4/18/13 THURS 1:30
Warm
No words from family I went to class @ night
Forging something special @ turtleback zoo
Fitting in, making mistakes
Stomach is unsettled, dry throat, stomach ache
I find tom green very funny
Tom green, mike
Gave gift of my presence
Look for medicinal plants @ eagle rock reservation
4/19/13 FRI 1:00
Rain late, fog at night
No news
No word from jude besides indecision regarding plans
Getting to borrow a car, scrapping and making extra cash
besides turtleback zoo
Backlash from scrapping work, police involvement –
interrogation, fine, etc.
Well, needing a nap everyday
Every day as of recently I’ve needed a nap
Nothing seemed to brighten my day
n/a
bring up scrapping list on computer – any like, abandoned resorts
4/20/13 SAT 1:50
Rainy
Bombers in shootout w/ mit police, 1 shot dead, older
brother killed, younger captured
Word from dad via jude they plan to come Sunday. No
consequence to what I did today
Immortal qigong, women
How long till prayers are answered
Bloated, stuffy, awake, fussy
I have to pray to get women
The response from the parents of the two bombers
Shirt to red cross
Do your thing
4/20/13 SAT 10:35
Overcast p/s
Contacted chris and dad to come @ 7 p.m.
Chris and dad and dinner
Stamina, starting Monday @ turtleback
Bloated, sore, back pain
4/20 is the day that everyone smokes marijuana because it is
near earth day
Thinking about romance
n/a, gave gift of my presence
stick through pm
4/21/13 SUN 10:30
Sunny, cold, p/c
n/a
chris and dad came & dropped off car, stayed for dinner.
I was at class all day and at comps bioscience review
getting paid, doing some scrapping
liver test, tests, papers
bloated, constipated
I need some Tylenol BM, dinner at Kebab House
Saw if young man @ subway was alright
Lookover zoo map so you know that you can direct people
toward exhibits
4/23/13 TUES 12:20
Cold, sunny
pNC bank (my local bank) was robbed this afternoon, Lauryn
Hill in trouble for tax evasion
dad – received contact from and comment about yesterday
qigong, woman relationship, herbs, peru , ed – contact btw us
how I’m received by ed, whether he’ll want to come to peru
bloated, stuffed, full, etc.
dreading, fearful
I don’t sleep well the night before work, I may not be
suited to anything but laborious work
Promise of pay
Gave gift of my presence
Study for liver quiz and be – catch up on lost sleep
4/23/13 TUES
Cold, lt. precip.
n/a
no news, except reaction to my email about turtleback, I had
class all day
getting some money and scrapping a little bit
damage to Chris’s seats and trunk with barbs, dirt
bloated, sore, tired
I need a woman, I realized that there’s not a day I’m not at
work or going to school
Short day, jokes
Gave gift of my presence
Learn to use the microphone and how to take pride in your
job - acupuncture referrals & info sheets
4/23/13 WED 11:55
Cool, on the verge
Stock market cyber terrorist infiltrates wall street
Called Judith on the way home from school worked and had
school all night
Getting my first paycheck, too hard to say
Getting overloaded with stress
Overcome w/ sympathy – do not proffer sympathy to the
mentally ill it’s a bottomless pit
I need to figure out what a 7-week stay will cost – roughly
– start savings for it I’ve gotta find out who’s a candidate for herbs I want
to have the experience of eastern to the fullest
Smiles, laughter, probably cheering up the crying kids
Gave the gift of my peaceful presence
Remember names maria, joan, a peaceful person beating the
shit out of a war-monger – tastefully, with pads, stever Irwin- have you ever
met an Australian – a NORMAL Australian
4/24/13 Thursday
Cool, brisk w/ sun, very moderate
Nba playoffs nfl draft
Called family and friends made the rounds with everyone
Really everything
Fear
Ready to confront fear, what’s the worst that could happen
Life is hard but it gets better
Lots of stuff
Gave the gift of my presence
Hand out more referrals, write a book called hard road and
the hippos were boiled in their tanks – checkout or find a way of purchasing
4/28/13 MON 1:00 a.m. Something
Balmy
No news is good news, so news is no good
No contact with family, my eastern friends, hillary had a
pregnancy treatment, played bball with mason and his brother
Living, breathing, experiencing
Stress, anxiety, fear, authority
Stronger and wanting to get stronger
I like getting exercise
Treatment – treating ryan – anybody, learning release points
like pressing buttons
I treated and had a heart to heart talk with ryan – that
hopefully he got
Do what you did today
4/30/13 TUES 11:10
Brisk, sunny
No news
No word from family friends w/ me @ channel
Finishing all the acupoints and extra points
Indications and functions
Well – healthy
I’m learning more and more to be a model for good behavior
The walk to watchung
I gave the gift of my presence
Pick some herbs
5/2/13 THURS 1:30
Brisk
No news is good news
Ryan came over after class and I had work and then class all
day
Rest tonight
My stress level and fear of work
Sore feet
I don’t want my edema to get worse I may try to get it
treated, or at least try to get fitted in for a treatment tomorrow before work
Ryan – talking w/ him
Invited him to view workaholics
Try and get an appointment through a cancellation, etc.
5/3/13 FRI 12:30
Sunny and warm
No news is good news so news is no good
Called parents tonight and rehabbed foot, today met with
them
Fear
Fear
Ok at the moment
I unlearn something everyday
Rest and relaxation
Gave the gift of my presence
Relax and live moment to moment
5/4/13 SAT 12:00
Cool eve
Brking news bout boston
marathon bombers
No news is good news so news is no good
Sleeping, resting tomorrow
My feet and my future at turtleback
Fatigued, guilty, sore, foreboding
I’ll use any excuse to get out of work
Getting to sleep early
Gave the gift of my presence
Do some catching up on schoolwork
5/5/13 SUN 12:40
Cold
No news is good news so news is no good
Jude emailed me
Getting some rest
Fear, anxiety, guilt, joblessness, just how I’m going to
react to a call to maria
Feet are sore from my guess walking and standing on a rubber
floor all day
I’m going to have to take a break for my own sake – it’s
painful
Just relating to others, connecting
Called Ed, texted pat
Leave detailed feedback w/ maryann after mike diagnoses me
5/5/13 MON 11:45
Cold
No news is good news
No news from my family and friends is a useful label (we’re
all one) it appears like two sometimes
Resting, finding a more suitable job, seeing how much I can
scrap
The volume of money I’ll make scrapping, if the plantar
fasciitis will hinder my progress
A bit guilty, I feel ashamed, at same time I realize I’ve
got to do some work w/ myself and my program to make myself whole again
Shame follows promises that have not been kept – it’s a
powerful feeling
Bball w/ some Montclair kids,
cell phone returned by Norman
Gave the gift of my presence
Call about check through mail, scrap
5/6/13 MON 11:30
Cold
No news…
No word from my family or friends convo w/ tom gormley
tonight
Finishing extra points test, scrapping
Getting some small stuff, getting job replacement
Sore feet, fatigued
I needed to catch up on sleep
Rest, relaxation
Gave gift of my presence
Study extras – take breaks
5/7/13 TUES 9:45
Brisk sunny
Cinco de mayo
Jude received my mother’s day card
Scrapping and seeing the area up closer
Upholding scrapping laws
Bloated and tired
I am lazy and sometimes lazier still
Talk with mike, jude’s email
Gave the gift of my presence
A&P
5/9/13 THURS 12:15
Cool
No news is good news
Pat pio called tonight I had A&P II w/ friends tonight
What the future holds
Supporting myself
Very well, not quite where I want to be but close
I am getting more comfortable talking with people and I
belong amongst the rabble for lack of a better word
Palpating and talking with classmates
Gave the gift of my presence
Moxa ren 8 w/ salt and make a plan regarding next job and go
on a hunch to municipal office – or county office or local – fishing clubs
5/9/13 THURS 11:30
Rainy, damp, wind and cold
No news is good news…
No word from jude or dad and chris, sent an email to the
effect that I would like to come home for the night
The possibility of coming home
Mom – her knee and her stress level caused by bureaucratic
stuff
Very compassionate to my mother and father and sister and
brother lately
I have mixed feelings about quitting at the zoo. I want to
use it as a learning experience and maybe I can make an impact to the zoo in my
own way someday without the stress, the pressure, the rules
Just having pride in my profession – I’m an acupuncturist
and herbalist
I gave the gift of my presence
Coffee making letters
5/10/13 THURS 11:15
Cloudy with the chance of a driveby
No news…
Talked with jude about things and tom talked with me for a
while
Practical joking about my neighbors
Anger from loud neighbors
Angry frustrated, and at my boiling point
What I knew all along – these girls like to drink and puke
their brains out on Thursdays
God bless America
Thanked tom
Coffee prep.
5/11/13 FRI 11:30
Rainy and balmy sub tropical
No news…
I wished jude goodbye after midnight and spent morning
afternoon talking with dad
Getting some money – changing for the better
Nothing
Very well
I am really – my brain is functioning at all levels
Joking with brian and eric
Gave the gift of my presence
Bronze-figure model aka clay model w/ needle-access – to
points for demonstrations – w/ plastic ear
Pitch bob duggan’s rededining health
5/12/13 SUN 10:00
Crisp, brisk
No news…
I had dinner with my friend tom and his family
Getting some money scrapping, changing for the better,
holding down a job for 5 years
Cold but optimistic
Seeing families in strife is hard
Seeing Joshua and long talk with vester and making him laugh
til he cried ssaying – it doesn’t matter if you like Roethlisberger, he likes
you
Made vester laugh til he cried
Scrap, appt. with mike, copy – journal
5/13/13 MON 11:00
Sunny, brisk no nign
Wrote and dad responded regarding nj clubs I went to my
friend mike’s acupuncture treatment center than got lost on the way back
Movies and nice weather, days and porches
Jacque, family, security, money, respect and credentials,
sore, tired, diuretic, I need a map of Montclair
in my car
Treatment, getting home
Thinking of Susie and home
Thanked tom and sent him deadman illustrations
Know back points cold
