAA championships
no word from my parents. I went to class after sleeping in then looking over the spleen channel. I started to watch omen III
a day off to relax and reorganize, do as I please
job, two midterms in two weeks
anxious, lazy, procrastinating, dry nose, lonely, frustrated, irritated, angry and dissatisfied, disgruntled
I learned I am standoffish and afraid of digging in to palpate - I'm in a rush to be finished
joking with ryan, my quiz results, Sheila's humor banter and convo
thanked everyone for their help
look at schedule for January and see if you can visualize the month ahead.
1/9/12 WED 10:00
cold, sunny, no wind
RG III's surgery, Football news
no word from my family. I got up early today and started chores, ironed, did some errands and watched movies
finishing midterms with a good grade, having the afternoon off tomorrow
midterms, JAA, PAA, tests
itchy, sore jaw, dry, bloated, afraid
I get anxious about clinic observations - i'd much more like to be a wallflower
sole and kara mia, chores completed, soil and plants, indoor gardening, watering, pandora, ironing
sent kara mia pics and offered to help hillary
observe and report @ S.C. and come back and study JAA & PLA - flash cards JAA
1/11/13 FRI 12:55
cold, sunny
sports news inconsequential
jude emailed me, was planning to call but got caught up in work. I slept I'm called in sick to student clinic observation, did a few errands, watched movies before that - internal excercises
JAA & PAA, PLA and OTA quiz, quiz, midterms, worried about progress because midterms might reflect how poorly I've absorbed the information
over anxious, expectant on edge, foreboding, negative and pessimistic about everything
I am pessimistic about everything
I am pessimistic about everything and it has a lot to do with loneliness
picking up garbage cans, called Robbie Robot, emailed Jude and Dad
flash cards, and look ahead, maybe lookover some possible test question scenarios
1/11/12 FRI 9:35
rainy and cloudy early
classifieds montclair patch
jude emailed a reply, she described the events of the weekend w/ the baby shower. I studied JAA and made flash cards began reading Kiiko Vol. 1
wrapping up my studying and getting to more eye grabbing aspects of acupuncture
how much I'm sleeping, avoidance depression traumatic brain injuries, my progress, my north, my skills palpating, my knowledge of points to use
not 100%, confident of my preparation but unsure of what my results of tests may be
I made some connections today regarding acupuncture relationships w/ body
connection discovery, espn first take, jude's email, reading of kiiko completed, satisfaction of tasks completed
didn't see anyone
learn anything you can from mitchell chalek's GR
1/12/13 SAT 10:30
overcast, unseasonably warm
NFL divisional round - Ravens w/ miracle comeback, 49ers w/ lead before I turned game off
no word from my family or friends
visiting my sister, having a day off, or a few days off after tuesday, being well prepared for midterms
midterms, JAA quiz @ the end DNA quiz at the end
sound, doing exercise everyday
I have the endurance to do a group of internal exercises everyday
exercise, talking with classmates, studying, thinking about relationshipos, an apt. in verona
offered hillary some help wrap up sm. intestine studies, then move on to overview
1/14/13 MON 1:45
overcast
NFL divisional round - patriots, falcons advance
jude and jess and dan wrapped up Jude's 1/2 of the shower and jude sent me an article on bananas. Jess inquiring about specific details. I was absent to class today
the benefits of internal exercise and weight loss w/ green coffee extract
how I will get places when in columbia how I will balance studying w/ hunting for a job
bloated, anxious, afraid, avoidant, messy, lazy, incompetent and meticulous - old
I am willing to live a lie if it means being in a better comfort zone. There's not a decent way to show for acupuncture and if there is, I don't know about it
Seattle's comeback, Jude and Jess's email, exercises (internal) prospect of day off and prospect of a day off and prospect of healthy future, tom's email, norm's check0in
Hopefully Patricia recieved my copies and is enjoying them
find a way to study for Zheng's test that'll make you remembers - or find out from norm how he does it.
1/16/12 TUES 2:00
partly cloudy - rainy
NFL playoff games raise questions about during game decisions
no word from family, got an email from tom. I took the day off from studying
nothing at the moment accept results from internal exercises
my two midterms - both equally, job and fitting it in fatigue, depressionisolation, loneliness, avoidant behavior, antisocial behavior, untrustworthiness
sore throat, fatigue, lazy, unable to retain any information, impossible to motivate
I am weak willed when I get the mentality that the odds are stacked against me when I fight my biology
the lack of responsibility
I didn't see anyone
look over small intestine and if you can look ahead to what you can expect on the midterms
1/16/12 WED 2:30
rainy
N/A
no word from jude. I woke up very late and moped about in bed, went to OTA and PLA this afternoon. Cooked dinner and watched straw dogs
what i'm going to do with my day off
midterms, my parents, reminding me about searching for jobs, the travel aspect, public transport
bloated, up, disgruntled, unfocused, prayerful, hoping
prayer, especially the serenity prayer, helped me through a tough start to the day
serenity prayer, banter, tom and labelling points
lent my notes to Hillary
don't study all in one day - make a plan, possibly to break it up and even if you are going to drill, plan out your drilling in an outline. warn folks it'll be a busy week and probably little contact.
1/16/13 WED 10:30
rainy, snow early
snow in the forebast - snow for large part of the region
word from Jude, dad encouraging me to go to the sports dome and support on the test. I studied a little today and watched movies
getting midterms over with - getting to the fun stuff
depression, lack of joy, isolationism, sleeping in defeatist attitude, procrastination, and louze about, my prep and my performance on the midterms, PAA
fed up, joyless, uninspired, depressed, unhappy, unfulfilled, scared
I am so afraid - maybe its the seasonal affective disorder, I've gotta get grateful and order sonja loyabimursky's book again
workaholics, movies, hearing, from mom and dad
didn't see anyone really
finishing studying for OTA and start to incorporate PLA - make a plan
1/18/13 FRI 3:00
overcast
Mantay Teo is the victim and possibly the willing purpetrator of a hoax
word from judith words of encouragement and financial worries and I replied back. I was absent for observation at student clinic today, studied at night a few hours
finshing my test prep for my two midterms
time I devote to pla and ota, fatigue and long days draining me and getting fixated on the nfl games instead of turning the tv off
tired of braces, lazy unkempt, unorganized, procrastination
I am a bum and I can't handle pressure so I just avoid it
judith's email and under suspicion and new movies
told jude she made my night
really keep the tv shut off as a policy, get back to meditation
1/18/13 FRI 9:30
super cold
Mantai Teo - is it a hoax NFL conference championship round this weekend
no news from my family. studied my ass off for OTA in prep for midterms and then took a break from studying/ to get more rest for the weekend
finishing midterms, visiting jess, getting to work, shop, and go to an AA meeting, have some human contact, complete a course, get an idea of my progress
copms, my next report, finals, prof. lustig
midterm practical, nothing else, job seraching, public transportation routes, the weather
weak, itchy, lonely, in need of human contact, resentful, bitter, agitated, angry and fed up, lazy
aoiding is safer for me, I am going ever deeper into avoidant behavior and depression
finishing studying
didn't see anyone
back to internal exercise/review a bit for PLA - notes.
1/20/13 SUN 12:05
cold as shit
no big news
no news from family and friends I was absent from ECA today and studied late in the evening
finishing my midterms so i can move on
midterms - esp. point location, my depression, laziness, not getting my act together
fine, bloated, awake, preped for tuesday and fearing wednesday more
I fear job seraching more than i fear an examination
sleeping in, alla and norm's call
I didn't see/food garbage
PAA followed by wrapping up channel study and finish to get ready for major studying monday
1/21/13 MON 1:15
cold as a tit
superbowl 53 matchup is 49ers and ravens
email from jude and word from jess I will be down for an acupuncture and an herbal treatment during Tyler's birthday celebration
more energy, clearer thinking
that green coffee extract results in a neutralizing effect on my antidepressants
very alert and aware - woken from a coma
I'm getting back to 100%
talking with tom, kidding areound with everyone at eastern, tip sipping
complimented denis
study your best/ take breaks, copy - referrals for montclair h.s. students w/ caption reading, do not throw stones and did you know the first acupuncture needles were called bian stones
take 1/limit 1 p/p
1/22/13 TUES 12:30
cold as ice
MLK day, pres. obama inaugurated as president beginning of 2nd term
word from jess and convo w/ jess about columbia visit. studied most of the day w/ breaks in between
getting midterms over w/ getting research topic
PAA final, job hunt and transportation availability
sound, bit nervous
i am regaining energy from Svetol fiasco
breaks, ta and emails exchanged
food garbage, thanked michelle
wash thoroughly after point location practice
cold, no wind
Christmas
word from Jess and Jude's sisters I organized papers and prepared for the review tomorrow. I rested this evening and watched a late movie on dvd
my future, earnings, generous gift to give, honest, freedom from guilt, too many rules and strictures and drama - freedom to do what I want
pressure that I feel is imposed on me by my parents, guilty feelings and shame feelings that their remarks evoke - I anticipate them
sore throat and tiredness, sore and split lip, fragile emotionally, good positive self-image
I don't see the person I am, I see the person I perceive - the distorted view of myself
Susie, time to relax, organizing papers
posted photos on Facebook, letters/notes on Facebook, gifts via Pandora
review and stop pussy-footing sidestepping your duties.
12/27/12 THURS 1:20
snow, freezing rain and sleet
holidays, congress debating social security
jude was working on school, ran to grocery store, stopped in school, dad was on teh road all day, chris worked in his room. I reviewed material and rested
woman, fun, travel, cousin visiting, progress, the future, tamshiyaku
money for tamshiyaku, vacation, to pay way through school
tired, sore throat cracked lip
yin, bowel hyperirregularity
the sore throat and laryngitis keeps recurring
susie, jude's groceries, rest, relaxation
water for susie
complete/review, rough draft of histories and model for your report
12/28/12 FRI 12:55
cold, windy
snowstorm, possibly more snow on the way
Jude and Dad worked on work today Chris worked in his room. I reviewed notes and consulted trail guide to teh body
women, companionship, Susie's growth and development, future practice, money for gifts, unclenched
gillian and david staying together, David's peace of mind, finishing and polishing my report having enough time to review
sore throat, aching muscles, GI issues, stressed, pressured, aggravated, angry resentful, optimistic
I have more days to work on my project that anticipated
Susie laying down with me, MacGruber, resting and studying - researching, heretofore unknown things
chores and shovelled
review draft your project
12/29/12 SAT 1:35
cold, dry, sunny and clear
holiday season
Jude and Dad scheduled a dinner with mert, eric, and pam, with brian's mom and brian. I studied all day btw several naps after being stirred from sleep and continued on and off during meals
being prepared - knowing, or showing evidence of knowing the material, finishing, polishing report
my knowledge of pt. location and function, JAA PPA, making up work in PPA
split lip, sore throat (abetting), dry nose, nervous and occupied mentally
I keep putting off the inevitable
Susie, company, amount of work I finished
n/a
work on report for a while, JAA - finish the history and begin draft of its history - polish draft and work on other histories
12/30/12 SUN 2:30
snow and excessive wind
snow storm second this week
we were snowed in all day Jude did school work dad worked on reported Chris worked in his room and I researched material for my report
finishing and polishing my report - expressing my thoughts and gathering references for future study
timing of finishing my report and reviewing material from other classes - how I will manage a job with this workload
sore throat belly pulse, sore neck, together mentally
I am very focused on this report - I put my sweat and blood into this research today
Susie, what I got accomplished researching my report my stamina
nada
finish researching and start shaping your histories and or reflections consult checklist.
12/31/12 MON 1:20
cold, windy, partly sunny
new year's day celebrations approaching
jude went on shopping errands, dad worked on reports, read and watched football, chris worked in his room, i worked on research, wks cited and intro to report
completing, polishing getting something out of this research project
timing with report pla studying needed to be done
bloated, lackadaisical sluggish avoidant behavior, indulgent, excessive and unattentive
i am inattentive to detail - what I wanted to do - focus on the moment - I did not do at any point today
cowboys/redsskins game, worked finished on report, sleep
forgot to say - acupressure on Jude last night
mail letters, finish intro, two histories and some of the personal treatment detailitis
1/1/13 TUES 2:45
cold, p/c, mostly c
New Year's celebration/remembrances
jude went to movies with friends Dad and I and Chris went to Subway before seeing Django Unchained, came back and opened presents and had dinner
having money - getting a job - providing for myself
my PLA midterm, comp, research project #2, time to study and prepare and somewhere down the line I think I'm going to be found out to a fraud - that I know very little that I'm a phony
fatigued, sluggish, unfocused, procrastinative, distracted, GI health good, worried and lacking confidence
I needed some time off, I'm turning into a Republican
movies and meals and presents and care and support my mom and dad and Chris have given
said thank you
finish a big part of my first draft and get the writing juices flowing - have a plant near you - that's what you're missing
1/2/13 WED 11:00
cold, cloudy
new year's day, sugar bowl, playoff preview
jude and dad worked, chris took in recycling and worked in his room. I worked all day long on my report and editing, rad ran on treadmill, then we had dinner and discussion, Jude and I called it an early night
the rest of my reports reviewing other classes, qigong potential and healing exercises
finishing my report to the polished level I like while fitting in a review of points
tired, overly tired and upset with my sleeping habits and laziness, dazed and confused, disoriented, under the weather
if there is such a thing as S.A.D. I have it - and I am wondering how common is it
Susie, report progress, discussion w/ dad, jokes with jude
offered to help jude, convo w/ dad
finish a fair amount of my report
1/4/13 FRI 1:10
cold, bitter, dry
first bisexual, first Hindu elected to Congress/Senate?
Jude went to work dad and chris worked at home I had two separate appartments for my teeth and spent rest of the day writing
getting these braces off once and for all - just a few months, free time to hunt for a job, see Erin's karate students
fiinding time for next project, clinic scheduling
constipated and full, energetic and enthusiastic
there are things that make me look forward to going back to Montclair
going back to Montclair, nice neighbors, considering Montclair St. won't be back for a few weeks, free time I'll have
nada
don't forget anything, look over your list and finish final TCM and Japanese history, try out video gaming system
1/6/13 SUN 3:15
balmy cold
NFL playoffs began w/ packers and texans advancing
Jude contacted me about the good news of the charity case - I emailed her back. I finished my paper in wee hrs. of the morning
getting back into a routine/knowing the breaks in the routine - confidence in my ability
listening to my mind instead of my heart
lacking confidence but reassurance relaxed and in control, itchy and nose scabs
i really am unrealistic, grandiose, haphazard, if they only know how much - I learned that I've gotta learn a straight laced way of getting a girl
finishing paper - resting
food garbage, catnip, prof. convo
stick to the list - learn how to be straight laced and not so uptight
1/6/12 SUN 10:30
cold, sunny
NFL playoffs cont'd baltimore and seattle moved on
jude received my email and organized the delivery of my labcoat
knowing pts by palpation and palpating some girls soon
relationships I don't have, my progress, what I know
better, almost there
I panic, I worry about what a job entails. I worry about bus routes because I'm afraid of getting dropped off miles from where I want to be like PSU
meeting and respect that comes with it - experience was good
filled in for Alla
haircut, spleen, flash cards - planning what days and how i'll travel to job hunt - 60% door to doo, 40% internet sounds good
1/8/13 TUES 2:15
cold and sunny, chilly
national championship a real dud. Perhaps the worst in history
jude emailed this evening replying to my email and gave me a lecture that I appear dirty with my hair this way, we spoke tonight - w/ exception of w.c. list, I handed in my report
my plants blooming - having some peace and quiet
losing my temper about noises stressing about grades and progress
ok
I am putting off less things and taking the initiative on more things in my life
third wheel, edgemont memorial park, dreaming of claridge view
nada
study spleen again and lookover notes a bit - put Jan 16th @ 11 or 2 figure it out
1/8/13 TUES 10:15
cold and sunny very pleasant springy
Alabama wins first back-to-back NCAA championships
no word from my parents. I went to class after sleeping in then looking over the spleen channel. I started to watch omen III
a day off to relax and reorganize, do as I please
job, two midterms in two weeks
anxious, lazy, procrastinating, dry nose, lonely, frustrated, irritated, angry and dissatisfied, disgruntled
I learned I am standoffish and afraid of digging in to palpate - I'm in a rush to be finished
joking with ryan, my quiz results, Sheila's humor banter and convo
thanked everyone for their help
look at schedule for January and see if you can visualize the month ahead.
1/9/12 WED 10:00
cold, sunny, no wind
RG III's surgery, Football news
no word from my family. I got up early today and started chores, ironed, did some errands and watched movies
finishing midterms with a good grade, having the afternoon off tomorrow
midterms, JAA, PAA, tests
itchy, sore jaw, dry, bloated, afraid
I get anxious about clinic observations - i'd much more like to be a wallflower
sole and kara mia, chores completed, soil and plants, indoor gardening, watering, pandora, ironing
sent kara mia pics and offered to help hillary
observe and report @ S.C. and come back and study JAA & PLA - flash cards JAA
1/11/13 FRI 12:55
cold, sunny
sports news inconsequential
jude emailed me, was planning to call but got caught up in work. I slept I'm called in sick to student clinic observation, did a few errands, watched movies before that - internal excercises
JAA & PAA, PLA and OTA quiz, quiz, midterms, worried about progress because midterms might reflect how poorly I've absorbed the information
over anxious, expectant on edge, foreboding, negative and pessimistic about everything
I am pessimistic about everything
I am pessimistic about everything and it has a lot to do with loneliness
picking up garbage cans, called Robbie Robot, emailed Jude and Dad
flash cards, and look ahead, maybe lookover some possible test question scenarios
1/11/12 FRI 9:35
rainy and cloudy early
classifieds montclair patch
jude emailed a reply, she described the events of the weekend w/ the baby shower. I studied JAA and made flash cards began reading Kiiko Vol. 1
wrapping up my studying and getting to more eye grabbing aspects of acupuncture
how much I'm sleeping, avoidance depression traumatic brain injuries, my progress, my north, my skills palpating, my knowledge of points to use
not 100%, confident of my preparation but unsure of what my results of tests may be
I made some connections today regarding acupuncture relationships w/ body
connection discovery, espn first take, jude's email, reading of kiiko completed, satisfaction of tasks completed
didn't see anyone
learn anything you can from mitchell chalek's GR
1/12/13 SAT 10:30
overcast, unseasonably warm
NFL divisional round - Ravens w/ miracle comeback, 49ers w/ lead before I turned game off
no word from my family or friends
visiting my sister, having a day off, or a few days off after tuesday, being well prepared for midterms
midterms, JAA quiz @ the end DNA quiz at the end
sound, doing exercise everyday
I have the endurance to do a group of internal exercises everyday
exercise, talking with classmates, studying, thinking about relationshipos, an apt. in verona
offered hillary some help wrap up sm. intestine studies, then move on to overview
1/14/13 MON 1:45
overcast
NFL divisional round - patriots, falcons advance
jude and jess and dan wrapped up Jude's 1/2 of the shower and jude sent me an article on bananas. Jess inquiring about specific details. I was absent to class today
the benefits of internal exercise and weight loss w/ green coffee extract
how I will get places when in columbia how I will balance studying w/ hunting for a job
bloated, anxious, afraid, avoidant, messy, lazy, incompetent and meticulous - old
I am willing to live a lie if it means being in a better comfort zone. There's not a decent way to show for acupuncture and if there is, I don't know about it
Seattle's comeback, Jude and Jess's email, exercises (internal) prospect of day off and prospect of a day off and prospect of healthy future, tom's email, norm's check0in
Hopefully Patricia recieved my copies and is enjoying them
find a way to study for Zheng's test that'll make you remembers - or find out from norm how he does it.
1/16/12 TUES 2:00
partly cloudy - rainy
NFL playoff games raise questions about during game decisions
no word from family, got an email from tom. I took the day off from studying
nothing at the moment accept results from internal exercises
my two midterms - both equally, job and fitting it in fatigue, depressionisolation, loneliness, avoidant behavior, antisocial behavior, untrustworthiness
sore throat, fatigue, lazy, unable to retain any information, impossible to motivate
I am weak willed when I get the mentality that the odds are stacked against me when I fight my biology
the lack of responsibility
I didn't see anyone
look over small intestine and if you can look ahead to what you can expect on the midterms
1/16/12 WED 2:30
rainy
N/A
no word from jude. I woke up very late and moped about in bed, went to OTA and PLA this afternoon. Cooked dinner and watched straw dogs
what i'm going to do with my day off
midterms, my parents, reminding me about searching for jobs, the travel aspect, public transport
bloated, up, disgruntled, unfocused, prayerful, hoping
prayer, especially the serenity prayer, helped me through a tough start to the day
serenity prayer, banter, tom and labelling points
lent my notes to Hillary
don't study all in one day - make a plan, possibly to break it up and even if you are going to drill, plan out your drilling in an outline. warn folks it'll be a busy week and probably little contact.
1/16/13 WED 10:30
rainy, snow early
snow in the forebast - snow for large part of the region
word from Jude, dad encouraging me to go to the sports dome and support on the test. I studied a little today and watched movies
getting midterms over with - getting to the fun stuff
depression, lack of joy, isolationism, sleeping in defeatist attitude, procrastination, and louze about, my prep and my performance on the midterms, PAA
fed up, joyless, uninspired, depressed, unhappy, unfulfilled, scared
I am so afraid - maybe its the seasonal affective disorder, I've gotta get grateful and order sonja loyabimursky's book again
workaholics, movies, hearing, from mom and dad
didn't see anyone really
finishing studying for OTA and start to incorporate PLA - make a plan
1/18/13 FRI 3:00
overcast
Mantay Teo is the victim and possibly the willing purpetrator of a hoax
word from judith words of encouragement and financial worries and I replied back. I was absent for observation at student clinic today, studied at night a few hours
finshing my test prep for my two midterms
time I devote to pla and ota, fatigue and long days draining me and getting fixated on the nfl games instead of turning the tv off
tired of braces, lazy unkempt, unorganized, procrastination
I am a bum and I can't handle pressure so I just avoid it
judith's email and under suspicion and new movies
told jude she made my night
really keep the tv shut off as a policy, get back to meditation
1/18/13 FRI 9:30
super cold
Mantai Teo - is it a hoax NFL conference championship round this weekend
no news from my family. studied my ass off for OTA in prep for midterms and then took a break from studying/ to get more rest for the weekend
finishing midterms, visiting jess, getting to work, shop, and go to an AA meeting, have some human contact, complete a course, get an idea of my progress
copms, my next report, finals, prof. lustig
midterm practical, nothing else, job seraching, public transportation routes, the weather
weak, itchy, lonely, in need of human contact, resentful, bitter, agitated, angry and fed up, lazy
aoiding is safer for me, I am going ever deeper into avoidant behavior and depression
finishing studying
didn't see anyone
back to internal exercise/review a bit for PLA - notes.
1/20/13 SUN 12:05
cold as shit
no big news
no news from family and friends I was absent from ECA today and studied late in the evening
finishing my midterms so i can move on
midterms - esp. point location, my depression, laziness, not getting my act together
fine, bloated, awake, preped for tuesday and fearing wednesday more
I fear job seraching more than i fear an examination
sleeping in, alla and norm's call
I didn't see/food garbage
PAA followed by wrapping up channel study and finish to get ready for major studying monday
1/21/13 MON 1:15
cold as a tit
superbowl 53 matchup is 49ers and ravens
email from jude and word from jess I will be down for an acupuncture and an herbal treatment during Tyler's birthday celebration
more energy, clearer thinking
that green coffee extract results in a neutralizing effect on my antidepressants
very alert and aware - woken from a coma
I'm getting back to 100%
talking with tom, kidding areound with everyone at eastern, tip sipping
complimented denis
study your best/ take breaks, copy - referrals for montclair h.s. students w/ caption reading, do not throw stones and did you know the first acupuncture needles were called bian stones
take 1/limit 1 p/p
1/22/13 TUES 12:30
cold as ice
MLK day, pres. obama inaugurated as president beginning of 2nd term
word from jess and convo w/ jess about columbia visit. studied most of the day w/ breaks in between
getting midterms over w/ getting research topic
PAA final, job hunt and transportation availability
sound, bit nervous
i am regaining energy from Svetol fiasco
breaks, ta and emails exchanged
food garbage, thanked michelle
wash thoroughly after point location practice
No comments:
Post a Comment