6/31/11 FRI 11:00 p.m.
crisp, cool
John Edwards indicted for using campaign funds to hide his mistress, pleads not-guilty, miffed @ judge
Jude and Jess in Jamaica, Dan invited us to Baltimore, mowed grass today (Chris & I), pool is filled
my future, women, money, meditation vows to be taken
Chris - my brother gaining weight, my dad overworking himself, if I'll have enough work pay to finally pay off loans, my parents expecting
sound
I have an anger problem
Federer winning French open semi
complimented dad on his dinner, thanked Chris for picking up groceries & coffee, sayin' he did good
none, just be
I don't know which direction my life (I am headed), but all I can see is a pessimistic future of solitude boredom, & loneliness, I imagine a tour of Europe, bummin' around & such, but with no objective or aim, I have an interest in medicine, TCM, & in many ways I'm experimenting & my body is an ongoing experiment. How long can I continue to ignore SPRMREA symptom & the varicocele? Will meditative practices or herbal supplement cure the SPTRE? Many questions tonight that I cannot answer myself - perhaps I can go to a confidante or even my parents but it will take time to deliberate, to think about this.
5/30/11 MON 10:00 p.m.
humid, muggy
Jim Tressel resigns from OSU
celebrated Chris B-day with kabobs & went out for ice cream, tomorrow's Cabelas - Chris & Dad go, Jude leaves WED for Balmore
Jude leaving, not as much pressure on myself, women, wanderlust
getting carried away, negative influence of my brother, gullibility more than anything - I'm really losing my manners
sharp and fit
I am very gullible, easily swayed, & I've gotta live from without, no-mind, rather than be pulled in.
ice-cream @ Hilltop, kabobs prospect of gifts & paying off debts.
complimented on nice meal
singles opportunities, ironing, gratitude letters to Jim's side of fam, mail your graduate application in to Marywood, think about p/t money raising opportunities
what the career possibility & probability is for nutrition
Grateful to be @ the point in time
grateful to be sober
grateful to have support
grateful to have saved money
grateful to be alive
5/4/11 Saturday 5:15 p.m.
cloudy, rainy/drizzly, cool
Li Na first Chinese woman to win a Tennis Grand Slam
Jess/Jude in Jamaica, Chris and I mowed lawn @ garden, Chris/Dad argued & we discussed procrastination, eating out of boredom, my concern
making money to pay off debts, the speaker meeting tonight
not having enough, breaking my rules of investment.
tired & out of touch a tad
be able to put faith in others - trust
talking with my dad about concerns I had over his weight
collecting chairs @ AA meeting thanking Chris for help
Perhaps I'm not looking at the right opportunity - that Honesdale Wellness Center may be a better training - look into & meet a representative there
What can I do with TCM - business obviously is the first notion - a licensed nutritionist & herbalist - but what's the best way - businessman - do I need business school to get a business sense? What would fatty America find interesting about alternative medicine? are there opportunities for alternative medicine in the healthcare industry?
google gadget ideas - important
any other accessible "aps"
5/29/11 Sunday 5:00 p.m.
humid p/c
who knows
Chris helped with garden lawn, Jude/Chris napping
Peru - maybe getting residence there, women, relationships, fulfilling sex life, getting healthy again, meditating, saving money/fat bank acct, p/t job
fear of failure, venturing out, my parent's dissapproval
stuffy but fit & sharp minded, light
miscommunication & harboring resentments
day off, new shoes
thought of gift ideas, thought about gratitude letters
GREs prep, ironing, hours, @ Reeder's women's meeting, who's hiring in the Poconos, how to find single women when the year is through, planning & making lists - Riding Pocono Pony Wednesday.
Grateful I'm payin' off debts, saving money
Grateful I'm thinking of others - I'm charitous - even moreso than when I was using, so that good quality, knowing it's mere irreguardless of usijng, is nice to know, substances accelerated and oversentimentalized my giving habits
Grateful I have clean water, nice clothes, adequate food, proper shelter & cool temperatures, friends, helpful friends & sober friends
Grateful for a new attitude
Grateful to be sober, to not have to worry about hangovers, headaches, sickness
grateful to have supportive parents
grateful to be alive & have a future
I need to discuss what is in the back of my mind - this force, pulling me toward a different set of circumstances & newfound freedom and liberty & adventure - it must be discussed 6/6/11. It's a pressing issue of great concern - debt complex" I know she is of the same mentality - I would like to test the waters in grad school, but in the long run wouldn't it be prudent to raise the funds I need to go? To put off & save for a year & go slowly? I don't wanna rush in, proceed with caution - What course of action should I take?
crisp, cool
John Edwards indicted for using campaign funds to hide his mistress, pleads not-guilty, miffed @ judge
Jude and Jess in Jamaica, Dan invited us to Baltimore, mowed grass today (Chris & I), pool is filled
my future, women, money, meditation vows to be taken
Chris - my brother gaining weight, my dad overworking himself, if I'll have enough work pay to finally pay off loans, my parents expecting
sound
I have an anger problem
Federer winning French open semi
complimented dad on his dinner, thanked Chris for picking up groceries & coffee, sayin' he did good
none, just be
I don't know which direction my life (I am headed), but all I can see is a pessimistic future of solitude boredom, & loneliness, I imagine a tour of Europe, bummin' around & such, but with no objective or aim, I have an interest in medicine, TCM, & in many ways I'm experimenting & my body is an ongoing experiment. How long can I continue to ignore SPRMREA symptom & the varicocele? Will meditative practices or herbal supplement cure the SPTRE? Many questions tonight that I cannot answer myself - perhaps I can go to a confidante or even my parents but it will take time to deliberate, to think about this.
5/30/11 MON 10:00 p.m.
humid, muggy
Jim Tressel resigns from OSU
celebrated Chris B-day with kabobs & went out for ice cream, tomorrow's Cabelas - Chris & Dad go, Jude leaves WED for Balmore
Jude leaving, not as much pressure on myself, women, wanderlust
getting carried away, negative influence of my brother, gullibility more than anything - I'm really losing my manners
sharp and fit
I am very gullible, easily swayed, & I've gotta live from without, no-mind, rather than be pulled in.
ice-cream @ Hilltop, kabobs prospect of gifts & paying off debts.
complimented on nice meal
singles opportunities, ironing, gratitude letters to Jim's side of fam, mail your graduate application in to Marywood, think about p/t money raising opportunities
what the career possibility & probability is for nutrition
Grateful to be @ the point in time
grateful to be sober
grateful to have support
grateful to have saved money
grateful to be alive
5/4/11 Saturday 5:15 p.m.
cloudy, rainy/drizzly, cool
Li Na first Chinese woman to win a Tennis Grand Slam
Jess/Jude in Jamaica, Chris and I mowed lawn @ garden, Chris/Dad argued & we discussed procrastination, eating out of boredom, my concern
making money to pay off debts, the speaker meeting tonight
not having enough, breaking my rules of investment.
tired & out of touch a tad
be able to put faith in others - trust
talking with my dad about concerns I had over his weight
collecting chairs @ AA meeting thanking Chris for help
Perhaps I'm not looking at the right opportunity - that Honesdale Wellness Center may be a better training - look into & meet a representative there
What can I do with TCM - business obviously is the first notion - a licensed nutritionist & herbalist - but what's the best way - businessman - do I need business school to get a business sense? What would fatty America find interesting about alternative medicine? are there opportunities for alternative medicine in the healthcare industry?
google gadget ideas - important
any other accessible "aps"
5/29/11 Sunday 5:00 p.m.
humid p/c
who knows
Chris helped with garden lawn, Jude/Chris napping
Peru - maybe getting residence there, women, relationships, fulfilling sex life, getting healthy again, meditating, saving money/fat bank acct, p/t job
fear of failure, venturing out, my parent's dissapproval
stuffy but fit & sharp minded, light
miscommunication & harboring resentments
day off, new shoes
thought of gift ideas, thought about gratitude letters
GREs prep, ironing, hours, @ Reeder's women's meeting, who's hiring in the Poconos, how to find single women when the year is through, planning & making lists - Riding Pocono Pony Wednesday.
Grateful I'm payin' off debts, saving money
Grateful I'm thinking of others - I'm charitous - even moreso than when I was using, so that good quality, knowing it's mere irreguardless of usijng, is nice to know, substances accelerated and oversentimentalized my giving habits
Grateful I have clean water, nice clothes, adequate food, proper shelter & cool temperatures, friends, helpful friends & sober friends
Grateful for a new attitude
Grateful to be sober, to not have to worry about hangovers, headaches, sickness
grateful to have supportive parents
grateful to be alive & have a future
I need to discuss what is in the back of my mind - this force, pulling me toward a different set of circumstances & newfound freedom and liberty & adventure - it must be discussed 6/6/11. It's a pressing issue of great concern - debt complex" I know she is of the same mentality - I would like to test the waters in grad school, but in the long run wouldn't it be prudent to raise the funds I need to go? To put off & save for a year & go slowly? I don't wanna rush in, proceed with caution - What course of action should I take?
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