3/11/12 Mon 3:00 a.m.
cold
NCCA Tournament Selection Sunday
Jude schoolwork, Dad fasting, Chris watches walking Dead. I walked Game Lands
collecting
money
sound as a pound
I have a lot of things undone
metal potential
coffee, etc.
reading material (brfcase), carryout metal w/ wheelbarrow
3/12/12 1:30 a.m. Tues
springy, allergiac
PSU women take on UTEP NCCA tournament
Jess called, Jude in bed early, Dad colonoscopy - I with hobo jungle & errands, Starbucks, PNC bank trip, received my NFL card today
getting healthy, restoring my eyes to normal
pink eye, going into APS recycling, passing A&P and not carrying resentments or anger into class
sound and energetic, apologetic and remorseful
I am concenred too much with staying out of debt and don't realize I've gotta go with the flow and get a negative ion generator, Jude - depersonalization
Susie Derkin's resting, Adam Black, Jude, Dad, Jude w/ sense of humor, Chris smiles and laughs
took Dad back, iced coffee, cleaned up State Gamelands
take in recycling and listen to their instruction where to go, finish some but not all of list, phone Dr. Chris ahead for Wednesday - what time suits him best - or is it a random time slot he's thinking
3/13/12 Tues 11:00
warm
Syrian violence
Jude book club, Dad Lowes and YMCA, Chris grilled
getting up and cashin gin on Old Resort's scrap metal
visitors to the old Resort
energetic and anxious
about tons of metal at old resort
old resort, golf and tennis, Susie, Adam Black, Google +, contacting potential letters of recommendation writers, finishing tasks on task list
petted cat and took her outside, was polite, chores, I didn't press Chris
getting out of Resort fast - if there's time go over to Hypsie Gap and wheel the final contents over, invest profits into PNC acct.
3/17/12 SAT 11:00 a.m.
cool
Lehigh upsets Duke NCCA bball
Dad to Gym, Jude from school has a cold and dispute w/ parent
the pressure that's off me w/ this class and being able to take away from it what I so choose
acceptance to Eastern, loneliness, isolation, boredom, unhappiness, being unfulfilled
sound, bloated
I'm tired for no good reason sometimes
Susie, plants and animals, weather, completing essay, filing, organization, Internet, Lehigh winning and Duke losing
Fed Susie
Get going forward with transcript requests - first consult if Eastern requires online registration first, then proceed
3/18/12 SUN 1:00 a.m.
nice
VCU eliminated
Dad and I to Dee's dinner with family, Jude read and approved essay
women and Montclair
getting accepted - # of qualified applicants
strong
I'm tired - I'm better when I'm active
Susie Derkins, mountain rose, chunk soaps
coffee/decaf
finish/prepare admissions applications for Eastern, phone Chris
3/18/12 SUN 10:42 p.m.
balmy
Lehigh plays 2nd round
I had coffee commitment at Albrightsville, Jude sick, dad worked on stocking box, I took and Dad took a nap
making money in spring, being financially secure - being part of action of a city, sending in application - meditation - never for pride but to prove to myself
job/worklife entanglements, chronic fatigue syndrome.
sound, especially since reestablishing psyllium seed back into diet
I should not overdoit - when my heart is not in it - I've gotta figure out a way to open my heart up to wonder, love and happiness
Susie, nice nap, spending money thinking about the beach
coffee commitment
mail envelope - 8x11 size from Staples, etc. see about scrapping for Wed, Wed crucial to verify Asian Institute and scrapping, YMCA, psyllium - call and possible pickup of log at coop
3/19/12 TUES 1:00 a.m.
calm
Peyton Manning to Denver, Broncos, Tim Tebow gets dumped
Jude sick w/ cold, Dad w/ electrofishing box, me mailed letter, Chris and I on stream tomorrow
making enough money to afford an apt. Montclair, women, meditation vow, acceptance to Eastern or Glenside
getting accepted to Eastern
sound as a pound
I'm hungry a lot, I skipped a meal tonight
the sun, planting, how could it get boring, possibility of selling @ local farmer's market
tea, picked up delivered luggage school, petted Susie gave her new litter, Adam Black
keep to the list
3/22/12 Thurs 12:00 a.m.
balmy
Tim Tebow to Jets
Dad and Chris to W. Pa tomorrow
sleep
class tom.
ok
I overate malted milk balls
recycling money hard work
offered dinner
breakfast, tea, coffee
rest and pace yrself
3/22/12 Thurs. 11:15 p.m.
nice
Tim Tebow, Sweet 16 tnight
Dad and Chris arrive in New Wilmington, remove septic, Jude does not get Italian ice from lil' Pio, I returned Sal Nuzzio's wallet
women
my balls, my gut
can't complain
I eat too much sugar, I've gotta cut back
metal money, hug from a stranger
returned wallet, said hi, was pleasant
go to Lab and try not to fall asleep, metal @ old mill, 715 - apt. "Hustler" apartments
3/23/12 FRI 11:00 p.m.
warm
Nada
Dad and Chris in W. PA, Jude and I have Chinese, joke around, I went to Keep it Simple group, E. Stroudsburg
Montclair tomorrow
Montclair tomorrow
sound, full
Nada
Dick, Susie, Sun, money, meditation prospect
was nice
Montclair 11:00 a.m. departure, GPS, from Chris, recycling, trash pickup
3/24/12 SAT 12:00 a.m.
cool
autopsy reports Whitney Houston had cocaine in her system
Jude yelled tonight - about petty things like water & etc. change the broken record
nothing
getting accepted, my workload, tuition payments, passing A&P I
ok
I prefer a town with rails and bikes to one with cars, I hate driving long distances
betel nut irony, money, class registration A&P II
nothing
just haul trash & at end of day, get last of metal for tomorrow morning from Hypsie Gap and Desales and the old man's place and put old camp alice as possibility
3/27/12 TUES 12:00 a.m.
freezing
Trayvon Martin and stand your ground law
Dad and Chris back, whole family to Chili's and Jess' gift card was declined
making money, getting some hours, trains, NY
having enough money, classes, city and traffic, acceptance
sound as a pound
as a group - family is very contradictory in conversation
58 from APS, seeing house demolished, scrap metal
coffee offer, trash pickup
water plants, trash pickup
3/28/12 WED 12:40
cold
blah
Dad for the second straight wk continues to sleep on a mattress in the family room
scrapping tomorrow and picking up trash
money, time to devote toward class, this summer vs. free time spent
overworked
I need a meeting
Jude saying my shrimp salad was good, not having to work because of cold, tagging along with dad for errands, a nap
shrimp salad Jude
use guarana seed responsibly
3/28/12 WED 11:15
cool
Tebow
Chris rearranges room, Dad and Jude go over financial aid, Jude tripped, fell, hurt her elbow, wrist, and hand, Dad worked and went to park
working this spring
passing AandP w/ a "C" or better - don't think it's gonna happen
sound, energetic, optimistic
treasure is not what it may appear to be - copper wire can be mistaken for iron
copper (what I thought was wire)
got Jude advil, chores
don't be so mean-spirited to Chris - tell him your feelings - don't tell him your feelings - would be wrong
3/29/12 THURS 11:30
cool
Bill Parcells possibly Saints coach
Dad, Jude and I meet, Dad, Chris and I cut trees
meeting with Heather, getting test and lab practical studying and testing overwith
getting a "C" or higher
sound as a pound
I'm very rivalry-minded with Chris and I must learn to accept him for who he is - not as I see him - my perception
PNC, pig key chain, scrapping
asked to heat Dad's tea, called Pam "the best"
pick up railway material, and look into that as potential sources for metal, only at this point areas beside the roadway, finances (receipts and purchases)
3/30/12 FRI 9:57
sunny
Trayvon Martin maybe a drug dealer?
Jude fatigued, exhausted, sore shoulder, Dad to YMCA, Chris drove me back to car after I locked keys in
making money, scrapping, having more freedom and personal space
maintaining above a "C" at Eastern, studying
sound
I wanna keep busy
study guide
filled up brother's tank
hold off on scrapping, spend time preparing for test, at least two hours
4/1/12 SUN 12 a.m.
cool
Kansas/Kentucky NCCA matchup
everyone but me saw "Hunger Games," Dad and I to Argots
getting this class off my chest, just not giving a shit about what I get
how this course grade is going to set me back
sound angry and frustrated about the class I'm taking
I hate my class and don't want to study
tagging along w/dad waking up early
thought of ways to brighten someone's day
read Chapters and take quiz
4/2/12 MON 10:45 p.m.
cool
Kentucky vs. Kansas - Calipari wins first NCCA championship
Dad, Chris, and I cut up trees, Jude makes halushka with my aid
the summer, making money, ref. course, vacation
timing of Eastern, whether I'll be accepted, if I have to make the choice between Eastern and Glenside
sound
I'm very impatient
weather, nap, tennis, thinking of buying things
chores, compliments
buy tennis racket, work when not preoccupied, scrap for Wednesday night
4/3/12 TUES 9:30
warm
christian school in Oakland 43 year old S. Koren man, former student, kills 7
Dad and Chris to grocery store, we cut up trees, Chris and I cleaned up garden lawn
getting some money saved, finishing this course, having a relationship
classes at Eastern, so close to NYC, fulfilling work and study obligation
sound as a pound
I don't have to overwork myself
sun, hrs. tennis racket
killed the clutter bug
scrap metal
4/4/12 WED 10:00 p.m.
cool
Baylor national champions (womens)
Chris and I received Rob for delivery of fish and trahsed, tomorrow's job is up in the air
making money, buying what I want and need most
nothing at this moment
sound as a pound
I am a procrastinator
scrapping, Steven the Bonser property's new owner, fresh air and exercise, Susie Derkins
Directions, thought of sharing, shared jokes
get rest, sew pants back together, figure out early on what the plan is for tomorrow, look over muscles, tidying up, look over NCAAOM and Eastern requirements
4/5/12 FRI 9:00
chilly
Good Friday, visitors to The Bascilica of St. Peter's Vatican
Dad biked Hypsie Gap, Jude away all day, stocked 450 fish, tomorrow is opening day
women, meditating, herbs, ahyahuasca, traveling
my next AandP, acceptance, maintaining steady employment
clear
my job is more formulaic than anything
nice day, finishing lab practical, the weekend to look ahead, thinking of the shore, Amber Heard, paradise
petted Susie Derkins
letter, visit Aura Fabrics
hit up meeting, make a list, schedule meeting w/ Jake about Library book
4/6/12 SUN 12:00 a.m.
crisp
pilot crashes Jet into VA Beach apartments - no one hurt
Dad, Chris, and I stocking day, Jude made Lasagna, Jude turns in earlier while we watch Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy
the future - big moves in big city
work responsibilities, what not passing AandP will mean to my course load in the fall
sound, rested
I keep making all the same mistakes
sun, kids smiles, Ian McKnight's daughter's beauty, thinking of women and making companionship with them
said thanks
make a list thorough list against all odds
4/7/12 SUN 11:00 p.m.
warm
Easter Sunday
basket from Jude, pay off, watered plants, Chris/Jude/I watched Carnage - a Roman Polanski COMEDY - was funny
making money, cute girls, herbs, ayahuasca, sex, meditation
holding a job, city distractions, lust and love, my program
sound, energetic
I am lazy, unambitious, and a procrastinator
movie "carnage"
prepared dinner, complimented Eric, and my recommendation preparers
do as Dad says, try to get to Kemp, schedule w/ Heather
4/9/12 MON 10:30 p.m.
cool
2 men 33 years old arrested in Tulsa, randomly shot 3 people, killed, hurt others
Jude off school, Dad and Chris and I cut up trees then Chris and I did roadside cleanup
making and saving money for Eastern w/ hopes I am accepted
getting accepted, AandP
sound
I enjoy making money, I can persevere through pain
Chris getting me metal
wishes I'd not pressed Chris so much
don't press Chris it'll allow him to flourish, make a more thorough list of goals that you want to accomplish
4/9/12 TUES 9:30
cool crisp
Syrian violence during UN peace truce
Jude book-club, Chris, Dad and I cut trees, I left class early, long afternoon nap, dad to grocery store, turkey burgers
making money, girls, kissing
A&P, getting accepted, getting an apt. in time
sound, bloated
I still fake being sick - I am a hypochondriac
Chris, beautiful girl A&P, dreams, chores, sun, tennis, amenities, turkey burger
complimented Chris, hugged Jude
find out how I can best prepare for classes - contact Kelly Williams - some prep. work
4/11/12 WED 9:00 p.m.
rainy
George Zimmerman, Trayvon Martin's killer, charged with 2nd degree murder
Jude home late, Dad worked at Prosser, Chris and I did roadside pickup until it rained, I scrapped 100 dollars today
Susie Derkins, making money, moving to Montclair and styding, getting prep. reading for Acupuncture studies
A&P - how it might affect the course of my studies and wallet
good, relieved
I overworked myself
Susie eating the paper of my journal, 100, Chris finishing laundry, girls thinking of sexy girls
complimented Chris bought tickets for Chris Dad and I for Friday
set date for time to buy Nei Ching on Calender
4/13/12 FRI 11:30 p.m.
crisp, clear skies
Santorum backs Romney
Jude has colonoscopy, Chris and I to the "Lockout" movie, Dad opts to cut down tree in sect. 4
getting this kidney stone dissolved
kidney stone affecting my health, Jude's attitude, bringing me down
kidney stone
kidney stone pain is intensifying
Lockout, Chris thanking me
paid for Dad and Chris' ticket
reassess, reassess list, budget NJ - Montclair - look outward for employment
4/14/12 SAT 10:30 p.m.
warm, opening day of fish season
Dad Chris and I patrolled, Judith sun-bathed and complained, did chores, Chris cooked meatloaf
investing money, meeting my goals, buying things I want
spermatocele, possibly occlusion, A&P, getting accepted to Eastern, paying Dad back
sound
I still have to fight depression
member's jokes, riding around, scrapping
jokes shared w/ members, complimented Chris
reassess
4/15/12 SUN 11:00
warm, humid
tornado season
Dad and Jude went to get financial house in order, Chris and I had day off
meeting women and companionship and financial security, skills security
passing all my classes, spermatocele, energy (stamina), impregnating women, obviously, I'm concerned about my own sobriety
I've got to learn how to kill boredom
Susie, money PNC, scrapping
nothing
morning scrap, share w/ Heather
4/18/12 WED 12 a.m.
warm
Pocono Summit man sets house and car with himself in it ablaze, dies
Dad to work tomorrow, Pohoqualine filled in 0-1 lane with rocks and stone, I skipped class and ran errands
the future
no having written in two nights, wet dreams, work tomorrow, Eric, authority figures, maintaining sobriety, time btw meetings
sound, good
I lack motivation and drive - I don't know how to learn it
Susie, Young Adult, sun, tennis, nap, getting supplies
nothing, oh "a great night"
look over upcoming skedge
4/20/12 Thurs 12:10
cool
Dick Clark died
Chris and I finished roadside pickup, Dad and Jude worked, Judy came
city, women, relationships, action
pollution, meditation, women relationships, babies, work part time/full time
sound, full-stomached
I have headaches and don't like taking pain relievers so hap-hazardly
finishing clean-up, time off room to breath, time to sleep-in, scrapping, scrapping money
everything I can
scrap, evaluate read some chapters, go to class and get what you can from it, bury your resentment, try to find Chinese herb books on Google - or mixtures, herb mixtures
4/20/12 FRI 12 a.m.
calm, crisp and cool
Wes Anderson's Moonrise Kingdom premiered trailer
Chris mowed at garden, I went to deliver scrap, and dad joined me at Dr. Helfst
getting my paycheck next month, scrapping, herbal experiments
getting accepted to Eastern
sound, thin
I get tired, gingko may help with my sexual disfunction
Benjamin's women company of a woman or two - or three
great days to most everybody
shadow, skip class, mow, go to a meeting
4/21/12 SAT 11:59
rainy
Pens force game 6
Jude to New York City, Chris and I day off because of potential rain
saving money, having a career - same thing to strive toward
maintaining focus
fatigued but mentally strong
I sleep when I have nothing to do
chores
everything possible
find something to occupy my time
4/22/12 SUN 10:25 p.m.
rainy
Earth Day
Jude tutored today
getting back to work, buying some items with my paycheck next month, but slowly
A&P, Eastern, apt. reponsibilities
sound as a pound
I need something to do, a project
map
gasoline
find a project
cold
NCCA Tournament Selection Sunday
Jude schoolwork, Dad fasting, Chris watches walking Dead. I walked Game Lands
collecting
money
sound as a pound
I have a lot of things undone
metal potential
coffee, etc.
reading material (brfcase), carryout metal w/ wheelbarrow
3/12/12 1:30 a.m. Tues
springy, allergiac
PSU women take on UTEP NCCA tournament
Jess called, Jude in bed early, Dad colonoscopy - I with hobo jungle & errands, Starbucks, PNC bank trip, received my NFL card today
getting healthy, restoring my eyes to normal
pink eye, going into APS recycling, passing A&P and not carrying resentments or anger into class
sound and energetic, apologetic and remorseful
I am concenred too much with staying out of debt and don't realize I've gotta go with the flow and get a negative ion generator, Jude - depersonalization
Susie Derkin's resting, Adam Black, Jude, Dad, Jude w/ sense of humor, Chris smiles and laughs
took Dad back, iced coffee, cleaned up State Gamelands
take in recycling and listen to their instruction where to go, finish some but not all of list, phone Dr. Chris ahead for Wednesday - what time suits him best - or is it a random time slot he's thinking
3/13/12 Tues 11:00
warm
Syrian violence
Jude book club, Dad Lowes and YMCA, Chris grilled
getting up and cashin gin on Old Resort's scrap metal
visitors to the old Resort
energetic and anxious
about tons of metal at old resort
old resort, golf and tennis, Susie, Adam Black, Google +, contacting potential letters of recommendation writers, finishing tasks on task list
petted cat and took her outside, was polite, chores, I didn't press Chris
getting out of Resort fast - if there's time go over to Hypsie Gap and wheel the final contents over, invest profits into PNC acct.
3/17/12 SAT 11:00 a.m.
cool
Lehigh upsets Duke NCCA bball
Dad to Gym, Jude from school has a cold and dispute w/ parent
the pressure that's off me w/ this class and being able to take away from it what I so choose
acceptance to Eastern, loneliness, isolation, boredom, unhappiness, being unfulfilled
sound, bloated
I'm tired for no good reason sometimes
Susie, plants and animals, weather, completing essay, filing, organization, Internet, Lehigh winning and Duke losing
Fed Susie
Get going forward with transcript requests - first consult if Eastern requires online registration first, then proceed
3/18/12 SUN 1:00 a.m.
nice
VCU eliminated
Dad and I to Dee's dinner with family, Jude read and approved essay
women and Montclair
getting accepted - # of qualified applicants
strong
I'm tired - I'm better when I'm active
Susie Derkins, mountain rose, chunk soaps
coffee/decaf
finish/prepare admissions applications for Eastern, phone Chris
3/18/12 SUN 10:42 p.m.
balmy
Lehigh plays 2nd round
I had coffee commitment at Albrightsville, Jude sick, dad worked on stocking box, I took and Dad took a nap
making money in spring, being financially secure - being part of action of a city, sending in application - meditation - never for pride but to prove to myself
job/worklife entanglements, chronic fatigue syndrome.
sound, especially since reestablishing psyllium seed back into diet
I should not overdoit - when my heart is not in it - I've gotta figure out a way to open my heart up to wonder, love and happiness
Susie, nice nap, spending money thinking about the beach
coffee commitment
mail envelope - 8x11 size from Staples, etc. see about scrapping for Wed, Wed crucial to verify Asian Institute and scrapping, YMCA, psyllium - call and possible pickup of log at coop
3/19/12 TUES 1:00 a.m.
calm
Peyton Manning to Denver, Broncos, Tim Tebow gets dumped
Jude sick w/ cold, Dad w/ electrofishing box, me mailed letter, Chris and I on stream tomorrow
making enough money to afford an apt. Montclair, women, meditation vow, acceptance to Eastern or Glenside
getting accepted to Eastern
sound as a pound
I'm hungry a lot, I skipped a meal tonight
the sun, planting, how could it get boring, possibility of selling @ local farmer's market
tea, picked up delivered luggage school, petted Susie gave her new litter, Adam Black
keep to the list
3/22/12 Thurs 12:00 a.m.
balmy
Tim Tebow to Jets
Dad and Chris to W. Pa tomorrow
sleep
class tom.
ok
I overate malted milk balls
recycling money hard work
offered dinner
breakfast, tea, coffee
rest and pace yrself
3/22/12 Thurs. 11:15 p.m.
nice
Tim Tebow, Sweet 16 tnight
Dad and Chris arrive in New Wilmington, remove septic, Jude does not get Italian ice from lil' Pio, I returned Sal Nuzzio's wallet
women
my balls, my gut
can't complain
I eat too much sugar, I've gotta cut back
metal money, hug from a stranger
returned wallet, said hi, was pleasant
go to Lab and try not to fall asleep, metal @ old mill, 715 - apt. "Hustler" apartments
3/23/12 FRI 11:00 p.m.
warm
Nada
Dad and Chris in W. PA, Jude and I have Chinese, joke around, I went to Keep it Simple group, E. Stroudsburg
Montclair tomorrow
Montclair tomorrow
sound, full
Nada
Dick, Susie, Sun, money, meditation prospect
was nice
Montclair 11:00 a.m. departure, GPS, from Chris, recycling, trash pickup
3/24/12 SAT 12:00 a.m.
cool
autopsy reports Whitney Houston had cocaine in her system
Jude yelled tonight - about petty things like water & etc. change the broken record
nothing
getting accepted, my workload, tuition payments, passing A&P I
ok
I prefer a town with rails and bikes to one with cars, I hate driving long distances
betel nut irony, money, class registration A&P II
nothing
just haul trash & at end of day, get last of metal for tomorrow morning from Hypsie Gap and Desales and the old man's place and put old camp alice as possibility
3/27/12 TUES 12:00 a.m.
freezing
Trayvon Martin and stand your ground law
Dad and Chris back, whole family to Chili's and Jess' gift card was declined
making money, getting some hours, trains, NY
having enough money, classes, city and traffic, acceptance
sound as a pound
as a group - family is very contradictory in conversation
58 from APS, seeing house demolished, scrap metal
coffee offer, trash pickup
water plants, trash pickup
3/28/12 WED 12:40
cold
blah
Dad for the second straight wk continues to sleep on a mattress in the family room
scrapping tomorrow and picking up trash
money, time to devote toward class, this summer vs. free time spent
overworked
I need a meeting
Jude saying my shrimp salad was good, not having to work because of cold, tagging along with dad for errands, a nap
shrimp salad Jude
use guarana seed responsibly
3/28/12 WED 11:15
cool
Tebow
Chris rearranges room, Dad and Jude go over financial aid, Jude tripped, fell, hurt her elbow, wrist, and hand, Dad worked and went to park
working this spring
passing AandP w/ a "C" or better - don't think it's gonna happen
sound, energetic, optimistic
treasure is not what it may appear to be - copper wire can be mistaken for iron
copper (what I thought was wire)
got Jude advil, chores
don't be so mean-spirited to Chris - tell him your feelings - don't tell him your feelings - would be wrong
3/29/12 THURS 11:30
cool
Bill Parcells possibly Saints coach
Dad, Jude and I meet, Dad, Chris and I cut trees
meeting with Heather, getting test and lab practical studying and testing overwith
getting a "C" or higher
sound as a pound
I'm very rivalry-minded with Chris and I must learn to accept him for who he is - not as I see him - my perception
PNC, pig key chain, scrapping
asked to heat Dad's tea, called Pam "the best"
pick up railway material, and look into that as potential sources for metal, only at this point areas beside the roadway, finances (receipts and purchases)
3/30/12 FRI 9:57
sunny
Trayvon Martin maybe a drug dealer?
Jude fatigued, exhausted, sore shoulder, Dad to YMCA, Chris drove me back to car after I locked keys in
making money, scrapping, having more freedom and personal space
maintaining above a "C" at Eastern, studying
sound
I wanna keep busy
study guide
filled up brother's tank
hold off on scrapping, spend time preparing for test, at least two hours
4/1/12 SUN 12 a.m.
cool
Kansas/Kentucky NCCA matchup
everyone but me saw "Hunger Games," Dad and I to Argots
getting this class off my chest, just not giving a shit about what I get
how this course grade is going to set me back
sound angry and frustrated about the class I'm taking
I hate my class and don't want to study
tagging along w/dad waking up early
thought of ways to brighten someone's day
read Chapters and take quiz
4/2/12 MON 10:45 p.m.
cool
Kentucky vs. Kansas - Calipari wins first NCCA championship
Dad, Chris, and I cut up trees, Jude makes halushka with my aid
the summer, making money, ref. course, vacation
timing of Eastern, whether I'll be accepted, if I have to make the choice between Eastern and Glenside
sound
I'm very impatient
weather, nap, tennis, thinking of buying things
chores, compliments
buy tennis racket, work when not preoccupied, scrap for Wednesday night
4/3/12 TUES 9:30
warm
christian school in Oakland 43 year old S. Koren man, former student, kills 7
Dad and Chris to grocery store, we cut up trees, Chris and I cleaned up garden lawn
getting some money saved, finishing this course, having a relationship
classes at Eastern, so close to NYC, fulfilling work and study obligation
sound as a pound
I don't have to overwork myself
sun, hrs. tennis racket
killed the clutter bug
scrap metal
4/4/12 WED 10:00 p.m.
cool
Baylor national champions (womens)
Chris and I received Rob for delivery of fish and trahsed, tomorrow's job is up in the air
making money, buying what I want and need most
nothing at this moment
sound as a pound
I am a procrastinator
scrapping, Steven the Bonser property's new owner, fresh air and exercise, Susie Derkins
Directions, thought of sharing, shared jokes
get rest, sew pants back together, figure out early on what the plan is for tomorrow, look over muscles, tidying up, look over NCAAOM and Eastern requirements
4/5/12 FRI 9:00
chilly
Good Friday, visitors to The Bascilica of St. Peter's Vatican
Dad biked Hypsie Gap, Jude away all day, stocked 450 fish, tomorrow is opening day
women, meditating, herbs, ahyahuasca, traveling
my next AandP, acceptance, maintaining steady employment
clear
my job is more formulaic than anything
nice day, finishing lab practical, the weekend to look ahead, thinking of the shore, Amber Heard, paradise
petted Susie Derkins
letter, visit Aura Fabrics
hit up meeting, make a list, schedule meeting w/ Jake about Library book
4/6/12 SUN 12:00 a.m.
crisp
pilot crashes Jet into VA Beach apartments - no one hurt
Dad, Chris, and I stocking day, Jude made Lasagna, Jude turns in earlier while we watch Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy
the future - big moves in big city
work responsibilities, what not passing AandP will mean to my course load in the fall
sound, rested
I keep making all the same mistakes
sun, kids smiles, Ian McKnight's daughter's beauty, thinking of women and making companionship with them
said thanks
make a list thorough list against all odds
4/7/12 SUN 11:00 p.m.
warm
Easter Sunday
basket from Jude, pay off, watered plants, Chris/Jude/I watched Carnage - a Roman Polanski COMEDY - was funny
making money, cute girls, herbs, ayahuasca, sex, meditation
holding a job, city distractions, lust and love, my program
sound, energetic
I am lazy, unambitious, and a procrastinator
movie "carnage"
prepared dinner, complimented Eric, and my recommendation preparers
do as Dad says, try to get to Kemp, schedule w/ Heather
4/9/12 MON 10:30 p.m.
cool
2 men 33 years old arrested in Tulsa, randomly shot 3 people, killed, hurt others
Jude off school, Dad and Chris and I cut up trees then Chris and I did roadside cleanup
making and saving money for Eastern w/ hopes I am accepted
getting accepted, AandP
sound
I enjoy making money, I can persevere through pain
Chris getting me metal
wishes I'd not pressed Chris so much
don't press Chris it'll allow him to flourish, make a more thorough list of goals that you want to accomplish
4/9/12 TUES 9:30
cool crisp
Syrian violence during UN peace truce
Jude book-club, Chris, Dad and I cut trees, I left class early, long afternoon nap, dad to grocery store, turkey burgers
making money, girls, kissing
A&P, getting accepted, getting an apt. in time
sound, bloated
I still fake being sick - I am a hypochondriac
Chris, beautiful girl A&P, dreams, chores, sun, tennis, amenities, turkey burger
complimented Chris, hugged Jude
find out how I can best prepare for classes - contact Kelly Williams - some prep. work
4/11/12 WED 9:00 p.m.
rainy
George Zimmerman, Trayvon Martin's killer, charged with 2nd degree murder
Jude home late, Dad worked at Prosser, Chris and I did roadside pickup until it rained, I scrapped 100 dollars today
Susie Derkins, making money, moving to Montclair and styding, getting prep. reading for Acupuncture studies
A&P - how it might affect the course of my studies and wallet
good, relieved
I overworked myself
Susie eating the paper of my journal, 100, Chris finishing laundry, girls thinking of sexy girls
complimented Chris bought tickets for Chris Dad and I for Friday
set date for time to buy Nei Ching on Calender
4/13/12 FRI 11:30 p.m.
crisp, clear skies
Santorum backs Romney
Jude has colonoscopy, Chris and I to the "Lockout" movie, Dad opts to cut down tree in sect. 4
getting this kidney stone dissolved
kidney stone affecting my health, Jude's attitude, bringing me down
kidney stone
kidney stone pain is intensifying
Lockout, Chris thanking me
paid for Dad and Chris' ticket
reassess, reassess list, budget NJ - Montclair - look outward for employment
4/14/12 SAT 10:30 p.m.
warm, opening day of fish season
Dad Chris and I patrolled, Judith sun-bathed and complained, did chores, Chris cooked meatloaf
investing money, meeting my goals, buying things I want
spermatocele, possibly occlusion, A&P, getting accepted to Eastern, paying Dad back
sound
I still have to fight depression
member's jokes, riding around, scrapping
jokes shared w/ members, complimented Chris
reassess
4/15/12 SUN 11:00
warm, humid
tornado season
Dad and Jude went to get financial house in order, Chris and I had day off
meeting women and companionship and financial security, skills security
passing all my classes, spermatocele, energy (stamina), impregnating women, obviously, I'm concerned about my own sobriety
I've got to learn how to kill boredom
Susie, money PNC, scrapping
nothing
morning scrap, share w/ Heather
4/18/12 WED 12 a.m.
warm
Pocono Summit man sets house and car with himself in it ablaze, dies
Dad to work tomorrow, Pohoqualine filled in 0-1 lane with rocks and stone, I skipped class and ran errands
the future
no having written in two nights, wet dreams, work tomorrow, Eric, authority figures, maintaining sobriety, time btw meetings
sound, good
I lack motivation and drive - I don't know how to learn it
Susie, Young Adult, sun, tennis, nap, getting supplies
nothing, oh "a great night"
look over upcoming skedge
4/20/12 Thurs 12:10
cool
Dick Clark died
Chris and I finished roadside pickup, Dad and Jude worked, Judy came
city, women, relationships, action
pollution, meditation, women relationships, babies, work part time/full time
sound, full-stomached
I have headaches and don't like taking pain relievers so hap-hazardly
finishing clean-up, time off room to breath, time to sleep-in, scrapping, scrapping money
everything I can
scrap, evaluate read some chapters, go to class and get what you can from it, bury your resentment, try to find Chinese herb books on Google - or mixtures, herb mixtures
4/20/12 FRI 12 a.m.
calm, crisp and cool
Wes Anderson's Moonrise Kingdom premiered trailer
Chris mowed at garden, I went to deliver scrap, and dad joined me at Dr. Helfst
getting my paycheck next month, scrapping, herbal experiments
getting accepted to Eastern
sound, thin
I get tired, gingko may help with my sexual disfunction
Benjamin's women company of a woman or two - or three
great days to most everybody
shadow, skip class, mow, go to a meeting
4/21/12 SAT 11:59
rainy
Pens force game 6
Jude to New York City, Chris and I day off because of potential rain
saving money, having a career - same thing to strive toward
maintaining focus
fatigued but mentally strong
I sleep when I have nothing to do
chores
everything possible
find something to occupy my time
4/22/12 SUN 10:25 p.m.
rainy
Earth Day
Jude tutored today
getting back to work, buying some items with my paycheck next month, but slowly
A&P, Eastern, apt. reponsibilities
sound as a pound
I need something to do, a project
map
gasoline
find a project
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