8/13/13 TUES 12:45
hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude home, 2 a days electrofishing
pirates, steelers, game, girls, health, acupuncture studies,
scrapping, copper
comps, tests this year, interning 1/wk
nice
copper wires
copper wires
gtgompp
maybe the manakin
8/13/13 TUES 11:30
hdatttw?
nnignsning
nnwfaf
scrapping with cautionary tales
my mother (controlling)
crontrolled and influenced too much
I am far too controlled by judith
susie
gtgompp
kiiko and student manual and notes perhaps 0 with point Rx
and Tx
8/14/13 WED 11:15
HDATTTW?
nnignsning
one can never leave
woman who don't exist
everything
mental
I unlearn something everyday
susie, mowing
gtgompp
scrap, pulse
8/15/13
hdatttw
nnignsning
nn
w. caldwell women
concerns,
mental
i unlearn something every day
substitute w/ indigestion
potential scrapping money to be made
gtgompp
pack and unpack and scrap
8/15/13 SAT 12:00
hdatttw?
nnignsning
to montclair to w. caldwell
west caldwell, scrapping
job interview
mental
i'm almost outta time and have not reviewed point location
susie, gtgtg driving time
gtgompp
review, pulses
review, pulses first
8/18/13 SUN 12:00
HDatttw?
nnignsning
kevin and jen's party absent from, drowsy day
scrapping money i'll clear
mother over reaching, talking about finances (how I'll feel)
optimistic
still afraid of getting fired
how far gotten in pathology book
gtgompp
write happiness letters
8/19/13 MON 12:15
hdatttw?
nnignsning
montclair trip by parents to collect bed
scrapping money
my back, timeline, for return to school, job hunt
mental
it's a distraction from real issues
susie our talk
gtgompp
finish readthrough, student, manual and clean needle, then
kiiko
8/19/13 MON 11:30
hdatttw?
nnignsning
no news
scrapping money
the weight exerted on the trunk
mental
my paris still work
susie, scrapping
gtgompp
contact david regarding gift certif.
8/21/13 WED 12:30
hdatttw?
nnignsning
nn
getting health, scrapping
my back and shoulder
unsure and insecure
mike's to work in CA
susie, jud'es mood, scrapping
gtgompp
kiiko, sm, pulses, manakin
8/21/13 WED 10:30
hdatttw?
nnignsning
h letters
women
grades, performance, living in w. caldwell, loss of mike,
speaking with ryan
mental, swollen ankle
ankle's hurt morn expected
susie, day off
gtgompp
scrap, call merwines, kiiko's book, pt. location - pulse,
and head pts and bio picture
8/23/13 FRI 12:45
hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude to columbia tom. us sunday
school, women
class (# of members), rooming with lynn, problems arise
stagnant
just the beginning of my education
88 minutes, susie climbing my shoulder
gtgompp
pla - simultaneous w/ japanese student guide, pulse
8/25/13 SAT 12:30
hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude to columbia
w. caldwell, year II
internship next summer, job hunt calendar
mental
I needed rest
susie, corn, what i got through pt. location
gtgompp
pla - mirror, move books, etc. list inclu. plants, bring
binders, coffee cabinet, etc.
7/23/13 TUES 1:45
rainy hdattw?
nnignsning
jude in columbia, errands all day to please jude one can
never leave
finishing my report
length - page length what subject to begin with - haff
pilgrimage or true life events
I can really get under your skin with my writing - maybe I
should write something like that - if i am writing this report effectively, by
now I am sufficiently under your skin stay until the end, you may learn a thing
or two
my openings exceed expectations
gave the gompp
outline body of scholarship essay, maybe try yin/yang youse
- consult tom, to do list, begin facial points
8/25/13 SUN 12:40
hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude in md. us tomorrow
move team
seeing maddy
my back
finances, scrapping
job search, lois's class finishing 5 element
mental and physically inept
almost at 1000
10000
gtgompp
finish pla for all but BL
7/23/13 TUES 11:45
hot, occeasional rain, hdatttw?
nnign ryan braun sning
jude stays until saturday flooding in noecker residence
scrapping
scrapping, parents hate the idea, it's something I love to
do
bloated, tired
i unlearn something every day
hrs
gaev the gompp
write pat, scrap if crew is absent
8/25/13 SUN 8:30
hdatttw?
nnignsning
moving them downingtown tomorrow
scrapping
shoulder, back
heistancy to look for job
tired, sore shoulder
i unlearn something every day
susie, maddy
gtgompp
don't strain yourself
7/25/13 THURS 12:05
cool, fally, hdatttw?
nnignsning
called jude for input, mailed trace/fb'd patrtick, contacted
lynn one can never leave
scrap yard tomorrow
whether I can keep myself from scrapping
on solid moral ground
dad's trusts me to go to the scrapyard
susie, nap
gave the gift of my peaceful presence
scrap, but check in at jackson rd.
8/26/13 MON 11:00
nice, hdattw?
moved noeckers to downingtown resting and day off
academic proation
worried
i am to be put on ap, dan is a materialist
madelynn
gtgompp
write out journal
bl and du meridians
records and discrepancies
just be prepared
8/10/13 SAT 12:05
hdatttw?
nningsning
jude back tomrrow, business as use
my passion
punishment, talk argument with parents
cold and not ready for early start
i waste a lot of time
"good for nothing"
ggompp
get through a lot of review material
8/11/13 SUN 12:15
hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude expected did not arrive
passion
passions
overwrought and overextended
indulgence
susie-twice, acupuncture, prograss
gtgompp
big picture
7/2/13 SUN 11:30
Rainy Hdatttw?
pirates, st. louis, reds lose, nnignsning
friendly's tonight, one can never leave
school year, health and longevity, immortal qi gong, herbs
school yebasdf
7/26/13 FRI 12:454
Dreary hdatttw?
nnignsning
text from jude, email, sent letter to pat and tracy (received) one from her
walk with ancients, scrap
clues
ok
fall weather makes me melancholy I traded one bad habit - picking skin - to doing same thing in a different area
finishing somethings on my to do list
gave the gift of my peaceful presence
w. caldwell meetings, identify on jude saturday, pts. on manakin start - finish getting prelim. research completed
7/27/13 Sat 10:30
Hot and Dry hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude back from MD. up to date, decisions, moving-in still to be made
west caldwell, girls esp. finishing paper
crunch time studying and prep for 2nd year
sound, confident, excited
only so long (can I control chocolate cravings
susie, job we did
gave the gift ofmy peaceful presence
contact ESATM profs regarding food allergy research
7/28/13 SUN 11:30
Rainy hdatttw?
nnignsning
stayed in the family today
finishing homework, w. caldwell potential
school year, needling, point I.D.
congested, and stuffy
wear a mask
susie addict/cat story/ hrs
gave teh gift of my peaceful presence
study for paa a good niught's sleep
7/30/13 TUES 9:45
hdatttw?
nnignsning
to montclair this afternoon after brushing
finishing paa final tomorrow
how well I'll do on paa final considering time between last lookover
being back in montclair, I feel uncomfortable
traveling time, susie, get to see her tomorrow
gave the gift of my peaceful presence
eagle rock rte to west caldwell
8/1/13 THURS 11:30
hdatttw? rainy
nnignsning
june to pittsburgh to m but one can never leave
scrapping, learning about acupuncture and herbs, peru
job, languishing and malingering
not at ease, on edge
i'm on edge
letter for pat
gave the gift of my presence peaceful
finish majority of articles
8/3/13 SAT 12:45
hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude in western pa as is noeckers, one can never leave
reading rimbaud money from work
separation west caldwell, adjusting, confrontation, failures
sore, dry throat
i am worried about confrontation
evening, the sun at dusk
susie
gtgompp
aps, articles, pulses, manakin
essay, pt location
8/3/13 SAT 10:45
hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude in w. pa jon's grad party
sex
talkign to women
starved of sex and companionship
there's a hole in my soul that needs to be filled
suze, aps
gtgompp
review, pulses, needles in manakin
8/4/13 SUN 11:15
hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude, noeckers to md, electrofishing
my passion
acupuncture studies
cold, insecure, starved for sex and companionship
kerouac really voiced what people felt down deep
susie weather, nap
gtgompp
studies, burdock root, pulses
8/6/13 TUES 12:15
hdatttw?
nningsning
jude extending stay through weekend at noeckers
my passions, the next site
my parents, judging me or punishing me in some way
alright, tired
I have to learnsome patience tolerance and acceptance
susie, nap, talking w/ dad
gave the gift of my peaceful presence
start mock intake, manakin puncture
8/7/13 WED 1:15
hdatttw?
nnignsning
same no change
money, mowing, career choice
academic year
sores, out of sync
I unlearn something every day
zodiac, quitting after 1st section, passion
gtgompp
list and list creation - epipen - opening paragrap
8/8/13 THURS 1:25
hdatttw?
nnignsning
same
peru, yage, school year
endurance, stamina, employment
tired, not
not 100%
susie
gave the gift of my peaceful presence
finish review cam, start other books
8/9/13 FRI 12
HDATTTW?
nnignsning
jusie attacked tonighgt, issues resolved btw jude and me, the same
getting started year two, companionship
health, weight, grades, showing my skills hanging in there, not 100% yet
I unlearn something every day
susie on my lap, jude's email, pay off
gtgompp
readthrough of review material, pulses
8/10/13 SAT 12:05
hdatttw?
nningsning
jude back tomrrow, business as use
my passion
punishment, talk argument with parents
cold and not ready for early start
i waste a lot of time
"good for nothing"
ggompp
get through a lot of review material
8/11/13 SUN 12:15
hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude expected did not arrive
passion
passions
overwrought and overextended
indulgence
susie-twice, acupuncture, prograss
gtgompp
big picture
7/2/13 SUN 11:30
Rainy Hdatttw?
pirates, st. louis, reds lose, nnignsning
friendly's tonight, one can never leave
school year, health and longevity, immortal qi gong, herbs
school yebasdf
7/3/13 WED 10:45
T-storms hdatttw?
nnignsning
one can never leave
moneymaking, possible scrapping
response of myparents regarding scrapping
fatigued ina good way
I am pushing myself to the point of exhaustion every day
getting both letters of reference
expressed sympathy to a potential landlord. gave gift of my presence
lookover materials - 2nd year book list
7/4/13 THURS 11:15
HHH - HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
one can never leave, friends at meeting and friends who don't care
the comments at the meeting tonight & what I learned. what the summer holds
nothing
bloated, tired, unsure
I unlearn something everyday
elderly woman noting smile and waving, kids waving, the meeting
gave the gift of my presence
point id - on styrofoam head
7/5/13 FRI 11:15
HHH HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
paughs visit. no one can leave
studying and researching paper
norman's email - frequently
stuffy and allergic to cat
I'm a sick puppy
susie, subway interactions
gave the gift of my presence
finish section of allergy-book
7/7/13 SUN 12:40
HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
one can never leave
digging into intakes
my knowledge and skills
overheated and headachey
overheated is the worst
the edge
gave the gift of my presence
7/7/13 SUN 11:20
brutal - hdatttw?
First brit? andy murray to win the wimbeldon chmpship in77 years
jude to columbia, pohoqualine broke from brush cutting
logging hrs., new setting, caldwell perhaps
enough options
unsure, avoidant, lack of confidence in TCM, wary and weary, uneasy really
uneasy about my knowledge of TCM
pat's call, writing letters
gave the gift of my presence
case #2, case 1 reinforcing points, begin scholarship essay
7/8/13 MON 11:30
HHH HDATTTW
NNIGNSNING
ONE can never leave
women pittsburgh trip shore trip
next year, my knowledge of needling, pt location
congested, ready for sleep
I unlearn something every day
susie
gave the gift of my presence
print more journal pages, look at food allergy material - finish case #1 and case #2
6/9/13 TUES 1:05
hot then cool - hdatttw?
nnignsning
one can never leave
scrapping
ramifications of scrapping
good, tired
I can probably scrap two metal bars and we'll see about doing the signs
7/14/13 SUN 1:15
HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
one can never leave
getting better in body and mind
getting better in body or mind
cold, resentful
i should come clean about scrapping
cat - melissa mccarthy and sandra bullock
gave the gift of my nflrewards to jonathon and print more sheets - do what you need to do for yourself
6/28/12 FRI 9:30
very hot, windy HDATTTW?
nnignsning
few exchanges with Jude, A.A. meeting and discussion with sponsor
the results of stepwork
having the gall for stepwork
sore wrist, tired
I unlearn something every day
pittsburgh
gave the gift of my presence
packing and er-sa, books from library
7/1/13 MON 1:15
nice, comfortable, HDATTTW?
nnignsning
meeting planned in philly hotel w/ jess, dan and madelynn noecker w/ family, one can never leave
tomorrows meeting
2 mos., 4 days til start of semester things falling on top of me
very strong
I unlearn something every day
hearing about going to philly, thinking about steve and herbert huncke
gave the gift of my presence
give the gift of your presence, do intake and choose 10 good pts
7/2/13 MON 11:15
Nice HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING Pirates!
Philly conference break w/ Jess and dan @ marriot in-town
cashing my check, getting some supplies
reading, prep, point location, intake
tired, worn out, confident
no word from norm
man - commenting that he knew I was a basketball player
gave the gift of my presence
get something concrete - down - down cold - big picture exam
7/17/13 WED 12:40
HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
one can never leave
seeing w/ caldwell - records of mr. mangili
saving money - with this apt.
traveling w/ jude
money issues - work
grateful, very blessed
good anxious
it's never good enough for parents - looking @ their children they think the world of them and want the world of them (for the taking)
working with dad, coffee, soymilk
gave the gift of my presence
start facial - count first (acupoints) then insert the m.
7/20/13 SAT 12:45
HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
one can never leave
scrapping
school year
strong, fit, no confidence
I'm going to have to do mock intakes all by myself - starting w/ dad and mom and aunt jill
lotta things, too many to count - scrapping for one
gave the gift of my presence
vacuum and clean car - ooh w/ lemon, mixed with water in squirt gun, and print some mroe damn copies
7/2/13 TUES 11:45
Nice, HDATTTW?
nnignsning, Pirates
pics fr. jess tonight of maddy, rained out of work but was always with my family, one can never leave
my approach to work
work, work life and work life plans, shifting my mentality
confident and w/ perspective
I unlearn something every day
nap, susie, meeting comments - mike 23 days
gave the gift of my presence
one day at a time - acupunctural work, however small
7/21/13 SUN 12:05
HH&H t-storms,
HDATTTW?
nnignsning
texted spondor
scrapping
threats directed
towards me with scrapping
good, ready for sleep
I'm staying w/ swimming exercise program
thinking about scrapping
wrote pat
gave the gift of my presence
finish reading
email norm thoughts on intake, take dad's pulse manakin
7/21/13 SUN 10:55
hot/not as hot HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
jude to columbia to sit. one can never leave
finishing girls above me, jackson rd. site
jackson rd. site
worried, procrastinating, fearful, anxious, dissapointed, relieved
I am relieved to have this time off school
jude this morning, susie, jackson rd. thoughts
gave the gift of my peaceful presence
pulses, finish articles
Susie, finishing brush cutting
gave the gift of my presence
print more sheets, scrap metals
6/19/13 WED 12:45
berry warm hdatttw?
nnign
jude and dad want to go to a game friday July 12th
finishing, dong some scrapping locally to make some money
comps on tuesday
bloated, ST ache
I have so much more to learn about TCM
finishing the final
gave the gift of my presence
get rid of the resentment of mike and dennis over what I perceived as disrespect
6/20/13 THURS 12:15
beautiful hdatttw?
nnignsning
word went through from M&D to Kourt, hopefully to Jill, FB'd them
finishing studying, getting comps out of the way
comps
tired and fatigued
saturated fats are good
tennis w/ michelle and banter afterward
gave michelle a lesson
finish bioscience & A&P, move on to acupuncture
6/21/13 FRI 11:50
HH&H HDATTW
NNIGNSNING
nn fr. friends & family interaction via FB
getting testing done and get into writing scholarship essays
comps
unsure, shaky, expectant, gloom and doom, nervous, speculative
yesterday learned to pose the questions make the distinction between a patent and a monopoly yesterday
amount of material I went through
did neighbor's laundry
review BL - locate points and lookover back shu before Aili's final
6/21/13 SAT 10:05
H&H HDATTTW?
nnignsning
no word fr. family only FB photos
getting this year completed trying to make some money writing for scholarship money
returning subject-related books to ESATM
sore, phlegmy, confident, striving, ambitious
I am ambitious when I wanna be
tom calling
thanked latoya
finish up review
6/24/13 MON 2:45
f'ing hot I been sweatin' all day
nnignsning
only photos via FB
seeing Madelynn again
the way I space out
overheated - need to find a wayta get cool
Americans use the letter "a" with the pronunciation "uh" too much
dinner w/ tom's family
bought dinner for the gormleys
review and get to bed early
6/24/13 MON 9:50
Hot hdatttw?
nnignsning
word from jude and fwd'd email from chris, unable to open "maddy talking" video
passing comps then moving past it
comps
warm all around
perhaps I'll hook up A.C. tomorrow night, still fiddling with finger skin
kids playing tennis
complimented kid's tennis playing
pass comps w/ flying colors
6/26/13 WED 1:55
HHH hdatttw?
nnignsning
word from dad, jude and I sent a thank you out to everyone in my family
I'm through to 2nd yaer
my bad habits and breaking them
very pleased, but like tom says, the feeling hasn't set in yet
I am a 2A student
passing comps
gave the gift of my presence
some scrapping and cleaning
6/27/13 THURS 3:15
Hottern hell Hdatttw?
nnignsnign
very vibrant email from jude and dad and others
tomorrow getting the day started
not going to meetings and how that reflects on my image
ST upset, bloated, constipated
I get worried when the work I do doesn't wear me out early and I usually catch a second wind, GB talking
walk late at night
gifted my neighbor with tickets to levity live and 2 free acutreatment referrals
wash chris's car and inflate his tires a bit - check the air pressure gauge requirements, if necessary, scrap, meeting
6/27/13 THURS 8:40
hot hdatttw?
nnign
few exchanges with mother and a few with Kourt
Pirates being best team in baseball
Pirates missing playoffs
tired a sticky
not all doors are open
basil pickings, meeting
emailed Norman and Jude
sleep through to morning
6/13/13 SAT 10:35
HDADTTW?
nnign
one can never leave
the future after testing
timetable of now and the time we're in the clinic
confident anticipatory
I am budgetting time very well
david and lunch and nutrition
gave the gift of my presence
final 4 channels and review materials for extras
6/14/13 MON 1:15
humid
nnignsning
joshua spilled half a smoothie before I left tonight it was hilarious and I celebrated Father's Day with them - lost my keys in the lawn
my chances for Dr. Zheng's final exam
categories of points
tight quads, mentally, emotionally good, spiritually I could do with some improvement
I'm beginning to enjoy tom and his family more and more
family time
invited tom and his fam over for dinner
study to best of your ability but do not overload - create a test for yourself and look into what tom said regarding diagnosis
6/18/13 TUES 12:35
HH&H Hdadttw?
nnignsning
Jude chimes in from beach and dad emailed me bout Father's Day yesterday
getting Zheng's final out of the way
Zheng's final
lil sore, sweaty, hot
I unlearn something everyday
amount of work I accomplished
informed dad about pittsburgh trip
mu/shu, xi cleft, antique points, label with stickies - extra points - indications and functions
6/13/13 THURS 2:10
perfect
nnignsning
nnff
half christmas, scrapping, the poconos this summer
heat hard work, comps
sore st, st pain, back sore
cupping'll make ya feel rested
finding out tom k is c&s
joked with alla
study your ass off
6/14/13 FRI 3:00
WET HDADTTW?
nnignsning
one can never leave
rimbaud
how pleasure reading puts me in such a frame of mind, 5 element prep time management
great, enthusiastic
I am getting much accomplished
what I got accomplished deadman video
sent deadman video to everyone
4 channels tomorrow, 4 Saturday leaving 6 for sun and mon.
6/15/13 SAT 11:35
HDADTTW?
nnignsning
news is they're where they are - one can never leave
workaholics levity show
security and drunkenness, arthritis long term effects of tennis
sound, sore hands, worrisome but resolved and motivated
resentments that fester make negative behaviors
black raspberry
congratulated mom on finishing her school year
finish four more channels and 4 more indications and notes
6/9/13 sun 1:35
hdataoistttw?
nnignsning
no word, my family, second family (part) is in D.C., my friends and family were in JAA today
studying for comps, the challenge supplementary reading
Dr. Zheng's final
sore back but ok
I unlearn something every day
mantras of A.A.
gave the gift of my peaceful presence
get thr. immune
6/9/13 SUN 10:00
beave...hdadttw?
NNIGNSNING
f&fare where they are always are - within themselves
my insights
my negativity
confident, fearful, emotional
I have emotions coming to the surface that may be diffic. to process
joshua and yestin, tom and norva, and patty was uplifting just with her enthusiasm
gave the gift of my presence
get yesterday's lunch, lookover ota notes thoroughly
6/10/13 TUES 1
rain hdadttw
nnignsning
my family and friends are exactly as they are
finishing ota
ota final
confident relaxed, pressing
I am calm about tests but fanatic about thorough studying, used to be the reverse
directions to some workers
directions and gave gift of my presence
complete studying
6/11/13 WED 11:00
HH and TStorms HDADTTW?
NNIGNSNING
they have no news, it is impossible to go anywhere
day off and what I'll fill my day with
Dr. Zheng's test
uneasy, resentful, incomplete, frustrated, irritated
this one day I do side with the resentments that were aired
exchanges w/ Tom and Norm
gave out a free referral to
use knowledge of food allergies for paper - Norm's allergy to mussels, Danielle my grocer's Father - since he was young he's been allergic to shrimp."
get the pamphlet copied
5/14/2013 TUES 11:35
cold
nnignso news is no good
word from jude and i resplied had id of points today
free time and money i'll make scrapping
shame of accepting help on a practical
good, in good shape
whatever I did let's continue it
norman and our exchanges
sent dr. martucci a note and referrals
consult old goals and make way to scrap yard
5/16/13 THURS 12:20
brisk
nnignsning
word from jude and a reply. ry hung out and watched workaholics and baseball
scrapping locally making some decent money scrapping
emergencies and improperly secured loads, police inquiries
sound a bit bloated and twitchy in the back ribs
i'm fallible and pessimistic and gripe when I get the chance to and I hate myself for the resentments i form
ryan, norm, lord byron
hung w/ ryan
belt - dai channel
scrapping, todo list, library perhaps
5/17/13 FRI 12:15
humid
nnignsning
talked to jude and said hi
research tom
time management
the pressure
i will put off job hunting for a long time
talking w/ jude thinking about my cat
said hello to jude
scrapping, review, job plan,
time manage report, pulses, comp-study
5/17/13 FRI 10:45
nice temp
murder/suicide in Canterbury Park, montclair last night
talked with jude tonight conversed with pat and had tom and his family over, I prepared astragalus capsules for tom
learning herbs in a few years
getting through acupuncture studies comps - fitting in studying
sorry about rodney king
r. lied to me
tom and his family
talked and gave the gift of my presence
lookover notes - and take a break if you need one
5/18/13 SAT 10:05
drizzly
nnignsning, murder suicide
jude out with betsy, susie outside with tabby cat (gary :)) and dad and chris marked 750 fish, prob, stocked them today
just what's next in school and some time off
relationship with women and the drought
angry thinking about neighbors
just fantastic is not always very fantastic
compliment of alla's
sent pic to fellow student and recieved dean's receipt of the thank-you email I sent
keep your tongue, your mouth your ears your eyes open
5/20/13 MON 12
rainy and misty
nnignsning
no contact with family except for short facebook message sent to dan via jess's fb page and photo of maddy. dinner, observation and bday party for tom's son garth
research, herbs, my practice in pittsburgh
injuring others and myself w/ needles
very well, no longer constp'd, wind issues and jing essence issues
drunk dreams can take you by surprise
tom and I really connecting and family time @ their household was wonderful, thinking about lit.
gave the gift of my presence - listened to garth
my paper - go to the library and plant yourself there at all costs - scrap metal at all costs
5/21/13 TUES 12:15
humid
nnignsning
called the phone list tonight - earlier today I went to a meeting
peace and quiet anger and repressed and resentments being repressed and festering - I may need anger management, my codependency issues, my old
angry, frustrated, weepy, the emotion is sorrowful
I just can't seem to get through to this younger generation - they seem to be oblivious - I bet in Berkeley this would not occur
talking with jess, jude and the meeting today, just breathing and staying peaceful - life on life's terms
gave the gift of my presence
paper, study/review, review, review, repeat copy the points down
5/21/13 TUES 10:20
Humid and muggy, hh&h
nnignsning
my family is well and my friends are well. those that are not well I pray for
tomorrow
time management for paper and study
hot and bothered, acquiescent
i head a ton of pressure on myself
conversed w/ students, walking and getting book on do-in, warming alla's hand up
warmed alla's hand up
scrap and study
5/23/13 THURS 2:05
Hot, hazy, humid
nnignsning
had tea w/ steve and hungout with ry after a&p II class
rest relaxation and knocking off a big part of my paper
time management, heat, summer working at home electrofishing
tired, laboring
I may be spreading myself too thin
steve and ryan hanging out, mike's seminar
tea for steve
prioritize, time mangement, race yourself
5/23/13 THURS 11:00 P.M.
a taoist looks at the weather by sticking his head out the window
nnignsning
jude misunderstands, or doesn't read, smobriety and my email about a year smoke free
a year of smobriety, research tomorrow and drafting
putting off errands for work on the project
strong able
still searching for a preventative measure for sex. activity probl. and seem to have a protocol for it
sex. activity protocol and needling, refund check, thinking about gifts for jess
email to jude and dad
concentrate on the paper and what you want to accomplish
5/23/13 FRI 7:55
WINDY, Cold, RAINY, you know how a daoist tells the weather right?
nnignsning
fb news from family - jess and dan; coffee with steve and bill
putting the product or at least, the draft of a product of my project on the bright and dark
whether i can fit in master-level assessment methods of assessment and treatment strategies, 5-Element material - for treatment strategies
sore at du 1
envy, malice, and other feelings - learn to recognize them - they are reactions not responses
steve and bill - coffee with them and speaking about knowledge, wisdom, it was excellent in a very excellent philosophic way
congratulated bill - told him my principles - and offered some advice
henry miller's the woman question
5/24/13 SAT 11:45
cold, windy, do you know how a taoist tells the weather - sticks his head out the window
nnignsning
late start to 5 element and then dinner w/ the gormleys finishing this paper
spreading myself too thin, keep my energy in check
sound, spiritually fit
I am a good teacher of children, as henry miller wrote, I can speak with the tongues of angels w/ a nobody, w/ the rich or w/ contemporaries - I am silent - like rimbaud
dinner w/ tom's fam/ speaking with theresa
gave the gift of my peaceful presence
to not regret the past, but make amends, for...etc.
5/25/13 SUN 11:00
brisk, warm do you know how a taoist predicts the weather?
nnignsning
jude in columbia, dan replied to my email about jess's size of dress, walked with steve this morning, texted tom
spending money, esp. for my practice - seeing form of project take shape
polishing and generally hammering story down
well
I am healthy
b-ball w/ max, mace and their dad, football in the park
gave gift of my presence
find - anything on bright and dark online
5/27/13 TUES 12:05
nice, sunny, do you know how a daoist tells the weather
nnignsning
only word from fb about jude's visit to columbia. I went with tom to deanna's in nutley and then rested, relaxed, procrastinated
just confidence, concentration and focus
my bp, my desolation
improvement
I unlearn something everyday
conversation with tom
went to deanna's memorial day get-together
lookover cun measurements for points btw elbow and wrist and elbow and shoulder
5/29/13 WED 1:00
overcast, p/rainy, do you know how a taoist makes a weather prediction?
nnignsning
no word from family, late start, class all night
getting my paper done
getting my paper finished
resentful, abashed, wired, tired, unattractive, healthy
I desire a fit body but fail to concentrate and dedicate time to improvement
dr. zheng, barbara, julia, tom, mike, my composure, my email to dana
thanked dana for substituting
one day at a time, spiritual reading and prayer du 1
5/30/13 THURS 12:30
HH&H how does a taoist tell the weather
nnignsning
no news or fb messages from family, texted friends and emailed heather, class late at night
a break from school
I may have to take sat. and sunday off for to work on my project II. SAA I makeups
fearful of our saa teacher
i am going to have to take sat. and sunday off to finish the paper
massage, getting through
sent heather a letter
retrieve - cranial nerve material or find fr. mike's notes
5/31/13 FRI 12:40
hot humid brutal
montclair man run over at watchung ave. rail crossing
no news from family regarding things, esatm trip, writing paper
resting
finishing paper properly polished
hot and tired, headachey worried
i got overheated
new daoin book
gave gift of my presence, complimented steve s.
computer laptop in front of desktop for quicker production
6/1/13 SAT 3:45
how does a taoist predict the weather
nnignsning
talked with jude about coming home and working as well as an apt. on clairemont
this summer
the next few days' work on my paper and making it polished and cohesive
comfortable and confident, a little leary
I can spare everyone my judgement to tell the truth
at the moment, retrieving the note to my neighbor and learning a lesson from it
wished my sister a happy birthday and I love you
get a bulk of paper done and speed paraphrase - leave criticism, comparison and contrast to monday
6/2/13 SUN 11:40
t-storms, how does a daoist predict the weather
nnignsning
no word from, tom delivered the herbs I picked this morning and I worked on my paper morning to night w/ nap in between
what free time I have after my paper and A&P II is donw
getting project plished and getting everything I want in it
sore, greasy, sweaty, anxious, nervous, excited
I have a good idea where I want my paper to go
work I got done, sourced I found, new info for my paper
send tom adobe acrobat
wrap up your paper and get foot and ankle looked over
6/4/13 TUES 2:00
hot t-storms, how does a taoist predict the weather
nnignsning
no news from home I spent no time talking with either, instead, worked on my project
getting able to finish ppaer
time constraints, but also how my ideas come across - as wacky or able to get behind
tired, sore achey, drained mentally
I will have just enough time to finish my paper, the last half of my paper I consider jibberish that needs to be reworked
what I got down on paper
praying for my neighbors giving the gift of my presence
finish your report and then get your shit together
6/5/13
WED 1:00
nice hodw does a taoist tell the weather
nnignsning
talked with chris and receieved email from jess, called unaware that she had written me, worked on paper til afternoon then classed all eve. grocery and teff porridge late
finishing paper and a & p II will be done tomorrow - more time on my hands, scrapping
comps
quite enthused and anticipation is high
the meaning of kerouac's "jobsa done" line from OINTRE
comaraderie of my class, getting paper finished
talked with ryan
study and afterward get yourself primed for comps - prepare the fortress, man the battlestations
say something interestin' - I finally got kerouac's line about "interesting" never say an uninteresting thing - line from that great passage****
6/6/13 THURS 1:15
very nice how do taoists tell weather
nnignsning
nn from familiy, final this afternoon that I studied, for massage protocol and pizza party then bball a walk and bed
tomorrow - free time
comps
sound, head is achey and I feel dehydrated and head heat
pairing off vs. group social life - what's the answer eventually you won't remember names
my neighbor coming home
talked to steve
I understand why wheel of fortune of popular, inform sponsee you're coming home, scrap
6/7/13 FRI 1:00
t-storms, how does a taoist tell the weather
nnignsning
talked to dad who's sick and jude called me a short while later I picked up mower after scrapping
the money I made scrapping and held I relieved, scrapping tomorrow
bro's car, comps, time mangment
tired, heavy-eyed
girls abv. me are still inconsiderate but neighbor was cool that I almost ran her over
my neighbor's expression as I nearly ran into her
pologized to neighbor, gave gift of my presence
clean, get organized and mentally prepped for comps
8/28/13 WED 12:15
HDATTTW? Rain?
NNIGN
jude to inservice, ARC to Pike cty
scrapping and scrapping in palmerton club money
scrapping being considered stealing
sore arm/shoulder
sore arm/shoulder
on the road, movie nt with pam and eric
call merwine and stop being a pussy
8/28/13 WED 11:15
HDATTTW? by sticking his head out a window
nnignsning
nn
school women, scrapping, peru, experiences, pittsburgh nov. 10th
metal, bit sore
mel brooks' movies suck
susie, day off
gtgompp
manakin sometime
8/30/13 FRI 12:30
HDATTTW?
nnignsning
madelynn videos
seeing madelynn videos
business grades, comps, 4 years more
mental
I'm nervous
susie, nap, scrapping
gtgompp
scrap after work
8/30/13 FRI 11:45
hdatttw?
nnignsning
to fair
scrapping growing plants, women w. caldwell
job serach, class struggles
bloated, nervous, unsure
i'm as unsure as my first year
scrapping and susie
gtgompp, deanna, jude
get back to norm,papers, discrepancies
8/31/13 SAT 11:40
HDATTTW?
sept. 1st tom. labor day monday nnign sning
madelynn psu onesie psu game today
woman, new approach to exfoliating skin
my approach to employment, money i'm sending
stuffy, chest tight, indigestion, itchy
speak up
joking w/ coworkers, susie wawa coffee
gtgompp
w. caldwell wikipedia/homepage, blackhead strips
9/2/13 MON 1:40
HDATTTW?
nnignsning
nn
w. caldwell scrapping potential
classes, 5 element homework, final project
mental nervous, expectant, dissapointed
i'm still dissapointed in mike, worried about ryan
susie, nap, day off, joking with jude
gtgompp
nook online - recycler's guide, take pulses finally
9/3/13 TUES 12:15
hdatttw?
nnignsning, labor day
nn
trip to w. caldwell, scrapping sites
fitting everything in the z
sweaty worried, unconfident unprepared
i need to study the big picture, literally
susie, pirates, dinner
gtgompp
find folder with calendar
9/4/13 WED 12:10
hdatttw?
nnign
back in essex co.
work to do, intro to report
workload, grading style of lois
worried, apprehensive avoidant out of place
i have not adjusted to my surroundings yet
susie, jude's note, chinese, hbo
gtgomppp
stick to list
9/5/13 THURS 1:15
hdatttw?
nnign pirates break sid bream curse
word fr. jude no word fr. anyone else
scrapping peru, needling, health, immortal qi gong
my health, study habits
lonesome, disinterested, ambivalent
ridley scott's imagination is twisted
early shots of prometheus lois's humor
gtgompp
mow, meeting, plan day trip, read over reading list items
9/6/13 FRI 12:30
HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
jude emailed, aunt jill fb messaged
possibly going to the beach tomorrow
academic probation and catching up dates and times of misses
stick - indigestion
not going to finish pulses
bike ride, list items completed
gtgompp
finish verifying missed dates possibly schedule some observations
9/7/13 SAT 12:50
hdatttw?
nnignsning
word from dad, reply to jude's email
catching up on missed classes
catching up, looking for work, getting involved in commitments
ST upset, bored
I will be a good student this semester but bored out of my mind
studying done
gtgompp
organize room, papers, etc. printer, finish review
9/7/13 SAT 10:00
HDATTTW?
nnign
long email from jude, reply too, dad's stitch ruminated on
finishing/starting pulses really, finishing homework, naked pla
fear, isolation and avoidant behavior
avoidant, off kilter
prometheus is a prequel to alien
finishing prometheus, watching psu play today
gtgompp
ask for extension ask how to properly do pulse
9/9/13 MON 12:15
hdatttw?
nfl football sunday
one can never leave
day off, scrapping possibilities
searching for a job, comps, work catching up 80%
cold, sore, wired
hank williams was not what he appeared to be
last ride, 5 element class
gtgompp
cockroach killer, gas, pulses main concern, notes and study naked pla
9/10/13 TUES 2:45
hdatttw?
eagles trounce redskins, rgiii doesn't live up to hype
no news from home reconnected with steve at the meeting
scrapping
my 5 element grade, pulses
bloated, uncomfortable, unsure
i am nearly done with 4th step
what I got done
gtgompp, mowed, dishes
naked pla, workaholics
dishes, cvs for finishing kit
9/11/13 WED 1:45
HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
word from dad worked on shed floor
good health, prosperity and love
gloves, missing needling practice observing thursday
worried, hungry, despondent
i fit the opp description of du mai
contagion, supplies, pla
gtgompp
scrap locations, marker, hemostate, sharps container, ex large gloves, glaze through notes
9/11/13 WED 11:00 P.M.
hdatttw? don't wanna even talk about how hot
syria, 9/11 anniversary, nnignsning
letter from dad containing si article
mlb playoffs
my clinical skills, big picture and point location
I compare myself with other for reassurance in myself
needling
gtgomppp
some pla w/ dots/big picture
9/13/13 FRI 1:35
t-storms/downpour
t-storms, friday the 13th
no word from anyone
pulses tom. meeting, pathology's about
quiz wednesday
sweaty, uncomfortable, annoyed
I hate pp beds
pirates top of division taking the day off
gtgompp
pay bills if check comes through, indeed.com
9/13/13 FRI 8:45
nice temp
nnignsning
no news
getting screws out, going home, finishing studies
dropping in on scrapping
tired, cramped
I'm wondering about lyme disease
scrapping, thinking about susie - visiting her
gtgompp
concentrate and take good notes learn something about pathology
9/15/13 SUN 12:00
hdatttw?
nnignsning, alabama over manziel's a&m
no news except noeckers are visiting poconos
acupuncture studies scrapping, going home, planting my garden, walking in the park tomorrow
wired and tired
couples compensate for their issues after having a baby by visiting in-laws
getting out early, getting to qi gong
gtgompp
be yourself - apricots, almonds, almond milk, apricots - look over 5 element chart
9/16/13 MON 1:55
HDATTTW?
nnignsning
noecker's last day with gparents
scrapping tom
where is in wayne, directions
great, don't wanna sleep
i really pull tom's arm to get him to go my way, subcategories of points are used b/c they work together
the homework I finished and classes I completed
gtgompp
cat food, litter, sm. gift for dad and chris - christmas cards early
9/19/13 THURS 11:55
perfect
nnignsning
word from jude, replied
finishing homework
the toll stress is taking
strong
I hope the energy keeps up
lynn
gtgompp
don't do stupid shit
9/20/13 SAT 10:20
perfecto
no news is good news so news is no good
word from jude and video of madelynn's crawl-try
seeing madelynn come of age
nervous tomorrow
less well than previous days
I have to cure myself of my desire to scrap
going slow and taking my time
gtgompp
pps, patho homework
9/23/13 SUN 10:00
HDATTTW?
no nignsning
no word from anyone
peru, women, pands
my resentments
decent, tired
something happened this morning that never happened before
brian yoon, yu, moon, interacting, 10 from deanna
bought coffee, gtgompp
journal recording, homework, cvs, buy CNT book
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