3/23/13 FRI 8:15
Cold, very
Ncaa basketball tournament
Dad and chris left for Fayette Jude to school and I left in
afternoon and spent rest of day w/ chores, unpacking, tv, etc., jude phoned
following school
Sleep living in the wow – seeing what circumstances are next
Pressure, tests, clinic, bravery and courage
Tired, tad frustrated
Hyperfocusing on ne
Orderliness
Note of thanks to jude
Ride tomorrow out, live in the wow
3/23/13 SAT 11:45
Cold p/s
Ncaa tourni
I went out to dinner with tom and his family, went to saa
all day, homework and classwork late
What’s next, esp in Joaquin Phoenix’s career, may be the
finest American actor living today
Joaquin Pheonix’s condition, sobriety for him seems
doubtful, ryan, al and andy’s health – my health, my kidney balance
Very fine
I am energized, I like family life especially early to
preadolescent life and it’s teaching me lessons
Dinner w/ tom and his family
Compliments to tom’s family
Recommend king of California to tom, lymph node pts for
Norman, letters to tom and his family, vester, Joshua, norva,
4/1/13 MON 10:20
Sl. Right, drizzle, p/s besides
Ncaa final four set, compound leg fracture one Louisville player
I was transported back to Montclair by chris, jude is mailing my things
I forgot to bring followed up on job opp’s
Getting my things, women, living in the wow, rest qigong
My endurance, commitment and discipline, my fear and
cowardice
Bit like a coward, like a survivalist
I am finally acknowledging how I honestly feel about myself
Chris’s help dad’s help
Held the door, gave the gift of my listening
Leslie’s cash, sj review, A&P, review, if possible
4/3/13 WED 1:45
Cold, p/s
Notre dame in final four (w)
No news from family. I studied and went to class made
inquiries into jobs AC conference details
Ac trip
Ac trip – chris’s decision, lustig
Bloated, feel tired
I have no confidence in what I’m saying
Dr. zheng’s stories
Gave the gift of my listening
Lookover a&p II notes
4/4/13 THURS 12:00
Cold/ p/s, very sunny very windy
Mark Cuban insinuates woman ncaa player could play in nba
Called jude about marriot rewards and suggested got reply
about going to AC, Jude approved talked shortly with Jude
Getting some errands done, finish the calls
Saa, five element skills for conference
Good
Adaptation had a nice message about love
Osgood slaughter comment and response class had, dinner with
mike
Gave chris a chance to stay in AC
Errands
4/4/13 THURS 11:00
p/s brisk
No word from family, I did errands during the day
Women, moving, the future, trip to Peru
My obsession w/ a trip to Peru and fixation on tobacco
Tired, wanting of sleep
Sleeping on table may not be the most restful sleep, perhaps
the group and w/ stronger pillows
Trying out table for nap, seeing neighbor, trip through herb
garden
Booked hotel for chris and i
Email jennum, check for help wanted signs – Sunday and
Monday – buy paper tomorrow
4/5/13 FRI 11:05
Very nice mid-50’s, 60s
On sale former home of Russian spies
No word from family, pat called w/ news about hearing time
being converted to work release
Moving forward w/ paper and reviewing for comps doing well
on comps, meditation qigong
The amount of ink in my pen, my lack of romantic love,
nostalgic dreams
Lustful and low energy
I am lustful at certain junctures
Sleep, pat calling, being called sir
Gave boy the chance at a tennis ball
Push through saa course.
4/7/13 SUN 12:45
Cold, sunny
Final 4, ncaa championship will be Louisville
and Michigan
Email from jude this morning regarding accentuating the
positive I skipped my saa course to opt to take it third year
Women, sleep, sun, Monday and Tuesday – what time I’ll spend
those days
Getting up for tai chi
Well, psyched, nervous, wary, tentative expectant
I am expectant
Tom – def. dinner with tom
Payed for dinner tonight – Joshua
Groceries/work on those names norva and vester, note that
jess told me the only hat she wore without fussing is your cap and hand letter
to tom.
4/8/13 MON 2:00
Spring time warm, brisk
Double header in NBA
Called jude tonight
Meditation
My responsibilities at A.C. conference
Scared and wired, worried
I am avoidant
Saying hi to people
Gave the gift of my presence.
Think about garden plans, 5 element
4/9/13 TUES 12:45
Warm, sunny
Anniversary of Kurt Cobain’s death current runs “Kurt &
Courtney”
No news from family or friends I did very little ended up
taking a walk at halftime of championship game
Immortal qigong, diagnosis in theory and applying knowledge
How much info I’ve retained, my skills and my knowledge
being tested
Unsure, guilty somewhat, indecisive, fearful, stuck-like
I feel a bit stuck
Albrecht
n/a
see what you can do – clean too
4/10/13 WED 1:15
Summery
Word from jude regarding checques and precautions I attended
errands and went to class in the afternoon
Immortal qigong peru plans, learning more about
ayahuasca – perhaps getting a commission to help herbal and acupuncture
students interested in sacha runa, etc.
My skills as an acupuncturist, retaining info, application
of skills on the fly without books
Well, st. upset slight
I really am embracing each day and living it to the fullest
Young Victoria
Gave people the gift of my presence
Finish letter and mopping, laundry, review
4/10/13 WED 10:30
Rainy, t-storm
n/a
chris came to stay the night before out AC trip. Had A&P
II tonight and pizza late at nauna bella’s with chris
AC seeing some of the sights
The drive
Ok
n/a
dinner with
dinner with chris
drive, print directions
4/11/13 THURS 10:10
Foggy, spritzy, windy, cold
Snowstorm hits west
Word from jude and emailed her back. I spent the day at
neaahp conference booth at revels. Dinner at hard rock café
Girls (Verona ),
turtleback zoo job
Turtleback zoo – and getting there
Good
About Kelly and Erika
Kelly and Erika, jesse joyce of axis comedy club, gotham
comedy live
Dinner w/Chris
Call and organize w/ turtleback zoo about job
4/13/13 FRI 10:20
Cold, rainy, foggy
Suicide, kidnap, bullying, n. korea
Chris and I drove back from Atlantic
City to Montclair
and I unloaded, worked on taxes
Getting up for tai qi
Tired and prepared for robin
I am judging robin instead of accepting her for who she is
Drive back, chores, rest right now
Wrote ryan, thanked jess
No picking at skin and no fidgeting, mail tax form and
letter to noeckers
4/14/13 SUN 12:15
Cool, sunny, brisk, more than anything
Kobe Bryant had surgery on torn Achilles heel
Word from jude regarding nyc trip and email from dad
wondering about working at turtleback
Making some money
Job responsibility and security, anything I can do to
prepare
Anxious, not looking forward to the long day
Spermatorrhea stops me in my tracks
Meals
n/a
make a list
4/15/ MON 12:00
Warm, nice temp
n/a
email exchanges w/ jude and dad, went to class all day and
then called jude about expenses
to-do list, immortal qigong, chicks
love life, program progress
tired, bit incapacitated and worried, lonesome, desirous
I desire company
Deanna and tom – conversation and exchanges, Mitchell asking
how I was, finishing tai chi and 1 more until completion
Letters, give gift of my presence
To-do list
4/15/13 MON 10:15
Brisk, but warm
Kobe Bryant out 6-9 months w/ Achilles tear
Word from jude thanking me for rundown of expenses
Starting to make money
Putting socking some away
Rage and anger towards noise of my neighbors
Tired, bloated, sore, acquiescent
Shortcuts are a loophole through fear
n/a
gave gift of my presence
give long, hard look to GB
4/17/13 WED 1:30
Warm, tropical
No word from Jude besides short email
Immortal qigong, women
Turtleback calling/not callin for position
Overheated, worried, apprehensive lonely
Opportunities to introduce myself to women is slim to none
Dinner, naps
n/a
do study for A&P II and event. Lookover liver.
