2/27/13 WED 11:15
Cold, balmy, overcast, rain early
Snow in parts of NE
No word from family except short FB message. I slept in
& attended A&P II called it an early night no exercises
Starting immortal qi gong for something soon - fall maybe,
exercises for now, working at zoo
Making calls for jobs
Sound, tired, depressed somewhat & desirous
I am desirous
Norm, jess’s comment, knowing mom is happy
I gave the gift of my listening
Clean, groceries, bank, ironing, etc.
2/29/13 FRI 1:45
Cold, overcast, slt. Rain
n/a
word from Jess, that Madelynn likes the blanket. I caught up
on chores today
exercises, esp. immortal, learning more about acupuncture
crunch time, pressure, under boss’s supervision, neighbors
affecting my psyche, enduring Sunday
strong, aware, ready for calls
I am still displaying avoidant behavior
Pic of madelynn w/ blanket
Gave the gift of my listening
Call all on the list, deliver, resume to sda – soccer domain
2/30/13 FRI 1:15
Cold, not too bad, very dark and cloudy
n/a
no news from family I emailed when I got up mailed jury
summons paper worked in studying after tennis and quit early, napped early
evening
exercises – maybe getting my notes copied for Sunday,
finishing studying bl channel
this neighbors’ affect on my psyche
resentful, enraged, immasculating, cold and worried
I spent the entire night feeling hatred towards my new
neighbor and it can’t be healthy
The girls above me have been very respectful and that makes
me happy
I emailed jude and gave the gift of my presence
Finish 5 element homework and lookover bl channel
3/2/13 SAT 11:00
Cold, a few flurries
n/a
no news from family – I emailed to find out electricity co
acct. # spent day studying and filling out homework
exercises, immortal qi gong, mt tomorrow, getting/retrieving
notes, finishing clinic hours – writing girls a thank you note, I think I
discovered my causative factor – same as brian jones
neighbors – encountering mike or meg, loudness, parties,
smoking on the deck, confrontation
confused, avoidant, ambivalent, depersonalization
I can avoid interacting with neighbors
Sleeping in, finishing a large chunk of homework
Gave others the gift of my presence
Hand in papers – maybe after studying pts on bladder – maybe
look at the reasoning behind some of the pts used in and out of clinic
3/4/13 MON 1:45
Cold as hades
n/a
jude arrived back in the Poconos & said goodbye to jess
and dan and maddy today. She sent and dad sent my electric, account #. I
attended mt II today and attended #5 for ½ hr.
possibly getting a job w/ parks and recreation or the soccer
dome/ exercises and immortal exercises
15 years out of the game
Awake sore thumb/pain, ready to stay up all night
I cannot overdo it w/ acupuncture study and it can be done –
the project
Mike, norm, alla, Deanna, erin, ryan
Dunno
Send in resume, make calls, call Dr. V. & mail
application
Cold as #*(t
Dredging starts approved for Edgemont memorial park
Talked w/ jude tonight when to observation this evening and
was treated
Sleeping & spec. restoring
Bl quiz, Kelly/ michelle
Tired
I like the clinic setting – maybe opportunistic to join
forces w/ 1 or 2 acupuncture to confer to
Gave the gift of my presence
Write letters and pet letter to mr. mangili & Maureen
wenk, thank you letter – starting off please accept my thank you
3/6/13 WED 4:02
Crisp, spring weather
Dow hits high, elephants endangered species article
No news from jess except for her to wish me good morning and
inform me how long she’ll be out of work – 3-6 months
Being an uncle to madelynn, Lac, mom or whatever the Bradley
john Hartzler, B.A. Lit, Mom.
OCD, varicocele
Just awake as hell, very good
Acupuncture and coffee beans and guarano seeds = up all
night
Energy level and joking with everyone
Gave the gift of my presence
Plan a spring break – get together, figure out positioning
of back shu points
3/6/13 WED 11:00
Rain/now potential torrential
Storm news
No word from any family
Exercises, esp. immortal qigong exercises
Nothing, losing my breath, maybe
Old @ times, young some respects
Acupuncture can have a lingering effect
Convo, ryan, energy,
roxy music
Gave the gift of my presence
Go on your best judgement
3/9/13 SAT 12:50
Snowy – 3 in.
Snow, pictures of snow
Called Chris this afternoon, morning about sending tape of
h.s. soccer video – after meeting w/Anthony and Ashley Hammond and got them to
allow me 20 minutes for a training session. I did the shoveling and errands,
brainstormed ideas, saw Kate
Getting opr. To do this, news hobs
Nervousness
Sound
Accusations really affect me deeply
Kate mcdunnough
Gave the gift of my presence
Write up a good plan
3/1/13 SAT 11:00
Sunny, fair, warmish
Hugo chavez died
Jude called at hoon about checking acct. deposit. I attended
qi gong and part of acupuncture along with tom, came home, ate lunch, rested,
tea, dinner w/ tom, grocery shopping, dessert
Waking up and living in the wow
Stress is unmanageable, no soreness, the strength and
influence of my training session
Very good, full
I have doubts about what I can offer the staff of sda
Tom – dinner with family
Gave tom some herbs
Make a training session that’s fun for you – that you can
get something out of (besides just what they think about it)
3/11/13 MON 2:15
Sunny, partly warm
n/a
called Jude tnight and messaged and exchanged pleasantries
w/ jess, attended observation and treatment w/ leslie, esatm alum, late eve nap
recovering and discovering pts good for varicocele fr.
Classmates
my lower back and digestive issues
improved
leslie is a gifted acupuncturist, tom and I are going to
have a reputation as badasses
leslie has a great spiriti and a healing touch
I helped Tom rationalize the circumstances he found himself
in yesterday
Keep your training session simple, have heart (speak from
the heart and have purpose behind your lesson
3/12/13 TUES 12:15
Cool, balmy, p/c
Program to help Montclair
workers manage stress
No news from family. I worked on errands and stopped into
sda, organized notes, late eve nap
How living in the wow has improved my outlook
Fear and pressure of training exercises – make spa more
multimedia – fox soccer channel, cafĂ©, bright lights – sell merchandise,
t-shirts
Tired
I’m thinking in terms of Chinese medicine
My training exercise ideas
Offered used lacrosse ball, my shoes
Speak from the heart, coffee
3/13/13 WED 2:38 a.m.
Partly sunny
19th straight heat win, no big east championships
Contact jude during dinner w/ the Paughs’ and she called,
later, brf message exchange w/ jess I attended classes today and played pickup
@ sda soccer dome
Exercises, acupuncture in the future – money I received
Fear of looking for jobs
Wired
I’m hooked on caffeine again
Sharing coffee and response I got from people
Shared coffee w/ everyone
Pick up coffee mugs, stick to the list
3/13/13 WED 8:30
Cool, balmy, sunny, parta day
Kurdt cobain’s death anniversary approaching
Picked up height chair for someone as gift dropped off
message and referrals to sd, checked up if I could exchange shoes w/ soccer
store, had tea with norm and went to first ½ of A&P II, ate dinner and
called it an early night due to tireness, headache and muscle ache
My health, my stamina
Guilt of missing, classes, my emotional state and stress
level, my frame of mind, fear of looking for ajob
Sore tight, constipated, tired, crabby, antisocial
I expect what’s going to happen before I live it
Norm inviting me to tea
Bought Jess a height chair
Catch up on rest and continue w/ job search
3/14/13 THURS 8;30
Cold then mild
Not really much news
Brief messages exchanged w/ jess words/message exchanged w/
dad pertaining to stocking h.s. I ran errands
Immortality exercises, next treatment, spring brk.
Grades always
Itchy, expectant
I am always trying to heal myself, solve my issues
Thankless job thought, tennis, morning (refreshed), coffee
co avocado burrito
Lacross ball, message to jess
Nothing as of yet
3/13/13 SAT 12:10
Cold, b/c
No news
No word from anyone in family I ran errands, ate a deli on
watchung, finished clinic manual, organized boobs, tidied up, played tennis,
napped, showered, shopped, dinnered and went to bed at midnight
Interesting projects, designs, ayahuasca and herbs
Skill as an acupuncturist, my development
Alright, tired a bit, living in the wow
I curse (or curse at) anyone who startles me and I
absolutely despise New Jersey
drivers
Cheesesteak, organizing, staring @ nature, squirrels and
birds
Classified in – check the paper
3/16/13 SAT 9:17 p.m.
Flurries most of the day
n/a
Jude in Columbia ,
MD w/ jess and dan babysitting. I
ran some errands and did chores, fiddled w/ phone, cursed the day the girls
upstairs began frustrating my emotions
Immortal qigong, finishing tc, finishing this stuff, getting
cats, spring break, Susie time, easter w/ family
Anxiety, fear, miondset – depression
Little more depressed than usual snow hampers my ability to
enjoy nature – negative, moody, irritated, belligerent
I’m belligerent in the presence of the girls
Just keeping a good frame of mind and that carrying a good
frame of mind will guide you through confusing sutiations – in the other hand,
a drugged state of mind results in the opposite = plummet into the depths of
despair
Held the door for woman going into cvs talked w/ woman at
cvs, talked with jude
Concentrate and live in the wow
3/17/13 SUN 11:00
Cold, very
n/a
no news, I attended class all day, late grocery shoping
after pre-dusk tennis session
exercises, sleep, learned stuff, grades
quiz Tuesday, both
confident, fulfilled, jumping ahead to break
I can be clutch under pressure
Test results
Complemented woman,
Copy and record journal entries, letter, review
3/18/13 MON 11:39
Cold, real cold
No news, storm I spose
No word from family or friends
Living in the wow
Quiz tom
Anxious, dreading studying, avoidant
I thought I had a pretty good handle on studying for these
quizzes but maybe not
Studying, squirrel, tennis
Didn’t see anyone to really brighten – forks and spoons –
for esatm
Print more sheets, study, avoid cramming
3/20/13 WED 12:00
Rainy and p/s
N/a
Called jude to ask about easter studied all morning and
afternoon and had class all eve.
Keeping up this immersion
My fear and procrastination in my job search
Sore nose, full and a bit chilly, overdone
I overdid it w/ the movie watching
Quiz results, shelia’s, living in the wow
n/a, gave gift of my presence live in the wow, print –
journal pages, copy, journal
3/21/13 THURS 12:24
Cold p/s
7 K looted in Jewelry from valley rd. home in Montclair
Studied for a few hours and attended class in the evening,
chris shuttled me home
Sleeping, braces out
Getting up
Tired
n/a
Susie
n/a
n/a
2/21/13 THURS 12:40
Cold as hell
n/a
no news from my family, I went to student clinic early, came
back ate lunch and napped, went to a&P II
exercises and time off to go to Maryland and possible appt. @ muih –
destroying the girls above me
anger, noise upstairs as a distraction, finding a job
bloated, dig. And gastr. Problems, mad as a hornet mentally
checked out irritated beyond belief
there seems to be no end to my frustration towards the girls
upstairs
thank you from patients thank you from interns
I helped out and gave the gift of my presence, my listening,
my benefit
Finish call list, take over a copy of my resume to sda for
Ashley Hammond address to who’s its – chores and study student manual
2/22/13 FRIDAY
Cold as hell frigid temps
n/a – Montclair
reports inappropr. Relationship btw teacher (woman) and 15 yr. old boy
Jude called tonight
I rested a day of rest today
Jess and visiting her for the birth – getting things cleaned
Getting everything done I say I’m gonna get done anger and
hatred towards the girls above me
Constipated, lack of confidence
I’m still avoidant
Argo’s ending
Talking with jude
Get chores done
2/22/13 FRI 8:10 p.m.
Cold, p/c
Local high schools off for winter/skiing vacation ends today
back to school Monday
No word from family. I lazed the day away, did some
household chores, skipped internal exercises for (opted for sleep)
Exercises – getting some of this acupuncture stuff down cold
My skill level in acupuncture, fear, lassitude isolating and
laziness, putting calls off procrastination and white lying – it’s lying
Bloated and constipated, lazy
I dunno what listless means
Just being able to take it easy
n/a
scrub my kitchen bathroom, dust the house
2/24/13/ SUN 1:15
Rainy
n/a
exercises, a degree and master’s in acupuncture Pittsburgh practice
consequences to missing today, not really I can make em up
ok, stimulated and afraid of tomorrow, afraid but prepared
for Monday
I am a chickensh_t
The raven, no noise tonight from the girls
n/a
scrub bathroom, put away laundry, sweep and iron
2/25/13 MON 9:50
Cold, not too bad
Oscars results, Jennifer Lawrence best actress
We visited jess early afternoon to evening then ate at
Jason’s deli
Getting some work done on acupuncture studies, exercises,
training
Call list, sleeping in, avoidant behavior
Emptied, GI’ally sound, weak and tired and sore neck
I’m a bad decision maker – so that’s a gb issue
Madelynn ruth noecker, dinner relaxing, learning
Held the door and the to-go cartons, gave the gift of my
presence, my listening
Send letter to bob duggan
2/27/13 WED 3:15
Cold, rainy windy
Snow in black hills, plains region of U.S. and
blizzard
Woke up early to go visit jess at Mercy hospital in
Baltimore – to see MRN drove back to 121 park, unloaded had lunch at smash
burger, came back and rested head – headache
Exercises – immortal qigong – finishing homework and
observations and treatments in and out of class
Making up hrs., job, relationships, muih, progress, lustig,
test tomorrow
Soreness in wrist and fingers, all there, worried and lack
of confidence
I am lazy – compared to most and fatigued easily – I am
trying to live up to other people’s standards of what I’m supposed to be
Lunch was good, good news about electric – financial
assistance, check and card from jude, seeing her happy
Said happy birthday, complimented ryan
Get project description, sign up late Monday shift, call
about switching braces date
2/17/13 SUN 11:05
cold as shit, high wind, bitter
I skipped 5 Element, needed a day off - I worked on publishing my journal and errands to the library, returned a wallet and grocery store. evening ended w/ meeting, exercise and workaholics
exercises muih, new apartment, job potential
my window of opportunity to get a job, my anger for the girls upsetting me - invading my daily life
cold and secure in my future, insecure and unknown to me is my near future
I am going to have to live in the present and the near future
getting thank you from girl i returned the wallet to
returned a wallet
get up and stay for clinic at all costs
2/19/13 TUES 12:20
cold - real cold
montclair patch posted news via email I didn't read
word from dad regarding electric bill "reading - I couldn't find out location. I had observation all day and came home had tofu soup organized folders and watched bucky larson and qi gong and bed
my future as an acupuncturist, pittsburgh, maryland university of integrative health
getting my acupuncture treatment or herbal consulation in during midst of Jess' pregnancy
sniffly, ok, optimistic, fearful
I've got to quit judging my progress on the basis of comparison and I've got to write down more in my journals - use Jude's journal - use Jude's journal she gave me I should make more mistakes
thank you's, letitia's thank you, convos, lunch, the whole experience was awesome.
gae the gift of my listening
look over things - read through contact phone list, compose, start composing resume draft think of what you want your practice to look like, get information on masters in acupuncture and majors in herbal medicine, acupuncture from MUIH email Jennum
2/19/13 TUES 10:10
cold, rainy and foggy, low lying clouds
not watch the news today
email from dad regarding and reiterating location of meter, letter (email) from jude
exercises, baby, a break from classes - working distraction from my depression - money and savings
anger, irritation towards girls - their noise, mike parked outside, the meter location, bl channel, getting nere to make phone calls
back feels nice but i'm tired
I am not the most ambitious and not good when it's crunch time
palpitation was like a treatment prospect of tomorrow in clinic
treatment on ryan, gave my presence
just be present for all that happens and try to get in some rest before, check off name from list in january
1/25/13 FRI 12:30
cold-bitter
N/A
No news from Jude. I emailed them this morning. I wrote letters, bought a tennis ball pack, played tennis, put out copes of referrals for Montclair H.S. students
possibly, getting some referrals used by montclair h.s. students, HC on Sunday
papers blowing away, kids taking one but not using it, having to do speaking engagement, job searches and getting up the nerve to call people
timid, bored, uninterested
I got bored by the end of the day, I don't like being overweight - known this for a long time
cont'd progress with internal exercises, moxabustion use
N/A - hopefuly got someone to follow through with Acupuncture treatment
finish letters and make telephone number list of brainstorm (email/fax also)
1/26/13 SAT 1:40
cold, lt. snow
super bowl media day
talked with Jude regarding Dr. Seely's death and ()'s rehav trip. I worked on letters, napped late in the evening, wrote out letter to ().
Herbal concepts, women, job, something, anything to rid me of boredom
gusto to deal with calling about a job
ok
I learned I have a long way to go with my recovery efforts
fresh air, up early
n/a
qi gong and make a list (another)
1/27/13 SUN 12:15
cold-bitter, dry, sunny
NADA
Jude, flipped her car this morning, had some bumps and bruises. I messaged Jess. I informed Jude I'd like to use the car for a job fair and trip to columbia, md
columbia trip, women, relationships with multiple women
tests, comps, lustig, Jude's health after the accident, Jess's health, getting up staying awake for HC tomorrow
ok
I enjoyed getting up early and taking a nap in the afternoon
Jude is alright
lighten mood with Jude
stay awake - calisthenics
1/27/13 SUN 8:25
cold, sunny
teams to arrive @ new orleans tonight
jude contacted me and sent me patrick pio's info. I went to Herbal Concepts this morning and ate dinner after class and mailed letter to PAT and Mangili
getting some rest - I have to wait and see about jiao gu lan and moxa order correctness - time off to get my stuff together - maybe schedule a treatment or an observation, Jess's visit
job search, transportation, may have to borrow for interviewing - maybe rent-a-car
tired but aware
well to do good deeds. Even if you spend 10 years being charitable to others, you should not expect anything in return
James' thank you, Herbal concepts, the morning, tennis, Jude's email
helping james, email to Jude, mail to patrick
look into noise machine purchase
1/28/13 MON 8:30
cold, wet, drizzly, misty
nfl teams both arrive in new orleans, media day1
Jude woke up early worrying about after effects - I emailed her the latest developments. I contacted Kate regarding a potential job boxing books
waking early, checking off my list of potential employers/networking associated
anger, bitterness, and loathesomeness of the girls for their inconsiderate behavior
mad, fatigued, bloated, holding up well
i stopped a potential nocturnal emission
kate's email, my accomplishments
just talked
organize, call and network, take notes
1/3012 WED 12:00
springy
nfl superbowl media day, ray lewis implicated in deer antler banned substances ingredient
jess is to deliver soon - jude still recovering from accident, called tonight, I called this morning to see how she was doing. I put notes into the table of contents today
Jess's baby and the reponsibility that comes w/ it, maybe starting a savings bond for her child
if jess has more than one child - what savings bonds then
a bit immature resentful towards my parents for assuming I should follow suit
I am not ready for children, the responsibility of a family
knowing Jess is that far along
free google.com/books for everyone
bring resume and break down job experiencew / the parties at the booths
1/31/13 THURS 1:15
rainin' to beat the band
deer antler substance linkage w/ ray lewis' triceps detachment recovery
went to lunch with chris when he arrived at noon, took his car to turtleback zoo job fair, came home to the poconos, settled in during eveningb
going to jess's, getting 5-element observation going to tyler's b-day
beer and peer pressure to drink at ()'s, how to politely rise above the influence
sound, tired, bit scatterbrained and frazzled with stress of mother and father dynamic
mothers and fathers truly never see their children as a whole person - they are just the little one they gave birth to
susie - playing
send text to kara mia of gifts
vaccine, lookover notes, bathe, plan
131/13 THURS 11:15
cold and windy as hell
tornadoes, windy, high winds, snow possible this week
i got two baby innoculations (standard), picked up jude's rental car w/ day and joined jess in columbia, went out to eat dinner with jess
my consultation at tai sophia
printouts & time frame tomorrow
tired and const., well enough energy for 3 more miles
driving is stressful
jess's laugh, feeling the kick
presents, fish, politely letting cars in
intake form, lookover notes, gas, buy takeout tomorrow
2/1/12 FRI 9:15
cold
beyonce lip synched anthem, car stolen from heating-up car in montclair, supwerbowl harbaugh bros interview
i filled out 5 element intake form, went to appointment with jennum, got lost coming back to jess', waited for word about event-discount, ate trout and crabcakes, ice cream, lindt, watched moonrise kingdom
tomorrow's event, getting back to susie, learning points at intake and incorporating importance of 5-Element intake
pathologies, diseases, point combinations and point application, knowledge of disease, difficult problem mangagment
itchy bloated, uncomfortable around others, confident, charming belittled and insignificant (antithesis of self-sufficient dependency w/ guilt)
700 islands in bahamas, 30 inhabited, the importance of covering the whole gamut of personal questions, reiterating that "it doesn't leave the room
Intake, sophia skills, jennum ohara, thinking about susie, joking, Pat phone convo
trout, dishes
bring lunch to event
2/3/13 SAT 10:35
cold, snowy, little accumulation
snow storms and high winds and tornadoes, precipitation generally
I had breakfast and conversation with jude and dan this morning, attended seminar w/ dianne connelly and bob duggan
applying some of what i've learned at tai sophia
obtaining herbs, my judging, my own listening, constructed and construed in my own fashion
stuff nose and well and healthy
4 senses working as one - 5 even working as one, coaching, practicing listening, i hear, I observe what is your question - that is something your grandparents would want you sharing, in your presence i observed
bob duggan's seminar moved me and may I have your listening
give your fellow seekers of healing the tools they need to redefine their health
2/3/13 SUN 11:30
cold, overcast, flurries
superbowl XLVII
I woke and had breakfast and coffee w/ dan's parents, went to redefining health, broke for lunch to prime filet, came back and finished ceu, came back had dinner and watched superbowl on dvr
my exercises, learning to love again, finishing my errands and applying bob and dianne's principles
defenses toward these new ideas - expectations, however, lead to suffering
supwerlative
wow - living in the wow
bob signing my book and getting his card - feeling I got from the ceu
I changed the universe
practice listening, lookover notes from courses and redefining health, practice - pick up soc. security card
2/5/13 TUES 1:15
cold, lt. accum. of snow
ravens savor superbowl win, joe flacco contract negotiation
I traveled back to the poconos, lunched, napped, and did some chores had dinner, chris cooked, ended night watching capote (practiced techniques - redefining health)
job, money, applying what I've learned, having car, finishing chores, plants
no stress, no concern, not living life in opposition, no expectations
sound, rested, peaceful - i am what I am
I am what I am
susie, order, cleanliness, appl. of new practice
chores, gave hugs, said thank you, listened, I gave my listening as a gift
no expectations, put into practice, change the universe and live to serve others, ssn (card) to be delivered
2/6/13 WED 12:15
cold and p/c
snow showers periodically
shoveled the drive, beforehand had breakfast w/ Jude, drove back to Montclair, unpacked and rested, shopped for groceries and ended night w/ dinner and a movie
finishing 3 rounds of internal exercises tom, soc. security trip and working on errands list
fear, expectations, expecting a relationship, expecting anything will equal suffering
nose is stuffy, aware and using large mind
I am getting good at using large mind
The gift of listening and the 5 senses, taking everyone in today
party gifts to neighbors, acknowledging my father's fear and being straight with him
worsley chart, printer cartridge, gas, ssc, zoo trip, practice tools
2/6/13 WED 11:30
cold, sunny
petition to make acupuncture considered health care
email from judith regarding address issue and emailed her this evening, this morning visited office in cliften to get a ss card, ordered and visited and delivered message at zoo, ended evening with dinner exercises and workaholics
internal exercises, trip to baltimore and or columbia for delivery of her baby and herbal consult at acupuncture clinic/treatment, hc II, new year celebration, turtleback zoo stuff
transport to zoo, making calls about job query
stuffy nose, strong and fit
I don't need the YMCA
zoo visit
I listened - blessed others w/ my listening, I served others
notify Y to cancel membership, JMK.org, order question, order status, call list of job possibilities
2/8/13 FRI 12:52
cold, real cold
snowfall expected up to 10 in.
Dad and Chris came for his car and stayed for lunch and a trip to eagle rock reservation, I took a late afternoon nap to deal with headache, late dinner, late movie
exercises, my application of redefining health in my life
amount of human contact I am getting, that's just an expectation
sore, stuffy, rested, damp phlegm invasion
did bob want us - ahh that our symptoms had precursors in our spirit - sources in our emotions - disturbances - upsets - I am questioning acute-conditions - damp phlegm - what of that?
lunch
I gave people the gift of my listening
jmk.com dispute/track order, call numbers on list, study worsley chart
2/9/13 SAT 12:35
snowy - blizzard
snowstorm blankets NE
Jude and Dad replied via email. I worked on obtaining numbers for a potential jobs search
HCII or snow day - getting call list over w/ and cold gone - benefits of internal exercises
qi gong no longer concerned about classes tomorrow
stuffed up and lazy - overwarm and stifled, ok mentally and energy wise
my parents are hearing me
parents read and questioned their beliefs - walk, jeff and ryan interaction
gave the gift of my listening and spoke my mind, lived life on my terms
when opportunity arises - dispute charge on credit card, make remembering list additions, finalize call-list
2/9/13 SAT 10:40
windy, sunny, bright
snow, high winds, Jude emailed that she was off to shovel
jess having a kid - being an uncle, exercises
whether I can start a trust fund for the kid
headache, nose stuffy, head stuffy, I am functioning at a tip top rate
work I completed, exercises, shoveling, books retrieved
shoveled the driveway
print out valentine's day card and compose a message, finish number list
2/11/13 MON 1:00
cold, sunny
chinese new year
no word from my family had herbal concepts class all day and rested did some prep work in remembering transactions of point names
pictures and remembering pts and exercises
eating late at night and undigested stagnant food
sore, stuffy, anxious momentarily, accepting and receptive
I am practicing listening
listening, lunch, listening
gave people the gift of my listening, my jokes, gave the people gift of my speaking to better serve them
email - what's her name and schedule meetings and afterwards write letters (bi-monthly) friends and family. Once you get your ss call up Kate and ask for ride, last, get on bus, tell a joke, letter to bob duggan
2/12/13 TUES 12:30
snow fog and cold, m/c
n/a
word from jude query about pickup, returning ortho appt. time, I responded received ss# in the mail but didn't know bus routes, afternoon nap and dinner
exercises, losing weight, valentine's card, completing zoo application - pla and ota II
fitting in and making friends
well and able
I hold resentments against people for not doing what I suppose is their job - this is an irrational thought
walk, state of mind and nap
i gave the gift of my peaceful presence
glue, bus to zoo, calls
2/13/13 WED 12:15
cold, humidity high
n/a
i called chris this morning as I waited for a bus, I went to class came back for dessert and printed referrals
going home, peace and quiet, seeing susie, talking with my parents
my anger, my fear, irritation directed toward the girls above me - hatred and loathesomeness
sound
I have poor intuition when it comes to directions and travel
nap convo w teachers and students, ryan stephens
holding door, gift of listening, my peaceful presence
ryan stephens - talking with him
intramural info - check on - glue from cvs, deliver valentine cards, continue, if you have to phone convo w/ potential employers, revise valentine cards, ss card, bring mox and needles and study material
2/14/13 THURS 12:00
precipitation
N/A
chris picked me up at 10 oclock and drove me to the poconos - I lunched, napped and delivered a letter - stopped at grocery, helped prepare dinner and then ate dessert, performed internal exercises
exercises, finishing call list - disputing barclays charges
money, calling (courage for it), i've gotta dance with it - im not intervening i'm just inquiring
dust in throat, tight
i want to lose wt but don't know if internal exercises will do it
susie, nap, delivered letter valentine's day cards
list of things for dinner - and desserts and ice cream
2/15/13 FRI 12:35
cold but sunny
n/a
dad brought me back to montclair after an ortho appt. I got an angry letter from my neighbor. I wrote a handwritten note in response and received an email. I made it clear there would be no contact btw us or he would file a restraining order
nada
the noise and my anger towards the girls above me, the threats of my neighbor's boyfriend, dinner sunday - cleaning my apartment, calling tomorrow, finances
afraid, frightened, threatened, unwelcome, out of control, nervous, nostalgic, weepy
I've got to stick with mature individuals not immature kids who know no better
dad and mom's advice, thinking about how nice Kara Mia and James were
food garbage
call, laundry, little review maybe, print more journal entries
2/16/13 FRI 11:25
sunny, warm
no news seen
no word from family. I went to the bank, made some employment inroads and took a long nap that I seemed to need. I ended the night w/ internal exercises
dinner sunday - exercises, herbs, jess delivery, unclehood
mike and meg, girls not coming, jobs, my financial load on the family
feel very full of breath
i like internal exercises regiment. My neighbors upstairs are interfering with the quality of my sleep
nap, my positive attitude
plan on returning wallet
figure out name of Tai Sophia's, baked good and groceries tomorrow, return book and wallet, including card
2/16/13 SAT 10:30
cold - intense cold - seeps into your bones cold
not watch the news today
no word from my family. I slept in b/c the girl's party ruined my sleep - I went in for this afternoon's review and had early dinner, ended night w/ qi gong and writing patrick a letter
exercises improving my health and circulation and energy level - learnign more acupuncture - jess and baby, herbs and herb program - masters in acupuncture and herbology - at maryland university of integrative health
money, moving, boards, comps, pittsburgh, jobs, calling cold
i learned it's hard to function w/o an uninterrupted night's sleep
talking with my fellow students
I gave the gift of my listening
buy jude a book on healing exercises - look over some things, buy some soy products and some chocolate.
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