Book of Deeds Vol. 215

10/16/13 Wed 11:15
perfect fall weather hdatttw?
nnignsning
news from dad, yet to reply
replying to dad
knowing all patterns, this weekend my practice management style
bloated, overtired lassitude
lassitude
lois, needling
gtgompp
go to the health fair tomorrow after driving lynn

10/17/13 THURS 8:00
rainy after p/c hdatttw?
nnignsning
lynn to slippery rock, prove her to newark, replied to mom and dad
sleep and another day off
snow intruding on job search
precautious, calculating, conservative
i live conservatively
drive to newark - the drive away from newark
gtgompp
patho review and orb review

10/18/13 fri 10:25
nice, breezy, hdatttw?
nnignsning
michelle yan is studying tcm
jeff's seminar tom, getting my review done thoroughly and pal and pt categories
my pal and point categories
achey
I am pitiable
st. louis cards
gtgompp
make up a quiz for pt. categories

10/19/13 SAT 11:45
partly, rainy, hdattw?
nnignsning, tigers blow the series
no news except fb msg from michelle yan
michelle going to school
my progress, clinic, my "presentation"
tired and wired
tigers blew it
seeing tigers so close missing a once a lifetime opportunity
gtgompp
rehearsal, mock intake, and my own mock intake

10/20/13 SUN 9:15
breezy and cool
nnignsning
no news from f&f seeing steeler game
denis' resentment - potential, clinic, pal, erin
cold, want heat turned up
steelers are better than I thought
steelers win, finishing this years' 5 element, the evaluating which pts were good matches for gropu members
gtgompp
circadian clock, meridian 3 levels of meridians, pattern work, mock rehearsal copy pulses

10/21/13 MON 11:45
cool, windy hdatttw?
nnignsning
no news fr. family and friends
women, school, clinic, tx making a diff.
clinical skills, rehearsing
tired, well enough
brian yoon did a nice job on my feet
brian's footwork, magic mike
gtgompp
big picture complete and patho plus pattern/test review plus c/a - look ahead

10/23/13 WED 12:50
brisk, hdatttw?
nnignsning w.s. tomorrow boston game 1
reply from jude and email with pic of maddy
seeing family during holiday season, steeler game
paa, spec. robin lustig
head's in knots
I unlearn something every day
studying I got done
gtgompp
water plants, lr, ki, bl, start on overlapping patterns

10/24/13 THURS 1:25
cold, threat of rain hdatttw?
nnignsning
telephone call w/ dad and mom
day off tom
staying up so late
wired
I must refuse drinking green tea fr. now on even if I get a meal
giving tom a free sub
call jessica, call chris don't let coupons go to waste

10/25/13 fri 1:45
cold, sunny hdatttw?
nnignsning
text from dan, text responses from kelly, steve, call from jill
rings, women in pittsburgh
ethics ecb - w/ relationships between
mania, fright, excessive joy
need to get back to a consistent circadian clock
whole day, thoughts attitude
gtgompp
have a better tomorrow than yesterday, finish review for quizzes and midterms

10/27/13 SUN 10:30
colder, sunny to p/s hdatttw?
nnignsning
email from mom
girls, mojoback
envy obstructing my progress
great, best I have felt since before going to los angeles
steeler never win in cali
thinking about susie
gtgompp
look at jobs - or at least make a list of possibilities

10/28/13 TUES 12:00
cold, p/s hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude email - rent check and grocery check sent out today
gratitude
my cavalier attitude about money, 2 b's supporting the clinic
very yang, but in a good balanced way
I shouldn't worry so much, I feel guilty about money my parents are sending me and all they want me to do is find a job - not an all out career, just a job
brian yoon
gtgompp
make a plan to apply to bobs b/c of its proximity - also look at end of passaic

10/28/13 Tues 12:00
cold, p/s hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude email - rent check and grocery check sent today
gratitude
my cavalier attitude about money, 2B's supporting the clinic
very yang, but in a good balanced way
I shouldn't worry so much, I feel guilty about money my parents are sending me all they want me to do is find a job, not an all out career, just a job
brian yoon
gtgompp
make a plan to apply to bobst b/c of its proximity - also look at end of passaic

10/26/13 SAT 12:20
cool, breezy, moderate, hdatttw?
nnignsning
messages from steve, lynn
beat generation
getting up early
well enough to leave well enoguh alone
when I finsh i'd like to make to make a donation to esatm, and i'd like to learn what the hell tax-deductible means
today
gtgompp
get to do list done

10/31/13 THURS 11:45
rainy, cold hdatttw?
lou reed, leader of the velvet underground, died, halloween nnignsning
word from mom regarding midterm result wondering, posts from jess - halloween coffee with kate
women, results from orb
getting a b, more importantly, passing
confused, lacking confidence
I am good w/ 4 but not with more than that
thank yous from jan chin
gtgompp
rest and organize

10/2/13 SAT 12:55
rain, wind, p/s, p/c, hdatttw?
nnignsning
word and reply from phone call to jude, boys still in western pa, eric ok, rob not answering, steve asking for thursday or mon, lynn for tuesday or thursday
health and making money
lynn, jude and dad's health, financial responsibility to me, chris, fellow students, prof. lustig
happy to have jeremy as my teacher
i'm dreading robin lustig as we get closer, loneliness
talk with lynn, tennis
gtgompp
ask jeremy questions and let him know your viewpoint about mike

11/2/13 SAT 8:00
p/r hdatttw?
nnignsning
word from mom, text from lynn, email from tom
getting tom. out of the way
my emotions and behavior tomorrow - whether I can keep it together
worrisome, scared, apprehensive, uncomfortable, offput, angry, irritated, arrogant
I am arrogant
sp 9 release SI joint
tx and tying jose's hives - and elminating it
gtgompp
pack lunch, follow orders

11/3/13 SUN 9:45
cold, rain-drizzle - how does atttw?
nnignsning - eagles, pats win big
no word from parents, no word from friends, made a whole setta new friends
pittsburgh trip, seeing
anxiousness, my weight, my breathing style, skin, body, essence, loneliness, knowledge of acupuncture, ed's contacting me, colds and infections, sore throats
wanting too much, feel that I should do less, less tv, less activities
I am not wavering from my feeling better
dr. robin lustig
gtgompp
organize

11/4/13 MON 11:15
cold, p/s, hdatttw?
nnignsning
img from mom of madelynn
brain regeneration, forming a bond with interns
my progress, knowing point categories
in my head I am uncomfortable and ashamed and irritated b/c I like to stay fit and what occurs appears to be a minor setback - major somethings
aspirations are good, paulo doesn't think he just feels and
brian, partnering with him
gtgompp
prep for - obs. sheets, cpa homework, patho homework questions for chapters upcoming

11/5/13 TUES 8:30
cool, p/c, overcast
nnignsning
word from dad and chris
getting my work accomplished
judgement
tired, fatigued, sluggish
sluggishness'll sneak up on you
tcm tests, suffering
gtgompp
otb, cas lookover, pps

11/7/13 THURS 12:45
balmy, no wind/barely, hdatttw?
nnignsning
palpated tom today, had tea with him, tennis with sanil and brahm until 10, began to watch the watch
the future, peru
whether I can muster the expenses of living while saving for a trip
tired, achey, dehydrated, like I'm having kidney stones
I unlearn something everyday I worry about living into the next day
brahm and sanil (tennis), lois
gtgompp
email for the peru trip cost estimate, include details about the trip - ryan coming along

10/11/13 FRI 8:45 cloudy with chance of rain. HDATTTW?
nnignsning
no word from family or friends
learning tomorrow
getting called on in jaa and otb and c/a
ready to sleep
early wakeups should be followed through w/ or else there's oversleep
zodiac, work done
gtgompp
breathing practice location

11/8/13 FRI 11:15
rain sleet snow heavy and high blustery wind
hdatttw?
nnignsning
what the future holds
bleakness, bleak outlook
stuffy, ready for bed
I get homesick
susie, mom, dad, chris
gtgompp
qi going or tai qi, tennis, 10 step, lil' studying

10/11/13 FRI 8:45
cloudy with chance of rain. hdatttw?
nnignsning
no word from family or friends
learning tomorrow
getting called on in jaw and orb and c/a
ready to sleep
early wake ups should be followed through w/ or else there's oversleep
zodiac, work done
gtgompp
breathing practice location

11/9/13 SAT 10:30
cold, windy, sunny and balmy
nnignsning
day w/ aunts and cousins, day care, word from jude photo from jess
game atmosphere tomorrow, hall of champions
just travel safety, my own personal safety
sore, achey
I don't know a solution to nutrition amongst family
lunch, nap
jill - coffee, gtgompp
be safe

10/12/13 SAT 8:30
p/s hdatttw?
dodgers down 2-0, detroit starts in boston tonight
no news from family and friends
getting a day off to study
paper and finishing, time management with paper
diarrhetic
i've gotta manage the time I spend doing my project
tx w/ ron
gtgompp
start on work week of homework

10/13/13 SUN 9:00
perfect hdatttw?
nnignsning
reply from jude
girls, nf for a long time to come
price nf
solid, but coughy and throaty
well I need a woman
tuina, listening to constance, family night with the gormleys
gtgompp
review otb, pathology

11/10/13 SUN 8:00 Nice and cold, rain, blustery nnignsning
steeler's game
time off thanksgiving paper and finishing it, the tv and falling asleep
angry fearful, affright, anxious, depressed, pushing through - stressed, there is a lot of stress in this household, steelers win gtgompp
study after you get home - for orb - prepare for paper research

11/14/13 THURS 12:00
cold, dry, hdatttw?
nnignsning
reply from mom and dad
the future, the pt where I have more energy
my energy level, my mental health, my waist
well, sharp mentally
i'm working hard
carleen, test, lois, denis, my classmates
gtgompp
type/xerox journal entries, xeroxes, directions, pathophys, time management, mail in dispute, citing "white line" grievance and good Samaritan and argue in defense of eastern school of acupuncture parking passes - 60+ - students + 5 herbal for $4 a semester

10/14/13 MON 11:55
perfecto, hdatttw?
nnignsning
sent letters to all my family and friends
ayahuasca, possibly hearing from ed
not hearing from ed, memorizing all these patterns, path
hangin' in there
200+ was Stanley Kubrick's iq
room 237, morning nap, tx
gtgompp
review and path

Book of Deeds Vol. 214

9/23/13 MON 11:45
HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
Word from Jude regarding trip to the Poconos
Seeing susie and dad and chris
finishing both pathology and otb and csa in one day
exhausted
there are chinese practitioners who needle deeply and give a strong Tx
Tx
GTGOMPP
Review Pathophys and OTB

9/25/13 WED 12:00
Cold, HTATTTW?
Hoist jolly roger
Poconos to Dr. Helfst
sleep
health
tired and desirous of sleep
cutting grass=headache
susie, chris, dad
gtgompp
copy journals

9/25/13 WED 11:55
Nice Temp
nnignsning
jude to downingtown this weekend
finishing homework, 5th step, time off, socks, etc.
electrofishing plans
good and sound
how to needle - acupuncture
needling, setting fire to the mountain
gtgompp
print journal copies, hole punch, pathophys

9/27/13 FRI 12:15
Perfect
nnignsning
word from jude, replied, steve and I set to meet
day off, finishing patho and otb review
money, work, overwork, needling, pla
tired and achey
got nn delivery today
nail, pathophys review
gtgompp
5 step, kiiko, reviewing

9/27/13 FRI 9:45
HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
Jude to downingtown to sit madelynn
day off, herbs for nf
nf's effectiveness
tired and overheated head
it's gonna be a long haul taking herbs this month
kiiko patient's progress
gtgompp
start opening thesis, patho, pt. location review, practice, call dad about electrofishing, if that's possible for me, otb, csa

9/28/13 SAT10:10
perfecto
nnignsning
jude in downingtown
class tomrorow
reaction, not response, to dana
good functioning very well
I will be going to the poconos monday
wake up early and qi gong, stayed awake all day, lots of studying finished
gtgompp
library - books on depression, laptop

9/28/13 SUN 9:00
HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
Jude back to Poconos and out w/ bestie - betsie is your bestie
quiz grade of an A on OTB exam WED
Pt. location, always
nice
my aggressive energy was
ae tx
gtgompp
finish otb review, notes and preparation, pulses for everyone

9/29/13 MON 10:45
HDATTTW?
wild card playoff, nnignsning
jude back from downingtown w/ stories, dad and chris with stories
paycheck
quiz wed.
sore throat, worried
I unlearn something every day
susie, learn shorthand, thinking about it
gtgompp
print copies of journal pages and borrow paper

10/3/13 THURS. 10:45
HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
short phone call to poconos regarding things left behind
getting over this cold
cold hampering studying ability
sore throat, scratchy
nearly same as yesterday, except less pain, more tickle
Rx Japanese review
gtgompp
patho review, jab review, pulse, csa and otb

10/4/13 FRI 9:50
HDATTTW?
nnignsning, pirates, braves, sox win
email to parents, fb message fr. ryan, replied
writing my fam and friends, watching proust movie
needling, makeups, quiz in jab
sore, getting over cold
I unlearn something every day
ryan's message, watering, pirates win
gtgompp
depression books, print out, Ch. 1, 2, 5, 7-9

10/5/13 SAT 11:00
warm, storm threatening
nnignsning
word from jude twice, reply twice, plans set in stone
petting susie, tom night hosting ry
pirates play, pla, quiz
bloated, rested, expectant
soemthing caused me a migraine
qi gong
gtgompp
take out, finish pathophys hmework and move on to preparing for quiz/5 element hmwork

10/6/13 SUN 10:50
NNIGNSNING
pirates win, dodgers leading
no news, ryan is infatuated with christina
ryan's attitude and confidence tomorrow's visit
ryan's "active" side
sore throat stuffy
I am not ready to be needling - I must review a lot in order to do so
ews, ryan visiting
gtgompp
expense list should include ryan's money, 5 element paperwork and pulses, meeting?

10/8/13 TUES 12:30
HDATTTW? rain, foggy
oakland, rays, pirates all win, jets play nnignsning
home to dine with mom and collect things
sleeping, getting work done tom, notes etc.
pathophys test, needling wed, all wkds coming up
out of sorts a bit
Tx makes me a little loopy
retrieving my things, pulses completed thus far
gtgompp
look over those luo pts

10/8/13 TUES 11:30
NICE, fally, hdatttw?
nnignsning, red sox leading, tigers win
no news from family
no quiz tomorrow, being prepared for once
being called on
nose is stuffy, fatigued, distended
my work consumes me
tennis, thinking about herbs, no quiz tom, pulses and things i've finished
gtgompp
prepare last four pages and try to figure out most of review questions, pla

10/10/13 THURS. 11:05
cool, rainy, hdatttw?
nnignsning, verlander's no-hitter bid interrupted
no word from family, fb responses and message sent to and from ryan
relationship, friendship with ryan and cultivating it
affording peru, clinic internship
tired, lumbus sore, unsure and irritated, resentful
I have friendship letters that are long overdue
resting, relaxing, haircut, refund from google offers
gtgompp
type journal entries, friendship letters, boxes practice, name list first, pathophys.

Book of Deeds Vol. 213

8/13/13 TUES 12:45

hdatttw?

nnignsning

jude home, 2 a days electrofishing

pirates, steelers, game, girls, health, acupuncture studies, scrapping, copper

comps, tests this year, interning 1/wk

nice

copper wires

copper wires

gtgompp

maybe the manakin

8/13/13 TUES 11:30

hdatttw?

nnignsning

nnwfaf

scrapping with cautionary tales

my mother (controlling)

crontrolled and influenced too much

I am far too controlled by judith

susie

gtgompp

kiiko and student manual and notes perhaps 0 with point Rx and Tx

8/14/13 WED 11:15

HDATTTW?

nnignsning

one can never leave

woman who don't exist

everything

mental

I unlearn something everyday

susie, mowing

gtgompp

scrap, pulse

8/15/13

hdatttw

nnignsning

nn

w. caldwell women

concerns,

mental

i unlearn something every day

substitute w/ indigestion

potential scrapping money to be made

gtgompp

pack and unpack and scrap

8/15/13 SAT 12:00

hdatttw?

nnignsning

to montclair to w. caldwell

west caldwell, scrapping

job interview

mental

i'm almost outta time and have not reviewed point location

susie, gtgtg driving time

gtgompp

review, pulses

review, pulses first

8/18/13 SUN 12:00

HDatttw?

nnignsning

kevin and jen's party absent from, drowsy day

scrapping money i'll clear

mother over reaching, talking about finances (how I'll feel)

optimistic

still afraid of getting fired

how far gotten in pathology book

gtgompp

write happiness letters

8/19/13 MON 12:15

hdatttw?

nnignsning

montclair trip by parents to collect bed

scrapping money

my back, timeline, for return to school, job hunt

mental

it's a distraction from real issues

susie our talk

gtgompp

finish readthrough, student, manual and clean needle, then kiiko

8/19/13 MON 11:30

hdatttw?

nnignsning

no news

scrapping money

the weight exerted on the trunk

mental

my paris still work

susie, scrapping

gtgompp

contact david regarding gift certif.

8/21/13 WED 12:30

hdatttw?

nnignsning

nn

getting health, scrapping

my back and shoulder

unsure and insecure

mike's to work in CA

susie, jud'es mood, scrapping

gtgompp

kiiko, sm, pulses, manakin

8/21/13 WED 10:30

hdatttw?

nnignsning

h letters

women

grades, performance, living in w. caldwell, loss of mike, speaking with ryan

mental, swollen ankle

ankle's hurt morn expected

susie, day off

gtgompp

scrap, call merwines, kiiko's book, pt. location - pulse, and head pts and bio picture

8/23/13 FRI 12:45

hdatttw?

nnignsning

jude to columbia tom. us sunday

school, women

class (# of members), rooming with lynn, problems arise

stagnant

just the beginning of my education

88 minutes, susie climbing my shoulder

gtgompp

pla - simultaneous w/ japanese student guide, pulse

8/25/13 SAT 12:30

hdatttw?

nnignsning

jude to columbia

w. caldwell,  year II

internship next summer, job hunt calendar

mental

I needed rest

susie, corn, what i got through pt. location

gtgompp

pla - mirror, move books, etc. list inclu. plants, bring binders, coffee cabinet, etc.

7/23/13 TUES 1:45

rainy hdattw?

nnignsning

jude in columbia, errands all day to please jude one can never leave

finishing my report

length - page length what subject to begin with - haff pilgrimage or true life events

I can really get under your skin with my writing - maybe I should write something like that - if i am writing this report effectively, by now I am sufficiently under your skin stay until the end, you may learn a thing or two

my openings exceed expectations

gave the gompp

outline body of scholarship essay, maybe try yin/yang youse - consult tom, to do list, begin facial points

8/25/13 SUN 12:40

hdatttw?

nnignsning

jude in md. us tomorrow

move team

seeing maddy

my back

finances, scrapping

job search, lois's class finishing 5 element

mental and physically inept

almost at 1000

10000

gtgompp

finish pla for all but BL

7/23/13 TUES 11:45

hot, occeasional rain, hdatttw?

nnign ryan braun sning

jude stays until saturday flooding in noecker residence

scrapping

scrapping, parents hate the idea, it's something I love to do

bloated, tired

i unlearn something every day

hrs

gaev the gompp

write pat, scrap if crew is absent

8/25/13 SUN 8:30

hdatttw?

nnignsning

moving them downingtown tomorrow

scrapping

shoulder, back

heistancy to look for job

tired, sore shoulder

i unlearn something every day

susie, maddy

gtgompp

don't strain yourself

7/25/13 THURS 12:05

cool, fally, hdatttw?

nnignsning

called jude for input, mailed trace/fb'd patrtick, contacted lynn one can never leave

scrap yard tomorrow

whether I can keep myself from scrapping

on solid moral ground

dad's trusts me to go to the scrapyard

susie, nap

gave the gift of my peaceful presence

scrap, but check in at jackson rd.

8/26/13 MON 11:00

nice, hdattw?

moved noeckers to downingtown resting and day off

academic proation

worried

i am to be put on ap, dan is a materialist

madelynn

gtgompp

write out journal

bl and du meridians

records and discrepancies

just be prepared

8/10/13 SAT 12:05

hdatttw?

nningsning

jude back tomrrow, business as use

my passion

punishment, talk argument with parents

cold and not ready for early start

i waste a lot of time

"good for nothing"

ggompp

get through a lot of review material

8/11/13 SUN 12:15

hdatttw?

nnignsning

jude expected did not arrive

passion

passions

overwrought and overextended

indulgence

susie-twice, acupuncture, prograss

gtgompp

big picture

7/2/13 SUN 11:30

Rainy Hdatttw?

pirates, st. louis, reds lose, nnignsning

friendly's tonight, one can never leave

school year, health and longevity, immortal qi gong, herbs

school yebasdf

7/26/13 FRI 12:454
Dreary hdatttw?
nnignsning
text from jude, email, sent letter to pat and tracy (received) one from her
walk with ancients, scrap
clues
ok
fall weather makes me melancholy I traded one bad habit - picking skin - to doing same thing in a different area
finishing somethings on my to do list
gave the gift of my peaceful presence
w. caldwell meetings, identify on jude saturday, pts. on manakin start - finish getting prelim. research completed

7/27/13 Sat 10:30
Hot and Dry hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude back from MD. up to date, decisions, moving-in still to be made
west caldwell, girls esp. finishing paper
crunch time studying and prep for 2nd year
sound, confident, excited
only so long (can I control chocolate cravings
susie, job we did
gave the gift ofmy peaceful presence
contact ESATM profs regarding food allergy research

7/28/13 SUN 11:30
Rainy hdatttw?
nnignsning
stayed  in the family today
finishing homework, w. caldwell potential
school year, needling, point I.D.
congested, and stuffy
wear a mask
susie addict/cat story/ hrs
gave teh gift of my peaceful presence
study for paa a good niught's sleep

7/30/13 TUES 9:45
hdatttw?
nnignsning
to montclair this afternoon after brushing
finishing paa final tomorrow
how well I'll do on paa final considering time between last lookover
 being back in montclair, I feel uncomfortable
traveling time, susie, get to see her tomorrow
gave the gift of my peaceful presence
eagle rock rte to west caldwell

8/1/13 THURS 11:30
hdatttw? rainy
nnignsning
june to pittsburgh to m but one can never leave
scrapping, learning about acupuncture and herbs, peru
job, languishing and malingering
not at ease, on edge
i'm on edge
letter for pat
gave the gift of my presence peaceful
finish majority of articles

8/3/13 SAT 12:45
hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude in western pa as is noeckers, one can never leave
reading rimbaud money from work
separation west caldwell, adjusting, confrontation, failures
sore, dry throat
i am worried about confrontation
evening, the sun at dusk
susie
gtgompp
aps, articles, pulses, manakin
essay, pt location

8/3/13 SAT 10:45
hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude in w. pa jon's grad party
sex
talkign to women
starved of sex and companionship
there's a hole in my soul that needs to be filled
suze, aps
gtgompp
review, pulses, needles in manakin

8/4/13 SUN 11:15
hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude, noeckers to md, electrofishing
my passion
acupuncture studies
cold, insecure, starved for sex and companionship
kerouac really voiced what people felt down deep
susie weather, nap
gtgompp
studies, burdock root, pulses

8/6/13 TUES 12:15
hdatttw?
nningsning
jude extending stay through weekend at noeckers
my passions, the next site
my parents, judging me or punishing me in some way
alright, tired
I have to learnsome patience tolerance and acceptance
susie, nap, talking w/ dad
gave the gift of my peaceful presence
start mock intake, manakin puncture

8/7/13 WED 1:15
hdatttw?
nnignsning
same no change
money, mowing, career choice
academic year
sores, out of sync
I unlearn something every day
zodiac, quitting after 1st section, passion
gtgompp
list and list creation - epipen - opening paragrap

8/8/13 THURS 1:25
hdatttw?
nnignsning
same
peru, yage, school year
endurance, stamina, employment
tired, not
not 100%
susie
gave the gift of my peaceful presence
finish review cam, start other books

8/9/13 FRI 12
HDATTTW?
nnignsning
jusie attacked tonighgt, issues resolved btw jude and me, the same
getting started year two, companionship
health, weight, grades, showing my skills hanging in there, not 100% yet
I unlearn something every day
susie on my lap, jude's email, pay off
gtgompp
readthrough of review material, pulses

8/10/13 SAT 12:05
hdatttw?
nningsning
jude back tomrrow, business as use
my passion
punishment, talk argument with parents
cold and not ready for early start
i waste a lot of time
"good for nothing"
ggompp
get through a lot of review material

8/11/13 SUN 12:15
hdatttw?
nnignsning
jude expected did not arrive
passion
passions
overwrought and overextended
indulgence
susie-twice, acupuncture, prograss
gtgompp
big picture


7/2/13 SUN 11:30
Rainy Hdatttw?
pirates, st. louis, reds lose, nnignsning
friendly's tonight, one can never leave
school year, health and longevity, immortal qi gong, herbs
school yebasdf



7/3/13 WED 10:45
T-storms hdatttw?
nnignsning
one can never leave
moneymaking, possible scrapping
response of myparents regarding scrapping
fatigued ina good way
I am pushing myself to the point of exhaustion every day
getting both letters of reference
expressed sympathy to a potential landlord. gave gift of my presence
lookover materials - 2nd year book list

7/4/13 THURS 11:15
HHH - HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
one can never leave, friends at meeting and friends who don't care
the comments at the meeting tonight & what I learned. what the summer holds
nothing
bloated, tired, unsure
I unlearn something everyday
elderly woman noting smile and waving, kids waving, the meeting
gave the gift of my presence
point id - on styrofoam head

7/5/13 FRI 11:15
HHH HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
paughs visit. no one can leave
studying and researching paper
norman's email - frequently
stuffy and allergic to cat
I'm a sick puppy
susie, subway interactions
gave the gift of my presence
finish section of allergy-book

7/7/13 SUN 12:40
HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
one can never leave
digging into intakes
my knowledge and skills
overheated and headachey
overheated is the worst
the edge
gave the gift of my presence

7/7/13 SUN 11:20
brutal - hdatttw?
First brit? andy murray to win the wimbeldon chmpship in77 years
jude to columbia, pohoqualine broke from brush cutting
logging hrs., new setting, caldwell perhaps
enough options
unsure, avoidant, lack of confidence in TCM, wary and weary, uneasy really
uneasy about my knowledge of TCM
pat's call, writing letters
gave the gift of my presence
case #2, case 1 reinforcing points, begin scholarship essay

7/8/13 MON 11:30
HHH HDATTTW
NNIGNSNING
ONE can never leave
women pittsburgh trip shore trip
next year, my knowledge of needling, pt location
congested, ready for sleep
I unlearn something every day
susie
gave the gift of my presence
print more journal pages, look at food allergy material - finish case #1 and case #2

6/9/13 TUES 1:05
hot then cool - hdatttw?
nnignsning
one can never leave
scrapping
ramifications of scrapping
good, tired
I can probably scrap two metal bars and we'll see about doing the signs

7/14/13 SUN 1:15
HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
one can never leave
getting better in body and mind
getting better in body or mind
cold, resentful
i should come clean about scrapping
cat - melissa mccarthy and sandra bullock
gave the gift of my nflrewards to jonathon and print more sheets - do what you need to do for yourself

6/28/12 FRI 9:30
very hot, windy HDATTTW?
nnignsning
few exchanges with Jude, A.A. meeting and discussion with sponsor
the results of stepwork
having the gall for stepwork
sore wrist, tired
I unlearn something every day
pittsburgh
gave the gift of my presence
packing and er-sa, books from library

7/1/13 MON 1:15
nice, comfortable, HDATTTW?
nnignsning
meeting planned in philly hotel w/ jess, dan and madelynn noecker w/ family, one can never leave
tomorrows meeting
2 mos., 4 days til start of semester things falling on top of me
very strong
I unlearn something every day
hearing about going to philly, thinking about steve and herbert huncke
gave the gift of my presence
give the gift of your presence, do intake and choose 10 good pts

7/2/13 MON 11:15
Nice HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING Pirates!
Philly conference break w/ Jess and dan @ marriot in-town
cashing my check, getting some supplies
reading, prep, point location, intake
tired, worn out, confident
no word from norm
man - commenting that he knew I was a basketball player
gave the gift of my presence
get something concrete - down - down cold - big picture exam

7/17/13 WED 12:40
HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
one can never leave
seeing w/ caldwell - records of mr. mangili
saving money - with this apt.
traveling w/ jude
money issues - work
grateful, very blessed
good anxious
it's never good enough for parents - looking @ their children they think the world of them and want the world of them (for the taking)
working with dad, coffee, soymilk
gave the gift of my presence
start facial - count first (acupoints) then insert the m.

7/20/13 SAT 12:45
HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
one can never leave
scrapping
school year
strong, fit, no confidence
I'm going to have to do mock intakes all by myself - starting w/ dad and mom and aunt jill
lotta things, too many to count - scrapping for one
gave the gift of my presence
vacuum and clean car - ooh w/ lemon, mixed with water in squirt gun, and print some mroe damn copies

7/2/13 TUES 11:45
Nice, HDATTTW?
nnignsning, Pirates
pics fr. jess tonight of maddy, rained out of work but was always with my family, one can never leave
my approach to work
work, work life and work life plans, shifting my mentality
confident and w/ perspective
I unlearn something every day
nap, susie, meeting comments - mike 23 days
gave the gift of my presence
one day at a time - acupunctural work, however small

7/21/13 SUN 12:05
HH&H t-storms,
HDATTTW?
nnignsning
texted spondor
scrapping
threats directed
towards me with scrapping
good, ready for sleep
I'm staying w/ swimming exercise program
thinking about scrapping
wrote pat
gave the gift of my presence
finish reading
email norm thoughts on intake, take dad's pulse manakin

7/21/13 SUN 10:55
hot/not as hot HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
jude to columbia to sit. one can never leave
finishing girls above me, jackson rd. site
jackson rd. site
worried, procrastinating, fearful, anxious, dissapointed, relieved
I am relieved to have this time off school
jude this morning, susie, jackson rd. thoughts
gave the gift of my peaceful presence
pulses, finish articles      


Susie, finishing brush cutting
gave the gift of my presence
print more sheets, scrap metals




6/19/13 WED 12:45
berry warm hdatttw?
nnign
jude and dad want to go to a game friday July 12th
finishing, dong some scrapping locally to make some money
comps on tuesday
bloated, ST ache
I have so much more to learn about TCM
finishing the final
gave the gift of my presence
get rid of the resentment of mike and dennis over what I perceived as disrespect

6/20/13 THURS 12:15
beautiful hdatttw?
nnignsning
word went through from M&D to Kourt, hopefully to Jill, FB'd them
finishing studying, getting comps out of the way
comps
tired and fatigued
saturated fats are good
tennis w/ michelle and banter afterward
gave michelle a lesson
finish  bioscience & A&P, move on to acupuncture

6/21/13 FRI 11:50
HH&H HDATTW
NNIGNSNING
nn fr. friends & family interaction via FB
getting testing done and get into writing scholarship essays
comps
unsure, shaky, expectant, gloom and doom, nervous, speculative
yesterday learned to pose the questions make the distinction between a patent and a monopoly yesterday
amount of material I went through
did neighbor's laundry
review BL - locate points and lookover back shu before Aili's final

6/21/13 SAT 10:05
H&H HDATTTW?
nnignsning
no word fr. family only FB photos
getting this year completed trying to make some money writing for scholarship money
returning subject-related books to ESATM
sore, phlegmy, confident, striving, ambitious
I am ambitious when I wanna be
tom calling
thanked latoya
finish up review

6/24/13 MON 2:45
f'ing hot I been sweatin' all day
nnignsning
only photos via FB
seeing Madelynn again
the way I space out
overheated - need to find a wayta get cool
Americans use the letter "a" with the pronunciation "uh" too much
dinner w/ tom's family
bought dinner for the gormleys
review and get to bed early

6/24/13 MON 9:50
Hot hdatttw?
nnignsning
word from jude and fwd'd email from chris, unable to open "maddy talking" video
passing comps then moving past it
comps
warm all around
perhaps I'll hook up A.C. tomorrow night, still fiddling with finger skin
kids playing tennis
complimented kid's tennis playing
pass comps w/ flying colors

6/26/13 WED 1:55
HHH hdatttw?
nnignsning
word from dad, jude and I sent a thank you out to everyone in my family
I'm through to 2nd yaer
my bad habits and breaking them
very pleased, but like tom says, the feeling hasn't set in yet
I am a 2A student
passing comps
gave the gift of my presence
some scrapping and cleaning

6/27/13 THURS 3:15
Hottern hell Hdatttw?
nnignsnign
very vibrant email from jude and dad and others
tomorrow getting the day started
not going to meetings and how that reflects on my image
ST upset, bloated, constipated
I get worried when the work I do doesn't wear me out early and I usually catch a second wind, GB talking
walk late at night
gifted my neighbor with tickets to levity live and 2 free acutreatment referrals
wash chris's car and inflate his tires a bit - check the air pressure gauge requirements, if necessary, scrap, meeting

6/27/13 THURS 8:40
hot hdatttw?
nnign
few exchanges with mother and a few with Kourt
Pirates being best team in baseball
Pirates missing playoffs
tired a sticky
not all doors are open
basil pickings, meeting
emailed Norman and Jude
sleep through to morning

6/13/13 SAT 10:35
HDADTTW?
nnign
one can never leave
the future after testing
timetable of now and the time we're in the clinic
confident anticipatory
I am budgetting time very well
david and lunch and nutrition
gave the gift of my presence
final 4 channels and review materials for extras

6/14/13 MON 1:15
humid
nnignsning
joshua spilled half a smoothie before I left tonight it was hilarious and I celebrated Father's Day with them - lost my keys in the lawn
my chances for Dr. Zheng's final exam
categories of points
tight quads, mentally, emotionally good, spiritually I could do with some improvement
I'm beginning to enjoy tom and his family more and more
family time
invited tom and his fam over for dinner
study to best of your ability but do not overload - create a test for yourself and look into what tom said regarding diagnosis

6/18/13 TUES 12:35
HH&H Hdadttw?
nnignsning
Jude chimes in from beach and dad emailed me bout Father's Day yesterday
getting Zheng's final out of the way
Zheng's final
lil sore, sweaty, hot
I unlearn something everyday
amount of work I accomplished
informed dad about pittsburgh trip
mu/shu, xi cleft, antique points, label with stickies - extra points - indications and functions

6/13/13 THURS 2:10
perfect
nnignsning
nnff
half christmas, scrapping, the poconos this summer
heat hard work, comps
sore st, st pain, back sore
cupping'll make ya feel rested
finding out tom k is c&s
joked with alla
study your ass off

6/14/13 FRI 3:00
WET HDADTTW?
nnignsning
one can never leave
rimbaud
how pleasure reading puts me in such a frame of mind, 5 element prep time management
great, enthusiastic
I am getting much accomplished
what I got accomplished deadman video
sent deadman video to everyone
4 channels tomorrow, 4 Saturday leaving 6 for sun and mon.

6/15/13 SAT 11:35
HDADTTW?
nnignsning
news is they're where they are - one can never leave
workaholics levity show
security and drunkenness, arthritis long term effects of tennis
sound, sore hands, worrisome but resolved and motivated
resentments that fester make negative behaviors
black raspberry
congratulated mom on finishing her school year
finish four more channels and 4 more indications and notes


6/9/13 sun 1:35
hdataoistttw?
nnignsning
no word, my family, second family (part) is in D.C., my friends and family were in JAA today
studying for comps, the challenge supplementary reading
Dr. Zheng's final
sore back but ok
I unlearn something every day
mantras of A.A.
gave the gift of my peaceful presence
get thr. immune

6/9/13 SUN 10:00
beave...hdadttw?
NNIGNSNING
f&fare where they are always are - within themselves
my insights
my negativity
confident, fearful, emotional
I have emotions coming to the surface that may be diffic. to process
joshua and yestin, tom and norva, and patty was uplifting just with her enthusiasm
gave the gift of my presence
get yesterday's lunch, lookover ota notes thoroughly

6/10/13 TUES 1
rain hdadttw
nnignsning
my family and friends are exactly as they are
finishing ota
ota final
confident relaxed, pressing
I am calm about tests but fanatic about thorough studying, used to be the reverse
directions to some workers
directions and gave gift of my presence
complete studying

6/11/13 WED 11:00
HH and TStorms HDADTTW?
NNIGNSNING
they have no news, it is impossible to go anywhere
day off and what I'll fill my day with
Dr. Zheng's test
uneasy, resentful, incomplete, frustrated, irritated
this one day I do side with the resentments that were aired
exchanges w/ Tom and Norm
gave out a free referral to
use knowledge of food allergies for paper - Norm's allergy to mussels, Danielle my grocer's Father - since he was young he's been allergic to shrimp."
get the pamphlet copied



5/14/2013 TUES 11:35
cold
nnignso news is no good
word from jude and i resplied had id of points today
free time and money i'll make scrapping
shame of accepting help on a practical
good, in good shape
whatever I did let's continue it
norman and our exchanges
sent dr. martucci a note and referrals
consult old goals and make way to scrap yard

5/16/13 THURS 12:20
brisk
nnignsning
word from jude and a reply. ry hung out and watched workaholics and baseball
scrapping locally making some decent money scrapping
emergencies and improperly secured loads, police inquiries
sound a bit bloated and twitchy in the back ribs
i'm fallible and pessimistic and gripe when I get the chance to and I hate myself for the resentments i form
ryan, norm, lord byron
hung w/ ryan
belt - dai channel
scrapping, todo list, library perhaps

5/17/13 FRI 12:15
humid
nnignsning
talked to jude and said hi
research tom
time management
the pressure
i will put off job hunting for a long time
talking w/ jude thinking about my cat
said hello to jude
scrapping, review, job plan,
time manage report, pulses, comp-study

5/17/13 FRI 10:45
nice temp
murder/suicide in Canterbury Park, montclair last night
talked with jude tonight conversed with pat and had tom and his family over, I prepared astragalus capsules for tom
learning herbs in a few years
getting through acupuncture studies comps - fitting in studying
sorry about rodney king
r. lied to me
tom and his family
talked and gave the gift of my presence
lookover notes - and take a break if you need one

5/18/13 SAT 10:05
drizzly
nnignsning, murder suicide
jude out with betsy, susie outside with tabby cat (gary :)) and dad and chris marked 750 fish, prob, stocked them today
just what's next in school and some time off
relationship with women and the drought
angry thinking about neighbors
just fantastic is not always very fantastic
compliment of alla's
sent pic to fellow student and recieved dean's receipt of the thank-you email I sent
keep your tongue, your mouth your ears your eyes open

5/20/13 MON 12
rainy and misty
nnignsning
no contact with family except for short facebook message sent to dan via jess's fb page and photo of maddy. dinner, observation and bday party for tom's son garth
research, herbs, my practice in pittsburgh
injuring others and myself w/ needles
very well, no longer constp'd, wind issues and jing essence issues
drunk dreams can take you by surprise
tom and I really connecting and family time @ their household was wonderful, thinking about lit.
gave the gift of my presence - listened to garth
my paper - go to the library and plant yourself there at all costs - scrap metal at all costs

5/21/13 TUES 12:15
humid
nnignsning
called the phone list tonight - earlier today I went to a meeting
peace and quiet anger and repressed and resentments being repressed and festering - I may need anger management, my codependency issues, my old
angry, frustrated, weepy, the emotion is sorrowful
I just can't seem to get through to this younger generation - they seem to be oblivious - I bet in Berkeley this would not occur
talking with jess, jude and the meeting today, just breathing and staying peaceful - life on life's terms
gave the gift of my presence
paper, study/review, review, review, repeat copy the points down

5/21/13 TUES 10:20
Humid and muggy, hh&h
nnignsning
my family is well and my friends are well. those that are not well I pray for
tomorrow
time management for paper and study
hot and bothered, acquiescent
i head a ton of pressure on myself
conversed w/ students, walking and getting book on do-in, warming alla's hand up
warmed alla's hand up
scrap and study

5/23/13 THURS 2:05
Hot, hazy, humid
nnignsning
had tea w/ steve and hungout with ry after a&p II class
rest relaxation and knocking off a big part of my paper
time management, heat, summer working at home electrofishing
tired, laboring
I may be spreading myself too thin
steve and ryan hanging out, mike's seminar
tea for steve
prioritize, time mangement, race yourself

5/23/13 THURS 11:00 P.M.
a taoist looks at the weather by sticking his head out the window
nnignsning
jude misunderstands, or doesn't read, smobriety and my email about a year smoke free
a year of smobriety, research tomorrow and drafting
putting off errands for work on the project
strong able
still searching for a preventative measure for sex. activity probl. and seem to have a protocol for it
sex. activity protocol and needling, refund check, thinking about gifts for jess
email to jude and dad
concentrate on the paper and what you want to accomplish

5/23/13 FRI 7:55
WINDY, Cold, RAINY, you know how a daoist tells the weather right?
nnignsning
fb news from family - jess and dan; coffee with steve and bill
putting the product or at least, the draft of a product of my project on the bright and dark
whether i can fit in master-level assessment methods of assessment and treatment strategies, 5-Element material - for treatment strategies
sore at du 1
envy, malice, and other feelings - learn to recognize them - they are reactions not responses
steve and bill - coffee with them and speaking about knowledge, wisdom, it was excellent in a very excellent philosophic way
congratulated bill - told him my principles - and offered some advice
henry miller's the woman question

5/24/13 SAT 11:45
cold, windy, do you know how a taoist tells the weather - sticks his head out the window
nnignsning
late start to 5 element and then dinner w/ the gormleys finishing this paper
spreading myself too thin, keep my energy in check
sound, spiritually fit
I am a good teacher of children, as henry miller wrote, I can speak with the tongues of angels w/ a nobody, w/ the rich or w/ contemporaries - I am silent - like rimbaud
dinner w/ tom's fam/ speaking with theresa
gave the gift of my peaceful presence
to not regret the past, but make amends, for...etc.

5/25/13 SUN 11:00
brisk, warm do you know how a taoist predicts the weather?
nnignsning
jude in columbia, dan replied to my email about jess's size of dress, walked with steve this morning, texted tom
spending money, esp. for my practice - seeing form of project take shape
polishing and generally hammering story down
well
I am healthy
b-ball w/ max, mace and their dad, football in the park
gave gift of my presence
find - anything on bright and dark online

5/27/13 TUES 12:05
nice, sunny, do you know how a daoist tells the weather
nnignsning
only word from fb about jude's visit to columbia. I went with tom to deanna's in nutley and then rested, relaxed, procrastinated
just confidence, concentration and focus
my bp, my desolation
improvement
I unlearn something everyday
conversation with tom
went to deanna's memorial day get-together
lookover cun measurements for points btw elbow and wrist and elbow and shoulder

5/29/13 WED 1:00
overcast, p/rainy, do you know how a taoist makes a weather prediction?
nnignsning
no word from family, late start, class all night
getting my paper done
getting my paper finished
resentful, abashed, wired, tired, unattractive, healthy
I desire a fit body but fail to concentrate and dedicate time to improvement
dr. zheng, barbara, julia, tom, mike, my composure, my email to dana
thanked dana for substituting
one day at a time, spiritual reading and prayer du 1

5/30/13 THURS 12:30
HH&H how does a taoist tell the weather
nnignsning
no news or fb messages from family, texted friends and emailed heather, class late at night
a break from school
I may have to take sat. and sunday off for to work on my project II. SAA I makeups
fearful of our saa teacher
i am going to have to take sat. and sunday off to finish the paper
massage, getting through
sent heather a letter
retrieve - cranial nerve material or find fr. mike's notes

5/31/13 FRI 12:40
hot humid brutal
montclair man run over at watchung ave. rail crossing
no news from family regarding things, esatm trip, writing paper
resting
finishing paper properly polished
hot and tired, headachey worried
i got overheated
new daoin book
gave gift of my presence, complimented steve s.
computer laptop in front of desktop for quicker production

6/1/13 SAT 3:45
how does a taoist predict the weather
nnignsning
talked with jude about coming home and working as well as an apt. on clairemont
this summer
the next few days' work on my paper and making it polished and cohesive
comfortable and confident, a little leary
I can spare everyone my judgement to tell the truth
at the moment, retrieving the note to my neighbor and learning a lesson from it
wished my sister a happy birthday and I love you
get a bulk of paper done and speed paraphrase - leave criticism, comparison and contrast to monday

6/2/13 SUN 11:40
t-storms, how does a daoist predict the weather
nnignsning
no word from, tom delivered the herbs I picked this morning and I worked on my paper morning to night w/ nap in between
what free time I have after my paper and A&P II is donw
getting project plished and getting everything I want in it
sore, greasy, sweaty, anxious, nervous, excited
I have a good idea where I want my paper to go
work I got done, sourced I found, new info for my paper
send tom adobe acrobat
wrap up your paper and get foot and ankle looked over

6/4/13 TUES 2:00
hot t-storms, how does a taoist predict the weather
nnignsning
no news from home I spent no time talking with either, instead, worked on my project
getting able to finish ppaer
time constraints, but also how my ideas come across - as wacky or able to get behind
tired, sore achey, drained mentally
I will have just enough time to finish my paper, the last half of my paper I consider jibberish that needs to be reworked
what I got down on paper
praying for my neighbors giving the gift of my presence
finish your report and then get your shit together
6/5/13
WED 1:00
nice hodw does a taoist tell the weather
nnignsning
talked with chris and receieved email from jess, called unaware that she had written me, worked on paper til afternoon then classed all eve. grocery and teff porridge late
finishing paper and a & p II will be done tomorrow - more time on my hands, scrapping
comps
quite enthused and anticipation is high
the meaning of kerouac's "jobsa done" line from OINTRE
comaraderie of my class, getting paper finished
talked with ryan
study and afterward get yourself primed for comps - prepare the fortress, man the battlestations
say something interestin' - I finally got kerouac's line about "interesting" never say an uninteresting thing - line from that great passage****

6/6/13 THURS 1:15
very nice how do taoists tell weather
nnignsning
nn from familiy, final this afternoon that I studied, for massage protocol and pizza party then bball a walk and bed
tomorrow - free time
comps
sound, head is achey and I feel dehydrated and head heat
pairing off vs. group social life - what's the answer eventually you won't remember names
my neighbor coming home
talked to steve
I understand why wheel of fortune of popular, inform sponsee you're coming home, scrap

6/7/13 FRI 1:00
t-storms, how does a taoist tell the weather
nnignsning
talked to dad who's sick and jude called me a short while later I picked up mower after scrapping
the money I made scrapping and held I relieved, scrapping tomorrow
bro's car, comps, time mangment
tired, heavy-eyed
girls abv. me are still inconsiderate but neighbor was cool that I almost ran her over
my neighbor's expression as I nearly ran into her
pologized to neighbor, gave gift of my presence
clean, get organized and mentally prepped for comps

8/28/13 WED 12:15
HDATTTW? Rain?
NNIGN
jude to inservice, ARC to Pike cty
scrapping and scrapping in palmerton club money
scrapping being considered stealing
sore arm/shoulder
sore arm/shoulder
on the road, movie nt with pam and eric
call merwine and stop being a pussy

8/28/13 WED 11:15
HDATTTW? by sticking his head out a window
nnignsning
nn
school women, scrapping, peru, experiences, pittsburgh nov. 10th
metal, bit sore
mel brooks' movies suck
susie, day off
gtgompp
manakin sometime

8/30/13 FRI 12:30
HDATTTW?
nnignsning
madelynn videos
seeing madelynn videos
business grades, comps, 4 years more
mental
I'm nervous
susie, nap, scrapping
gtgompp
scrap after work

8/30/13 FRI 11:45
hdatttw?
nnignsning
to fair
scrapping growing plants, women  w. caldwell
job serach, class struggles
bloated, nervous, unsure
i'm as unsure as my first year
scrapping and susie
gtgompp, deanna, jude
get back to norm,papers, discrepancies

8/31/13 SAT 11:40
HDATTTW?
sept. 1st tom. labor day monday nnign sning
madelynn psu onesie psu game today
woman, new approach to exfoliating skin
my approach to employment, money i'm sending
stuffy, chest tight, indigestion, itchy
speak up

joking w/ coworkers, susie wawa coffee
gtgompp
w. caldwell wikipedia/homepage, blackhead strips

9/2/13 MON 1:40
HDATTTW?
nnignsning
nn
w. caldwell scrapping potential
classes, 5 element homework, final project
mental nervous, expectant, dissapointed
i'm still dissapointed in mike, worried about ryan
susie, nap, day off, joking with jude
gtgompp
nook online - recycler's guide, take pulses finally

9/3/13 TUES 12:15
hdatttw?
nnignsning, labor day
nn
trip to w. caldwell, scrapping sites
fitting everything in the z
sweaty worried, unconfident unprepared
i need to study the big picture, literally
susie, pirates, dinner
gtgompp
find folder with calendar

9/4/13 WED 12:10
hdatttw?
nnign
back in essex co.
work to do, intro to report
workload, grading style of lois
worried, apprehensive avoidant out of place
i have not adjusted to my surroundings yet
susie, jude's note, chinese, hbo
gtgomppp
stick to list

9/5/13 THURS 1:15
hdatttw?
nnign pirates break sid bream curse
word fr. jude no word fr. anyone else
scrapping peru, needling, health, immortal qi gong
my health, study habits
lonesome, disinterested, ambivalent
ridley scott's imagination is twisted
early shots of prometheus lois's humor
gtgompp
mow, meeting, plan day trip, read over reading list items

9/6/13 FRI 12:30
HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
jude emailed, aunt jill fb messaged
possibly going to the beach tomorrow
academic probation and catching up dates and times of misses
stick - indigestion
not going to finish pulses
bike ride, list items completed
gtgompp
finish verifying missed dates possibly schedule some observations

9/7/13 SAT 12:50
hdatttw?
nnignsning
word from dad, reply to jude's email
catching up on missed classes
catching up, looking for work, getting involved in commitments
ST upset, bored
I will be a good student this semester but bored out of my mind
studying done
gtgompp
organize room, papers, etc. printer, finish review

9/7/13 SAT 10:00
HDATTTW?
nnign
long email from jude, reply too, dad's stitch ruminated on
finishing/starting pulses really, finishing homework, naked pla
fear, isolation and avoidant behavior
avoidant, off kilter
prometheus is a prequel to alien
finishing prometheus, watching psu play today
gtgompp
ask for extension ask how to properly do pulse

9/9/13 MON 12:15
hdatttw?
nfl football sunday
one can never leave
day off, scrapping possibilities
searching for a job, comps, work catching up 80%
cold, sore, wired
hank williams was not what he appeared to be
last ride, 5 element class
gtgompp
cockroach killer, gas, pulses main concern, notes and study naked pla

9/10/13 TUES 2:45
hdatttw?
eagles trounce redskins, rgiii doesn't live up to hype
no news from home reconnected with steve at the meeting
scrapping
my 5 element grade, pulses
bloated, uncomfortable, unsure
i am nearly done with 4th step
what I got done
gtgompp, mowed, dishes
naked pla, workaholics
dishes, cvs for finishing kit

9/11/13 WED 1:45
HDATTTW?
NNIGNSNING
word from dad worked on shed floor
good health, prosperity and love
gloves, missing needling practice observing thursday
worried, hungry, despondent
i fit the opp description of du mai
contagion, supplies, pla
gtgompp
scrap locations, marker, hemostate, sharps container, ex large gloves, glaze through notes

9/11/13 WED 11:00 P.M.
hdatttw? don't wanna even talk about how hot
syria, 9/11 anniversary, nnignsning
letter from dad containing si article
mlb playoffs
my clinical skills, big picture and point location
I compare myself with other for reassurance in myself
needling
gtgomppp
some pla w/ dots/big picture

9/13/13 FRI 1:35
t-storms/downpour
t-storms, friday the 13th
no word from anyone
pulses tom. meeting, pathology's about
quiz wednesday
sweaty, uncomfortable, annoyed
I hate pp beds
pirates top of division taking the day off
gtgompp
pay bills if check comes through, indeed.com

9/13/13 FRI 8:45
nice temp
nnignsning
no news
getting screws out, going home, finishing studies
dropping in on scrapping
tired, cramped
I'm wondering about lyme disease
scrapping, thinking about susie - visiting her
gtgompp
concentrate and take good notes learn something about pathology

9/15/13 SUN 12:00
hdatttw?
nnignsning, alabama over manziel's a&m
no news except noeckers are visiting poconos
acupuncture studies scrapping, going home, planting my garden, walking in the park tomorrow

wired and tired
couples compensate for their issues after having a baby by visiting in-laws
getting out early, getting to qi gong
gtgompp
be yourself - apricots, almonds, almond milk, apricots - look over 5 element chart

9/16/13 MON 1:55
HDATTTW?
nnignsning
noecker's last day with gparents
scrapping tom
where is in wayne, directions
great, don't wanna sleep
i really pull tom's arm to get him to go my way, subcategories of points are used b/c they work together
the homework I finished and classes I completed
gtgompp
cat food, litter, sm. gift for dad and chris - christmas cards early

9/19/13 THURS 11:55
perfect
nnignsning
word from jude, replied
finishing homework
the toll stress is taking
strong
I hope the energy keeps up
lynn
gtgompp
don't do stupid shit

9/20/13 SAT 10:20
perfecto
no news is good news so news is no good
word from jude and video of madelynn's crawl-try
seeing madelynn come of age
nervous tomorrow
less well than previous days
I have to cure myself of my desire to scrap
going slow and taking my time
gtgompp
pps, patho homework

9/23/13 SUN 10:00
HDATTTW?
no nignsning
no word from anyone
peru, women, pands
my resentments
decent, tired
something happened this morning that never happened before
brian yoon, yu, moon, interacting, 10 from deanna
bought coffee, gtgompp
journal recording, homework, cvs, buy CNT book

 
 

Book of Deeds vol. 212

4/18/13 THURS 1:30

Warm

Peru vs. mexico @ Candlestick

No words from family I went to class @ night

Forging something special @ turtleback zoo

Fitting in, making mistakes

Stomach is unsettled, dry throat, stomach ache

I find tom green very funny

Tom green, mike

Gave gift of my presence

Look for medicinal plants @ eagle rock reservation

4/19/13 FRI 1:00

Rain late, fog at night

No news

No word from jude besides indecision regarding plans

Getting to borrow a car, scrapping and making extra cash besides turtleback zoo

Backlash from scrapping work, police involvement – interrogation, fine, etc.

Well, needing a nap everyday

Every day as of recently I’ve needed a nap

Nothing seemed to brighten my day

n/a

bring up scrapping list on computer – any like, abandoned resorts

4/20/13 SAT 1:50

Rainy

Bombers in shootout w/ mit police, 1 shot dead, older brother killed, younger captured

Word from dad via jude they plan to come Sunday. No consequence to what I did today

Immortal qigong, women

How long till prayers are answered

Bloated, stuffy, awake, fussy

I have to pray to get women

The response from the parents of the two bombers

Shirt to red cross

Do your thing

4/20/13 SAT 10:35

Overcast p/s

Boston bombing suspects

Contacted chris and dad to come @ 7 p.m.

Chris and dad and dinner

Stamina, starting Monday @ turtleback

Bloated, sore, back pain

4/20 is the day that everyone smokes marijuana because it is near earth day

Thinking about romance

n/a, gave gift of my presence

stick through pm

4/21/13 SUN 10:30

Sunny, cold, p/c

n/a

chris and dad came & dropped off car, stayed for dinner. I was at class all day and at comps bioscience review

getting paid, doing some scrapping

liver test, tests, papers

bloated, constipated

I need some Tylenol BM, dinner at Kebab House

Saw if young man @ subway was alright

Lookover zoo map so you know that you can direct people toward exhibits

4/23/13 TUES 12:20

Cold, sunny

pNC bank (my local bank) was robbed this afternoon, Lauryn Hill in trouble for tax evasion

dad – received contact from and comment about yesterday

qigong, woman relationship, herbs, peru, ed – contact btw us

how I’m received by ed, whether he’ll want to come to peru

bloated, stuffed, full, etc.

dreading, fearful

I don’t sleep well the night before work, I may not be suited to anything but laborious work

Promise of pay

Gave gift of my presence

Study for liver quiz and be – catch up on lost sleep

4/23/13 TUES

Cold, lt. precip.

n/a

no news, except reaction to my email about turtleback, I had class all day

getting some money and scrapping a little bit

damage to Chris’s seats and trunk with barbs, dirt

bloated, sore, tired

I need a woman, I realized that there’s not a day I’m not at work or going to school

Short day, jokes

Gave gift of my presence

Learn to use the microphone and how to take pride in your job - acupuncture referrals & info sheets

4/23/13 WED 11:55

Cool, on the verge

Stock market cyber terrorist infiltrates wall street

Called Judith on the way home from school worked and had school all night

Getting my first paycheck, too hard to say

Getting overloaded with stress

Overcome w/ sympathy – do not proffer sympathy to the mentally ill it’s a bottomless pit

I need to figure out what a 7-week stay will cost – roughly – start savings for it I’ve gotta find out who’s a candidate for herbs I want to have the experience of eastern to the fullest

Smiles, laughter, probably cheering up the crying kids

Gave the gift of my peaceful presence

Remember names maria, joan, a peaceful person beating the shit out of a war-monger – tastefully, with pads, stever Irwin- have you ever met an Australian – a NORMAL Australian

4/24/13 Thursday

Cool, brisk w/ sun, very moderate

Nba playoffs nfl draft

Called family and friends made the rounds with everyone

Really everything

Fear

Ready to confront fear, what’s the worst that could happen

Life is hard but it gets better

Lots of stuff

Gave the gift of my presence

Hand out more referrals, write a book called hard road and the hippos were boiled in their tanks – checkout or find a way of purchasing

4/28/13 MON 1:00 a.m. Something

 Balmy

No news is good news, so news is no good

No contact with family, my eastern friends, hillary had a pregnancy treatment, played bball with mason and his brother

Living, breathing, experiencing

Stress, anxiety, fear, authority

Stronger and wanting to get stronger

I like getting exercise

Treatment – treating ryan – anybody, learning release points like pressing buttons

I treated and had a heart to heart talk with ryan – that hopefully he got

Do what you did today

4/30/13 TUES 11:10

Brisk, sunny

No news

No word from family friends w/ me @ channel

Finishing all the acupoints and extra points

Indications and functions

Well – healthy

I’m learning more and more to be a model for good behavior

The walk to watchung

I gave the gift of my presence

Pick some herbs

5/2/13 THURS 1:30

Brisk

No news is good news

Ryan came over after class and I had work and then class all day

Rest tonight

My stress level and fear of work

Sore feet

I don’t want my edema to get worse I may try to get it treated, or at least try to get fitted in for a treatment tomorrow before work

Ryan – talking w/ him

Invited him to view workaholics

Try and get an appointment through a cancellation, etc.

5/3/13 FRI 12:30

Sunny and warm

No news is good news so news is no good

Called parents tonight and rehabbed foot, today met with them

Fear

Fear

Ok at the moment

I unlearn something everyday

Rest and relaxation

Gave the gift of my presence

Relax and live moment to moment

5/4/13 SAT 12:00

Cool eve

Brking news bout boston marathon bombers

No news is good news so news is no good

Sleeping, resting tomorrow

My feet and my future at turtleback

Fatigued, guilty, sore, foreboding

I’ll use any excuse to get out of work

Getting to sleep early

Gave the gift of my presence

Do some catching up on schoolwork

5/5/13 SUN 12:40

Cold

No news is good news so news is no good

Jude emailed me

Getting some rest

Fear, anxiety, guilt, joblessness, just how I’m going to react to a call to maria

Feet are sore from my guess walking and standing on a rubber floor all day

I’m going to have to take a break for my own sake – it’s painful

Just relating to others, connecting

Called Ed, texted pat

Leave detailed feedback w/ maryann after mike diagnoses me

5/5/13 MON 11:45

Cold

No news is good news

No news from my family and friends is a useful label (we’re all one) it appears like two sometimes

Resting, finding a more suitable job, seeing how much I can scrap

The volume of money I’ll make scrapping, if the plantar fasciitis will hinder my progress

A bit guilty, I feel ashamed, at same time I realize I’ve got to do some work w/ myself and my program to make myself whole again

Shame follows promises that have not been kept – it’s a powerful feeling

Bball w/ some Montclair kids, cell phone returned by Norman

Gave the gift of my presence

Call about check through mail, scrap

5/6/13 MON 11:30

Cold

No news…

No word from my family or friends convo w/ tom gormley tonight

Finishing extra points test, scrapping

Getting some small stuff, getting job replacement

Sore feet, fatigued

I needed to catch up on sleep

Rest, relaxation

Gave gift of my presence

Study extras – take breaks

5/7/13 TUES 9:45

Brisk sunny

Cinco de mayo

Jude received my mother’s day card

Scrapping and seeing the area up closer

Upholding scrapping laws

Bloated and tired

I am lazy and sometimes lazier still

Talk with mike, jude’s email

Gave the gift of my presence

A&P

5/9/13 THURS 12:15

Cool

No news is good news

Pat pio called tonight I had A&P II w/ friends tonight

What the future holds

Supporting myself

Very well, not quite where I want to be but close

I am getting more comfortable talking with people and I belong amongst the rabble for lack of a better word

Palpating and talking with classmates

Gave the gift of my presence

Moxa ren 8 w/ salt and make a plan regarding next job and go on a hunch to municipal office – or county office or local – fishing clubs

5/9/13 THURS 11:30

Rainy, damp, wind and cold

No news is good news…

No word from jude or dad and chris, sent an email to the effect that I would like to come home for the night

The possibility of coming home

Mom – her knee and her stress level caused by bureaucratic stuff

Very compassionate to my mother and father and sister and brother lately

I have mixed feelings about quitting at the zoo. I want to use it as a learning experience and maybe I can make an impact to the zoo in my own way someday without the stress, the pressure, the rules

Just having pride in my profession – I’m an acupuncturist and herbalist

I gave the gift of my presence

Coffee making letters

5/10/13 THURS 11:15

Cloudy with the chance of a driveby

No news…

Talked with jude about things and tom talked with me for a while

Practical joking about my neighbors

Anger from loud neighbors

Angry frustrated, and at my boiling point

What I knew all along – these girls like to drink and puke their brains out on Thursdays

God bless America

Thanked tom

Coffee prep.

5/11/13 FRI 11:30

Rainy and balmy sub tropical

No news…

I wished jude goodbye after midnight and spent morning afternoon talking with dad

Getting some money – changing for the better

Nothing

Very well

I am really – my brain is functioning at all levels

Joking with brian and eric

Gave the gift of my presence

Bronze-figure model aka clay model w/ needle-access – to points for demonstrations – w/ plastic ear

Pitch bob duggan’s rededining health

5/12/13 SUN 10:00

Crisp, brisk

No news…

I had dinner with my friend tom and his family

Getting some money scrapping, changing for the better, holding down a job for 5 years

Cold but optimistic

Seeing families in strife is hard

Seeing Joshua and long talk with vester and making him laugh til he cried ssaying – it doesn’t matter if you like Roethlisberger, he likes you

Made vester laugh til he cried

Scrap, appt. with mike, copy – journal

5/13/13 MON 11:00

Sunny, brisk no nign

Wrote and dad responded regarding nj clubs I went to my friend mike’s acupuncture treatment center than got lost on the way back

Movies and nice weather, days and porches

Jacque, family, security, money, respect and credentials, sore, tired, diuretic, I need a map of Montclair in my car

Treatment, getting home

Thinking of Susie and home

Thanked tom and sent him deadman illustrations

Know back points cold

Book of Deeds Vol. 211

3/23/13 FRI 8:15

Cold, very

Ncaa basketball tournament

Dad and chris left for Fayette Jude to school and I left in afternoon and spent rest of day w/ chores, unpacking, tv, etc., jude phoned following school

Sleep living in the wow – seeing what circumstances are next

Pressure, tests, clinic, bravery and courage

Tired, tad frustrated

Hyperfocusing on ne

Orderliness

Note of thanks to jude

Ride tomorrow out, live in the wow

3/23/13 SAT 11:45

Cold p/s

Ncaa tourni

I went out to dinner with tom and his family, went to saa all day, homework and classwork late

What’s next, esp in Joaquin Phoenix’s career, may be the finest American actor living today

Joaquin Pheonix’s condition, sobriety for him seems doubtful, ryan, al and andy’s health – my health, my kidney balance

Very fine

I am energized, I like family life especially early to preadolescent life and it’s teaching me lessons

Dinner w/ tom and his family

Compliments to tom’s family

Recommend king of California to tom, lymph node pts for Norman, letters to tom and his family, vester, Joshua, norva,

4/1/13 MON 10:20

Sl. Right, drizzle, p/s besides

Ncaa final four set, compound leg fracture one Louisville player

I was transported back to Montclair by chris, jude is mailing my things I forgot to bring followed up on job opp’s

Getting my things, women, living in the wow, rest qigong

My endurance, commitment and discipline, my fear and cowardice

Bit like a coward, like a survivalist

I am finally acknowledging how I honestly feel about myself

Chris’s help dad’s help

Held the door, gave the gift of my listening

Leslie’s cash, sj review, A&P, review, if possible

4/3/13 WED 1:45

Cold, p/s

Notre dame in final four (w)

No news from family. I studied and went to class made inquiries into jobs AC conference details

Ac trip

Ac trip – chris’s decision, lustig

Bloated, feel tired

I have no confidence in what I’m saying

Dr. zheng’s stories

Gave the gift of my listening

Lookover a&p II notes

4/4/13 THURS 12:00

Cold/ p/s, very sunny very windy

Mark Cuban insinuates woman ncaa player could play in nba

Called jude about marriot rewards and suggested got reply about going to AC, Jude approved talked shortly with Jude

Getting some errands done, finish the calls

Saa, five element skills for conference

Good

Adaptation had a nice message about love

Osgood slaughter comment and response class had, dinner with mike

Gave chris a chance to stay in AC

Errands

4/4/13 THURS 11:00

p/s brisk

Rutgers men’s bball coach fired for physical and mental abuse of players

No word from family, I did errands during the day

Women, moving, the future, trip to Peru

My obsession w/ a trip to Peru and fixation on tobacco

Tired, wanting of sleep

Sleeping on table may not be the most restful sleep, perhaps the group and w/ stronger pillows

Trying out table for nap, seeing neighbor, trip through herb garden

Booked hotel for chris and i

Email jennum, check for help wanted signs – Sunday and Monday – buy paper tomorrow

4/5/13 FRI 11:05

Very nice mid-50’s, 60s

On sale former home of Russian spies

No word from family, pat called w/ news about hearing time being converted to work release

Moving forward w/ paper and reviewing for comps doing well on comps, meditation qigong

The amount of ink in my pen, my lack of romantic love, nostalgic dreams

Lustful and low energy

I am lustful at certain junctures

Sleep, pat calling, being called sir

Gave boy the chance at a tennis ball

Push through saa course.

4/7/13 SUN 12:45

Cold, sunny

Final 4, ncaa championship will be Louisville and Michigan

Email from jude this morning regarding accentuating the positive I skipped my saa course to opt to take it third year

Women, sleep, sun, Monday and Tuesday – what time I’ll spend those days

Getting up for tai chi

Well, psyched, nervous, wary, tentative expectant

I am expectant

Tom – def. dinner with tom

Payed for dinner tonight – Joshua

Groceries/work on those names norva and vester, note that jess told me the only hat she wore without fussing is your cap and hand letter to tom.

4/8/13 MON 2:00

Spring time warm, brisk

Double header in NBA

Called jude tonight

Meditation

My responsibilities at A.C. conference

Scared and wired, worried

I am avoidant

Saying hi to people

Gave the gift of my presence.

Think about garden plans, 5 element

4/9/13 TUES 12:45

Warm, sunny

Anniversary of Kurt Cobain’s death current runs “Kurt & Courtney”

No news from family or friends I did very little ended up taking a walk at halftime of championship game

Immortal qigong, diagnosis in theory and applying knowledge

How much info I’ve retained, my skills and my knowledge being tested

Unsure, guilty somewhat, indecisive, fearful, stuck-like

I feel a bit stuck

Albrecht

n/a

see what you can do – clean too

4/10/13 WED 1:15

Summery

Conn. Women win ncaa chmpnship

Word from jude regarding checques and precautions I attended errands and went to class in the afternoon

Immortal qigong peru plans, learning more about ayahuasca – perhaps getting a commission to help herbal and acupuncture students interested in sacha runa, etc.

My skills as an acupuncturist, retaining info, application of skills on the fly without books

Well, st. upset slight

I really am embracing each day and living it to the fullest

Young Victoria

Gave people the gift of my presence

Finish letter and mopping, laundry, review

4/10/13 WED 10:30

Rainy, t-storm

n/a

chris came to stay the night before out AC trip. Had A&P II tonight and pizza late at nauna bella’s with chris

AC seeing some of the sights

The drive

Ok

n/a

dinner with

dinner with chris

drive, print directions

4/11/13 THURS 10:10

Foggy, spritzy, windy, cold

Snowstorm hits west

Word from jude and emailed her back. I spent the day at neaahp conference booth at revels. Dinner at hard rock café

Girls (Verona), turtleback zoo job

Turtleback zoo – and getting there

Good

About Kelly and Erika

Kelly and Erika, jesse joyce of axis comedy club, gotham comedy live

Dinner w/Chris

Call and organize w/ turtleback zoo about job

4/13/13 FRI 10:20

Cold, rainy, foggy

Suicide, kidnap, bullying, n. korea

Chris and I drove back from Atlantic City to Montclair and I unloaded, worked on taxes

Peru, imoortal qigong benefits

Getting up for tai qi

Tired and prepared for robin

I am judging robin instead of accepting her for who she is

Drive back, chores, rest right now

Wrote ryan, thanked jess

No picking at skin and no fidgeting, mail tax form and letter to noeckers

4/14/13 SUN 12:15

Cool, sunny, brisk, more than anything

Kobe Bryant had surgery on torn Achilles heel

Word from jude regarding nyc trip and email from dad wondering about working at turtleback

Making some money

Job responsibility and security, anything I can do to prepare

Anxious, not looking forward to the long day

Spermatorrhea stops me in my tracks

Meals

n/a

make a list

4/15/ MON 12:00

Warm, nice temp

n/a

email exchanges w/ jude and dad, went to class all day and then called jude about expenses

to-do list, immortal qigong, chicks

love life, program progress

tired, bit incapacitated and worried, lonesome, desirous

I desire company

Deanna and tom – conversation and exchanges, Mitchell asking how I was, finishing tai chi and 1 more until completion

Letters, give gift of my presence

To-do list

4/15/13 MON 10:15

Brisk, but warm

Kobe Bryant out 6-9 months w/ Achilles tear

Word from jude thanking me for rundown of expenses

Starting to make money

Putting socking some away

Rage and anger towards noise of my neighbors

Tired, bloated, sore, acquiescent

Shortcuts are a loophole through fear

n/a

gave gift of my presence

give long, hard look to GB

4/17/13 WED 1:30

Warm, tropical

Boston bombing at marathon

No word from Jude besides short email

Immortal qigong, women

Turtleback calling/not callin for position

Overheated, worried, apprehensive lonely

Opportunities to introduce myself to women is slim to none

Dinner, naps

n/a

do study for A&P II and event. Lookover liver.